LETTERS FROM A CONCUBINE/WHORE PART 7, WHEN SHE CRIES IN DESOLATION AND THE STRONGER BULLIES LAUGH CLAIMING 'GOD' IS ON THEIR SIDE, THE ENEMY LAUGHS TELLING HER SHE WAS BORN TO BE DESTROYED

LETTERS FROM A CONCUBINE/WHORE PART 7, WHEN SHE CRIES IN DESOLATION AND THE STRONGER BULLIES LAUGH CLAIMING 'GOD' IS ON THEIR SIDE, THE ENEMY LAUGHS TELLING HER SHE WAS BORN TO BE DESTROYED

[WARNING, COULD TRIGGER, RA SURVIVORS BE AWARE, ALSO SEE NOTE AT BOTTOM REGARDING VIDEOS CHOSEN]

And she has struggled with this from her birth, to the present, always the enemies and bulls encamp around her, they lick their mouths and teeth laughing at their meal, they wiggle their tongues laughing serpents, teasing and taunting her and all the while telling her She wants them, that She needs them, to Save her, to Give her any Life because they, claiming to be 'gods', say they own her, they always have, that they are the rod of God, because of her many sins....she was rejected at birth and chosen for this, God chose this life for her, to pay for the sins of her ancestors....though she has tried and tried to break free, the snares always win, the Bulls of Bashen always overpower her, where is her help?  They 'kosher' her they say, they even laugh, God is on their side, when she resigns she is Guilty for bowing to the dark forces, when she Fights she is rebelling against the Most High God who is over all, both good and evil, to fight her lot, is to fight Him.  It's to learn humility,

crushed, she can't even lift her head up...how much more, the mind fragments snap and snap and the glue is not strong enough to hold her together, and the Bulls of Bashen know this, they Feast on this, it gets them off.  It is the proof of their strength, wit, might, she cannot fight them,

she is dependent on them...they made sure of that.  She is at the mercy, of both God and Bulls, and hated,

by both.

According to the drum roll that plays in her mind day in, day out, waves of sorrow, they watch all that she does, says, writes, like they eye she can never be free...in peace.  Death, becomes a friend rather than a foe, often she thinks, what does the Grim Reaper really look like, maybe it feels good to hug his dark cloak and waist as he strikes the sickle down....it will be Finally over then,

if only, she NEVER, had to wake up.  She doesn't want eternal life, she doesn't want Life at all, why should she?  She knows submission, resignation, Defeat, at the hands of Lords and Bulls and Masters and Saviors, they were All saviors.  At least they claimed while they mocked her and pumped into her, drilling for any residue of life and breath, just to hear her say, Oh yes, you are so good, so large, so strong...she knows the routine...she knows their LIES, that she's just a mirror that they look into to see just how Beautiful they are, their serpent tongue and slit eyes.  She wants to sleep, and never wake up again, so many days, this is what she wants,

don't tell her about Love, love is poison....love is just a manipulative ploy to work submission when wit and subtle is The prize like a court room with lawyers at battle...who will Subdue, 

the untamed horse, who will come out as THE WINNER?

She broken, head down, since birth, being told what Her place was to be, who She was created to be, she tried to fight it, she tried to do better for herself,

but she never could, beat, the bulls of Bashen....they were just

too

strong for her.

So she cries out, Oh Lord God, how long, how long?

 

Is the Lord God stronger, than the Bulls that encamp around her, and He answers....she will never tell, what He says, just wait, just wait, that's what she'll do,

that's all, she Can do. Ending this, with some videos, for Music Sunday...while she waits....He knows, what they mean to her....






Although this a game, there are so many relevant meanings to this video clip, I am including it, I also chose it because this song has Special Meaning for me, God knows what this means to me...

to the Bulls, you may crush, but your day, is coming, Your day, is coming.



and After that day, I will bestow upon my Lord King, He knows what, for only HE is worthy, only HE, is worthy, of all my love. [this is a very old song, this band, Mediaeval Baebes, is an all female choral, that does mostly old, VERY OLD, folk songs in ancient Latin, Gaelic, Old English], yes many of them are Celtic, even pagan, mystics, etc., but these were love songs, many of them, by women in the Medieval times, this one, Come My Sweet, is one, dedicated to my Lord, Ishi, Jesus Christ. [see note at bottom of video]



NOTE: it should be Strongly noted, some of the songs by some of the bands I may chose here, I do NOT support of of them, nor refer to, I also want TO WARN, that if you look into these bands/or their c.d.s/esp Videos many do pertain to the goddess/wicca religions, not All the songs but many of them do, I DO NOT SUPPORT NOR DO ANY OF THE GODDESS WORSHIP, (been there done that and I know the LIES of] I have strong reasons why I do not, I do not believe in them, I believe they are COUNTERFEITS, STOLEN WATER IS SWEET, OF THE REAL DEAL, USING DISTORTIONS--HOWEVER, THAT ASIDE, THE OTHER 'LIES' ARE IN PATRIARCHAL RELIGION--THE GENDER ROLES-GODDESS AND SEXUAL SACRIFICE ARE THE SAME, ONE IN THE DARK, THE OTHER IN THE GUISE OF 'RELIGIOUS GOODNESS', BOTH FROM THE SAME SOURCE.

This is why I, personally, do not have a problem listening or using Some of the music, evil is present Everywhere, you can't avoid it...we are to overcome it, I don't follow evil nor cling to it [at least try not to], but I don't deny it's existence either, I can't, been the victim of it for far too long, have known it, tasted it, and seen it. Anyway, to WARN you, some of the videos IF you hit on them [at the bottom of the last] ARE wiccan, I would avoid them, many of them WILL TRIGGER IN HUGE WAY FOR RA SURVIVORS SUCH AS MYSELF OR TRIGGER FOR THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN DELIVERED FROM THE LIES OF THESE BELIEFS, THIS IS WHERE I, MYSELF HAVE TO BE VERY, VERY CAREFUL. Many of the songs are not wiccan, many of them are, like on Medieval Babes, I do not know if they are a Wiccan band, I just know they do ancient songs, some of them, religious.

Many will tell you wiccan or wicca is not the same as Satanism, I won't get into arguments there, I don't know all the ins and outs of Wicca, never got into it that much, I am a nature advocate but I believe in a Higher Creater, Lord of the Sabbath, the God of the Bible, so, that is my firm decision and belief. I believe due to my experience in the goddess religions that in many ways the wicca, goddess, satanism, new age, etc. are from the same spiritual source, same deceptions, and again, these same deceptions I've seen in the patriarchal bent in Christianity Culture, what I term, Mensianity. What gets me though about many Christians is they'll get all fascist panty over anything that touches on goddess beliefs, etc., however, they'll have NO ISSUE with purity balls or Xerxes and the forced subjugation and taking of virgins, like the book of Esther, That is o.k., with them, concubinage is o.k. with them--Guess what Sherlock,

those cultures practiced goddess beliefs and wicca, so, if it's OK to prop up Some forms of it in Mensianity, but then demonize it when Women, taking Back their power from the rape/abuse in patriarchy, well, that to me, says

HYPOCRISY.

While I don't go for the whole circle high places bare naked may pole worship prostitution rings, know about it, that's enough, don't want to taste that anymore, and I can vouch that in patriarchal abusive hierarchies it's really the same damn thing, been there, done that, NO THANK YOU,

I also, don't go for the same damn thing, dressed up in white, with a Priest/or Pastor [false prophet] or an andro-centric man who is nothing more than a Warlock, posing as Christian, telling Christian women, to SUBMIT...no matter what.

Same thing, same Victimization, same soul death. Both kill women.

and BOTH, I ABHOR, they neither celebrate true love nor a woman's autonomous made in God's image nor her abilities. Other than that, the songs I do like, are not about either religion, they are just love songs or songs about prayer/knowing God, why I choose them, sometimes, that, and for me personally, they are a type of TAKING BACK, WHAT WAS STOLEN FROM ME, FOR YEARS,

AND GIVING THEM, TO OBEDIENCE, TO JESUS CHRIST. This is My WAY, of taking back so much beauty and joy that was robbed from me, destroyed in me, by BOTH, the lies of Paganism/goddess beliefs, RA and Religion...why certain songs, have a special meaning to me, songs I now give, to my Lord Jesus Christ, with all sincerity of love from my heart...IF the religious don't like it,

too bad. Not to be offensive here nor a stumbling block, just saying, I've had far more, destroyed, crushed, sexually Abused by those who profess the name of God, G_d, GOD, even Jesus, than EVER, by those, who claim to be wicca or who circle dance for goddesses, FAR MORE, so forgive me if I'm not too uh, compliant and CONFORMIST to the patriarchal woman as nothing more than pussy for her lord husband king god under mensianity crowd. They, these songs/posts are not for you, they are from my heart, to His heart. HE knows, all that they mean...that

is

enough.
Jane