nothin to say

OK well I had written a long ass post for today but then decided, not to post it...because it might cause doubt in faith for many others,

and while I am in this phase of questioning or well peeling off onion layers of bullshit off,

is it Fair for me to transfer doubt onto others?  Na,

screw it, everyone has to come to grips with what they believe themselves SO,


God knows how I feel, I'll just leave it at that--HE can deal with it, or not, up to Him, I will post instead, some music today...

when I get back to writing I will talk about tentacle one, Class Warfare.



I like this one, except I would like to change it to Don't Kill me God,



TRUTH

WHILE I'M NOT 'BLOGGING' SOMETHING FOR YOU TO THINK ABOUT

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QOBy7AVc82M

CHRISTIANS OPPOSED TO QF AND SIMILAR 'STOP BASTARDIZING AND DEMONIZING ALL HOME-SCHOOLERS'

That's Right, YOU heard me....those of you who in your Zeal to Confront the ultra-patriarchal, misogynist conservative fascist religious fanatics who are Lumping all Home Schoolers into their extremist theology,

KNOCK IT THE FUCK OFF!

Because guess what Virginia, get out from under your Christian Rock and see the REST OF THE WORLD, because the Gothards and Pearls do NOT REPRESENT ALL HOME SCHOOL COMMUNITY

NEVER DID

AND THEY NEVER

WILL.

I as a Proud LIBERAL, LEFTIST, FEMINIST, RADICAL ECOLOGIST FREE THINKER 'HOME SCHOOLER-UNSCHOOLER' AM HERE TO SAY

WE ARE NOT ALL BUTT FUGLY DARK AGES MENTALITY CONSERVATIVE PATRIARCHAL THEOLOGICAL FASCIST SHEET HANGING RUBBER TUBING CHILD BEATING  ASSWIPE MORONS...

MANY OF US, IN FACT IN MY STATE, WE LIBERAL HOME SCHOOLER'S ARE THE LARGEST PERCENTAGE, ARE THE VERY OPPOSITE OF

CHRISTIAN.

WE INCLUDE PAGAN, WICCAN, ANARCHIST, JEWISH, LIBERAL, SECULAR, ENVIRONMENTALIST-GREENS, WHO ARE FEMINIST, EARTH CENTERED, ANTI-RELIGIOUS AND ANTI-CAPITALIST, ANTI-PATRIARCHAL, AND ANTI-FASCIST...

AND WE ARE A LARGE HOME SCHOOLING AND UN-SCHOOLING AND 'CHARTER' SCHOOLING COMMUNITY ALL ACROSS THIS COUNTRY.

I am Sick to Death of Christians lumping [and secularists & anti-INDEPENDENT LEARNING types ] lumping All of us home-schoolers/unschoolers IN with the religious Nut Case types,

and I am SPEAKING UP.

As a life long unschooler-homeschooler of Three children who are now Teens, both my daughters are

Radical Feminists, Radical Environmentalists, Survivalists [GREENS] and Anti-Capitalist, Anti-Patriarchal, and Anti-Conformist!  Free thinkers, CRITICAL THINKERS, who are Self-Incentive Driven to Learn not just in a indoctrination center but All the time, not in a time frame nor until they Only reach 18, because they believe EDUCATION IS A LIFE LONG PROCESS,

as they were taught and encouraged by the family, of which is Very Diverse in religious beliefs, philosophical and Academic.  We do NOT spank our children, use rubber tubes, iron rods, teach Submission and all that other neo-con theocratic [Christian or Muslim don't make a difference] misogynist fascist BULLSHIT,

nor will we Ever.  WE are also not social fascists who 'toe the line' to support  the 'status qua' of Statist Conformity,

and WE ARE NOT ALONE, THERE ARE THOUSANDS OF US.

WE don't teach Bible curriculum and in fact, OH MY GOSH, HANG ON TO YOUR PANTIES,

WE TEACH BOTH CREATION AND EVOLUTION--

ah, my gosh, yea SHOCK EH?

And our learning style is Very eclectic, from Music theory [to jazz to rap to Underground], from ecology to chemistry to astrology, english, grammar, literature, poetry, including the 'Subversive kind' oh yea...

culture studies Along with the problems of culture Relativism, GENDER STUDIES, oh yea...there is HERSTORY as well as HISTORY,

yep, LIBERAL, LEFTIST, FREE THINKERS, ANTI-FASCIST AND ANTI-CORPORATIST,

we even wear PANTS!

Our son Cooks, one of our sons wears Nail Polish, Shock eh,

you Bet ya....

my daughters, one is music oriented, wanting to expand on her career in industrial 'mixing', a very Male dominated field, but she isn't letting That stop her

my other daughter, who is only 15 and about to graduate, is already in fashion and graphic design, 

and my son, is the mathematical history/computer genius...

very eccentric, free thinkers, and Very ANTI-PATRIARCHAL, ANTI-RELIGIOUS AND ANTI-MISOGYNIST,

and they Question EVERYTHING,

I DO MEAN QUESTION EVERYTHING--CRITICAL THINKERS, AS THEY'VE BEEN ENCOURAGED TO,

don't bother selling them Dogma on Either side of the fence, be it Right OR Left,

they won't buy it--

Ha!

Yep, I for one am really tired [and I'm not the only one] of being lumped in with the Gothard and Pearl types, look these people do NOT represent the Entire Home School community,

in fact, they actually are a minority, they just Yell the Loudest and Sell more How to Beat your Kid books,

that's all,

and what you Should be asking yourselves, is Why hasn't  the Government Done something about these Ultra Patriarchal Religious Fascist Child Raping groups/COMPOUNDS long time Ago?

Because they Utilize these groups AND they are in bed with them because They can Use these groups to Instill FEAR into the masses, so that the masses will buy into the whole 'you got to have big Brother control you and enslave you',

rather than Go after the Abusers,

they Use these Abusers [knowing full well what goes ON behind their doors] to enforce more POLICE STATE CONTROLS, POLICE NANNY STATE,

AND GUESS WHAT,

YOU LET THEM.

Don't matter if you are conservative or liberal, when YOU rely on Gov to do All for you, rather than YOU as a community/Individual stand up Against the Fascists,

then YOU are already under Their control.

It isn't until these Fascist types are a THREAT to your personal space, that you rise up, 

prior to that, for Years in this nation these religious KKK like compounds were raping, beating, killing children,

and women.

Why NOW all of a sudden the uproar?

And then to top it off, Any who are anti-group think, are lumped in with the Crazies?

Ever wonder about that?

Because that's what Gov WANTS you do do,

tick tock tick tock tick tock....

WAKE UP






SMASH THE FASCIST MACHINE---THEOCRACY AND FASCISM GO HAND IN HAND, THEY ARE NOT ENEMIES, THEOCRACY AND TOTALITARIANISM [RIGHT OR LEFT] BUT BEST OF FRIENDS....

WAKE UP

OPEN YOUR EYES

MORE GOVERNMENT CONTROL DOES NOT = LIBERTY

THEY UTILIZE RELIGIOUS FANATICISM TO GAIN CONTROL OVER 'YOU'!

BTW, Deliberately not edited for Grammar, English or Punctuation, why?  Because I love to Provoke and piss off Grammar Nazi Police!  For years I kissed the black boots of the Grammar Male Defined Language/Etiquette police of English Language, no longer,

and

I like it that way.  IF I am getting paid to write then That's another matter,

but here I am not, this is My blog, I'll write with as much miss spelin as I so damn choose,

Ha Ha,

ain't it a Biatch!

Jane, no 'gods', no 'bosses', no 'masters' , no sucking the balls of the Pyramid and no bowing to 'wanna be god husbands' or their police monkeys through religion or Educational controls and other thought Police.  No matter How many Gulags you build,

LISTEN.....LISTEN.....LISTEN

That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust.  Matthew 5:45 KJV

LOL, YEA, THOSE PATRIARCHS JUST DON'T 'GET IT' DO THEY, WHY WE JUST GOT TO KILL EM!

A

AND THEN, 

WALK AWAY, AND BE 'FREE' OF THEM AND ALL THEIR DOGMA, LIES, AND CHAINS!



Yea and like de Video, brothers, you Ain't no 'King' no matter if you get on that donkey's ass, why you can't ride em cuzz no matter how much you spew, spit, strut, you Just ain't got it,

there is only ONE KING...

and you ain't Him!

LOL--Sisters get out your BOOMERANGS, IT'S TIME TO TAKE SOME PATRIARCHY DOWN!

gotta love music messages, Oh Yea!

The COGNITIVE DISSONANCE I ALWAYS HAD AND STILL DO WITH MY WORLD AND WITH THE WORLD OF 'CHRISTIANITY IN THE WEST'

Welcome to MY WORLD....where I was born, D.C., yes lived in the Ghetto Suburbs...not AS bad as this, but close enough...

MY WORLD, except Without the 'fame' and the 'escape out Of' and in fact...most do NOT escape from THIS WORLD...




I still live in THIS WORLD....I still take the BUS, I still see the rubbish, debris, not AS much where I reside--unless I go further down--I Still live in a 'trailer', what we call 'mobile home', though it's now a bit 'upscaled', LOL if you can call it that,

I still live around the language, the cruelty, the hate, the violence, not in the same Degree--but I KNOW it's only a paycheck away to wind up in the spiral downward, just an Inch away--

for Thousands of WOMEN SUCH AS MYSELF 

THIS IS OUR TRUTH, THIS IS OUR REALITY,

there ARE no luncheons, there ARE no Wedding Showers without the outbreak of Crisis and often there are no Wedding or Baby Showers at all---for ME there never was,

there ARE no dances or gowns or honeymoons...

More of My WORLD through out my life--because Poverty does NOT end at the Ghetto or the Inner City, one doesn't Walk away from the Ghetto or Inner City and become POVERTY LESS,

 I've lived in rural 'poor' areas such as this...slept in Cars near areas such as this, hiding out from the Cops, slept in ally ways such as this...grew up Playing in empty buildings such as this, in empty fields...walked these streets, lived these streets, 


worked these jobs, Too many of these jobs, pawned, sold blood/plasma, other 'ways' to survive that I won't get into here,


You'll have to right click to see the video-- oh how I still remember that cash register and the aluminum...


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7sei-eEjy4g


the dreams, if I WORK HARD ENOUGH, SAVE ENOUGH, I TOO CAN HAVE THE CAR, CLOTHES, HOUSE...LOL, OH YEA....THE 'AMERICAN DREAM' 


LIE


lol I've even worked in those 'convenience' stores, oh yea


THIS IS MY WORLD....THE ONLY WORLD I'VE KNOWN,

Baby I remember when I DREAMED of living in a place like this, when I was on the Streets--pushing my girls in a stroller, with the Food Stamps and the AFDC, fighting the street Volvos rich bitches who could SEE me walking across the street but would drive across anyway forcing me to Run with my babies across to keep from getting run over, while their indifferent cold blank stares at me in their disgust...Oh yea I haven't forgotten, those 'others', those Better than, those Holier than, those Chosen Ones...

Yea Eminem did ya Tell them the Reason all us Ho's are Whores in the Hood, in the Ruins of Babylon, did ya bother to Tell them....that no matter if virgin or young or old we Women were all Whores, Hos, Bitches--let's play it again Shall we...





Did ya tell them that OUR only way OUT if there IS an OUT was through the men who with their smooth talking caressing promises if Only we spread for them because they promised us the Moon, the Stars, the Dreams, the Home with the Fence...did ya tell them how they walked off saying 'it's not ours you Ho' and left us to collect the welfare and the food stamps and the wic and the begging and the degrading and the SHAME

did ya Tell them that part?

Did ya know what WE thought, what WE dreamed, what WE thought....when they Told us God would Save us, Women, that WE could be like Those Chosen...funny the Chosen didn't want us near them either, funny how the 'how it Should be, how it IS for so many of those Chosen, those Good Girls--how it was only a Fantasy for us...'





Oh how we dreamed...but not in no high end Loft, how we dreamed, those scenes in that 13 inch box we would escape Into, oh how the Chosen promised us, if we JUST BELIEVED ENOUGH, JUST PRAYED ENOUGH...GOD WOULD SEND US 'THE MAN' TO SAVE US,

LOL

BUT THE TRUTH IS, THESE WERE THE MEN WE KNEW, THESE WERE THE HOMES WE KNEW, THESE WERE THE 'TRUTHS' THAT 'WE' WOMEN' COULDN'T GET AWAY FROM, EVEN WITH THE 'JOBS' AND THE 'EDUCATION' IF WE COULD GET THE LOANS TO GO--WHICH ONLY PUT US INTO WORSE DEBT...POVERTY, SOME FOR A  LIFETIME OF INDENTURED SERVITUDE ALWAYS WORKING FOR THOSE 'CHOSEN' 'GOOD ONES'

MY WORLD--THAT'S RIGHT BABY, THIS WAS AND STILL IS, IN MANY WAYS, MY WORLD--THOUGH I DIDN'T WAKE UP IN MY 'OWN NICE HOME' NOR WAS I A DRINKER...NOR DRUGGIE, YOU SEE WHEN IT'S SURVIVAL, IT DON'T 'NEED' ALCOHOL OR DRUGS, THOUGH FOR MANY THAT IS THE MEDS TO DEAL WITH THE REALITY OF TRUTH THEY LIVE WITH--THE BEAUTY OF THAT FANTASY 'LUV' IN POVERTY, THE 'LUV AS MEANS TO 'ESCAPE'...





So I deal with the COGNITIVE DISSONANCE with what I know, feel, breathe, feel,

when I read/hear those Chosen Women, and I wonder, do they know, do they EVEN know?  When I read the debates between the whole comps/egals and I laugh in my WORLD thinking 

THEY HAVE NOT A FUCKING CLUE TO WHAT LIFE IS...TO WHAT THE REAL WORLD IS, THEY ARE SO DAMN DISCONNECTED FROM 'REALITY' IN THEIR IVORY TOWERS AND SAFETY 'BUBBLES'

yet they KNOW GOD they say....WHAT GOD?  WHO IS THIS GOD THEY KNOW,

cuzz it AIN'T THE SAME GOD, I KNOW, IT AIN'T THE SAME JESUS I KNOW, 

 yea the Jesus I know ain't talking about gender and whether or not Christians men should spank their wives 100 times to make her 'obey', na the Jesus I know ain't sitting around talking that shit

even if HE did no one would wince, probably just Laugh--then Scream...cuzz you see the Jesus I know, is there in front of those long ass lines where those without Teeth and those with the arm scars and those with the pelvic inflammatory disease and those with the blood shot eyes and those broken fragment minds with the screams of war ringing in their head are waiting for a Meal, a Bed,

a Shoulder to Cry on....they ain't waiting on no Heavenly Deliverance because they already IN HELL, they just looking TO SURVIVE--ONE MORE DAMN DAY,

I still remember those long ass lines, food banks--food hand outs, Hear the Gospel and seeing the little toddlers with hands turning Blue from frostbite while they wait on a Baloney sandwich--that is one memory I will NEVER FORGET, that little child with the blue hands because the Asshole just Had to preach for a hour while so many stood in line, many of them who WORKED, to get a lunch--in freezing Winter, lines like this one, that are Growing in America today BTW,

the hilarious thing is the Chosen ones say, Why Communism, it was Bread lines, why the Way of the Chosen, the Trickle Down, is fair and just....it's GOD's Way, their 'god', funny I wonder DID they  talk to the same Jesus that so many of Those people and Ho's talked to?  Those who in the Dream oh yea baby--stand in BREAD LINES.....lol, OH THE OPIATE, BABY TAKE A HIT---IT FEELS REAL GOOD,

For them, if they can just Hang on, ONE MORE DAMN DAY...

while some who WE know at those Missions Downtown, in the Rural Poor areas and in the Barrio and in the Ghetto, they  ain't Jesus, many of them are just Pulpit Pimps but hey WE don't care cuzz IT'S BETTER DAN NOTHING, we are GRATEFUL AND BESIDES, THOSE PIMPS JUST BROKEN POOR LIKE US....they just trying to GET by like the rest of us drags and drag queens and whores and unemployed and old...poor

So I deal with the COGNITIVE DISSONANCE between So many worlds because I've traveled in several--not with Any wealth of my own except for a brief time when my daddy died and so I got to move up a notch or two then--but you see with Child with No father that didn't last long--no child support coming in and starting out Way too old--too late, you see even WITH an education that Whore life and that Street Life don't just LEAVE YA you know---it stays on the resume

and the CHOSEN know it--they can smell it, even without mention of, don't ask me how but they KNOW it--maybe it's in the Lines in our Faces, 

maybe it's the calls to the babysitter saying Please don't quit can't you Wait for that boyfriend, that drug fix...I needs this job...

so we wind up with the men Again--moving up a notch or too, it Ain't about Love baby, it's about 
SURVIVAL

so What your GOD and JESUS gonna do for me there?  They tell us to Submit, to Spread as IF we fucking don't know HOW TO DO THAT ALREADY

fucking assholes

THEY TRAINING US TO BE 'SERVANTS' TO BE 'DOCILE' TO BE GOOD GIRLS

IN OTHER WORDS,

FUCK GOOD BITCH

IT WILL PAY YOUR WAY...

yea don't like that kind of language, too bad, boo hoo, Welcome to MY WORLD

because the TRUTH is, for Women, don't matter if you are in rags and screwing in the back alley or in some Loft somewhere in a nice satin sheet bed

it's all the same, to Them

we are HOS AND WHORES.

So maybe, it ain't COGNITIVE DISSONANCE AFTER ALL--MAYBE IT'S JUST THAT

WE SEE THE WORLD FOR WHAT THE WORLD REALLY IS...

OUR WORLD



Oh, one thing I do have in common, many of us HO's with Eminem, LOL, we's WHITE too,

yea, that whole it's only Color that is poor, is total 

BULLSHIT....

oh yea--I just Had to say that one...and no WE ain't no MINORITY POOR EITHER--THERE ARE THOUSANDS OF US...THOUSANDS.  WE MIGHT EVEN BE IN YOUR RICH --MIDDLE CLASS CHURCHES, YOU WOULD NEVER KNOW US CUZZ YOU SEE WE LEARNED HOW TO ACT, HOW TO DRESS THE PART,

THOSE 'WHITE CHOSEN' TAUGHT US WELL--IN THE SCHOOLS, ON THE STREETS, WE KNOW THE GAME, WE KNOW...WE ALSO KNOW WHEN THEY FIND OUT WE POOR WHITE TRASH JUST HOW EASY THEY TURN THEIR BACKS,

IN SHAME AND DISGUST CUZZ YOU SEE WE ESPECIALLY US 'HOs' DO THE UTMOST DAMAGE TO THE 'MYTHS AND LIES' OF SUPERIORITY 

WE EXPOSE THEIR BETRAYALS, THEIR LIES, THEIR HYPOCRISY 

JUST BY WHO

WE

ARE...

SHAME AIN'T IT?


http://whitelocust.wordpress.com/2009/04/19/is-demographics-destiny-for-america/  
http://www.bvwellness.com/2010/07/20/race-still-matters-race-poverty-and-aids-in-black-america/  
http://students.stlawu.edu/theweave/index.php?option=com_myblog&category=the+poverty+report&Itemid=32  
http://www.flickr.com/photos/stevendepolo/3532199679/ 
http://nancyloo.net/tag/fox-chicago/page/2/  [food bank line, Indiana] 

Gifts from the Lord God can come in Amazing Notes!

 I was browsing through some music videos and I really wanted to share this...

this Woman, has a Voice Range that is OUT of this world, literally OUT of this world...






AMAZING!!!  But she's not the only one, check out HER high note 'whistles'







My throat hurts just Listening to her, LOL

but now, HOW high can NOTES go?

let's see, shall we? WARNING--TURN DOWN THE VOLUME, ESPECIALLY IF YOU HAVE GLASS, SERIOUSLY--TURN IT DOWN







Her name was Mado Robin, Opera...and she Sang like a Robin... [yes I also listen to Opera!, I know weird huh...LOL]



What I Didn't know however, was that my range, is extremely RARE, yea...I was low alto [I'm too old now, lol] but back in the day--IF I had know this who knows, but then I was young and liked pop music then which I couldn't Sing because I could never reach the high notes...I hated it because in Choir they stuck me in with the boys....arrgh, the only girl [teen then] stuck with the Tenors and Bass, like Yea, Joy Joy, LOL...

Then I heard this and was like, Dang, girl you could have done That!  LOL...oh well, I got into other interests so....all's well that ends well 

but HERE'S to the LOW Range Women!  

**Now, a little Surprise for you most of you will never figure one Woman in this video here that can sing...see if you can guess who, I'll give you a clue--SHE is a MODERN DAY Actress



OK Latoya, I just have to ask, What the Hell is with that Vegetable song?  It's worse than this song...that actually, LOL,

was one of my favorite 'sing a longs', from the Series, "Friends" 
now here's Quirky, some closure to the NOTES.  She can sing too, but now WHO was that Actress Singer in the low notes?


Ah, Nicole, now Who would have thought?  And SHE can Sing, beautiful voice...ok then, well let's hear the Quirky!












Jane

CUZZ I JUST FELT LIKE IT, THAT'S ALL, LOL

THIS GOES WITH THE DANCE PARTY POST BELOW, OH YEA--HAD TO ADD THIS ONE MORE VIDEO, MUSIC MESSAGE FOR TODAY!

DON'T FORGET TO SCROLL DOWN TO SEE THE REST--OH, ONE CONDITION,

YA GOT TO HAVE A SENSE OF HUMOR, AND NOT GET YOUR PANTIES IN A TWIST

;)

MORE SINGING GRAM MESSAGES THIS COMING WEEK!

BYE BYE NOW, LOVE

jANE

FREE TO DANCE, SING, ANY WAY I CHOOSE TO

Being FREE from Dogma is just Soooo Awesome,

Free to Dance, Sing, Dress the way I want to, and choose to, without Condemnation, 

so, let's Do It,  because IT is OUR LIFE [hint, if you right click, and hit on the watch video on you tube,  you can hit the big screen in the bottom right corner, Enjoy]

 



Ya this bad girl wants to say, to the Hate Mongers, War Mongers, Flag Fascist Mamma don't have a clue to the political hang on to the skirts of Right Wing, lol,





Respect works Both Ways, eh



Ah now Patriarchal Boys don't think I forgot about You, here's a Dedication to you, so Sing Along Now



Don't cry, I too used to think the day wouldn't come, when I could break free from the Lies and Dogma, But, alas



So, Why are you Quitting 'churchianity' they ask, well, Here's Why 'Brother'



Ah, now shucks, Don't Hate me because I tell the Truth,



;)

Love, Jane











link to the photo of 80s woman: http://costume.source.cc/80s-diva-p-8084.html

HOW CAN WE CLAIM SAFETY AND PEACE WHEN THERE ARE SO MANY WOUNDED WOMEN WHO BLEED PROFUSLY WHILE THE 'DOCTRINES' TAKE EVERY DIME??

WE CAN START BY TELLING THE 'SNAKE OIL CHARMERS' AND THE MEDICINE WAGON QUACKS TO TAKE A HIKE....WE DO THAT BY WALKING AWAY, REFUSING TO 'BUY' THEIR LIES, REFUSING TO ASSIST THEIR TRAFFICKING OF POISON, AND REFUSING TO HOST THEIR CIRCUS SHOWS AND MOST OF ALL

photo from: 

http://petticoatsandpistols.com/category/research-western-history/page/12/


GET OFF THE SNAKE OIL 'SEE-SAW' TIT FOR TAT WITH THEM--HAVEN'T WE DRANK ENOUGH OF THEIR 'POISON'???????


SO WHAT TO DO, WE WOUNDED ASK?


WHY WE GATHER IN OUR DIVINE 'FEMININE' CIRCLE, THE FEMININE SIDE OF 'GOD' AND WE SING TO HIM AND TO HER, MOTHER EARTH....


AFTER ALL, HE CREATES THE HEALING BALM, MOTHER EARTH BIRTHS FOR US--


AND WE BEAT OUR DRUM


AND WE DANCE--LIKE THE 'FREE' WOMEN WE ARE SUPPOSED TO BE, FREE, COLORFUL, BEAUTIFUL....





AND WE SING WITH THE CRICKETS, LOCUSTS, BEARS AND WOLVES, MOUNTAIN LIONS AND THE EAGLES....

WE SING AND REJOICE, THE LIFE BEATS, IN EVERY HEART, THE BLOOD OF LIFE FLOWS, BLOOD THAT TAKES IN THE BREATHE OF LIFE--BREATHED INTO THE SOUL OF WOMAN...MADE HER ALIVE

MADE HER HEALED--BY HIS STRIPES WE ARE HEALED...

WE DO NOT WASTE OUR EFFORTS ON QUACK MEDICINE DOCTORS, OH NO...THAT ROBS OUR ENERGY, TAKES OUR JOY, SAPS OUR MAPLE SYRUP, SAPS OUR VINE OF STRENGTH--WE DO NOT PRODUCE FRUIT--IN FIGHTING VAMPIRES ON THEIR 'LEVEL', TIT FOR TAT, SEE SAW SEE SAW THAT IS WHY IT IS CALLED

SEE SAW---STAY ON IT LONG ENOUGH IT WILL SAW YOU ASUNDER

MY SISTERS

INSTEAD, LIKE KING DAVID, LIKE MIRIAM, WHEN THE HORSE AND RIDER ARE THROWN INTO THE SEA

WE DANCE, WE DANCE LIKE OUR ANCESTORS, OUR WOMEN ONCE USED TO, BEFORE THEY WERE TOLD BY THE GOLD RAPING ENSLAVING 'VAMPIRES' THAT IT WAS 'EVIL' AND OF THE 'DEVIL' FOR THEM TO DANCE...






and LIKE MY OTHER 'NATIVE ANCESTORS' WE LEARN AND TAKE BACK

WE TAKE BACK, OUR ANCIENT WAYS--WE CHASE OUT, THE OTHER 'SERPENTS' AND 'LIARS' AND 'SCORPIONS' OUT OF OUR LANDS

WE TAKE BACK, WHAT IS RIGHTFULLY OURS, WE TAKE BACK OUR LOVE AND RESPECT FOR THE MOTHER EARTH

RIVERS, TREES, FIELDS

FROM THE ROBBER BARONS, RELIGIOUS THIEVES AND CULTURE BUTCHERS, FROM THE COLONIZERS  WHO 


ERASED THE 'FEMININE' AND TURNED HER INTO A 'WHORE', A 'HARLOT'


WHO TOOK THE IMAGE OF 'GOD' AND TURNED HIM INTO A


CORRUPTIBLE 'MAN' 


WHY WE DANCE AND WE STOMP THOSE SERPENTS AND SCORPIONS OUT OF OUR LIVES...IN JESUS NAME [THE REAL JESUS, NOT THE 'FALSE' ON SOLD TO US IN BOTTLES BY THE 'MEDICINE MEN/WOMEN']







AND WHEN THE 'DOCTORS' TELL YA, YOU ARE WRONG, YOU CAN'T BE 'FREE', OH NO, BUT YOU MUST BE ENSLAVED, MUST BE IN THEIR CHAINS, HOOKED ON THEIR 'OPIATE'

WELL, HERE'S WHAT WE DRUMMING DANCING SISTERS DO, WE SING IT LOUD AND CLEAR






HAPPY DRUMMING, DANCING AND STOMPING ON SERPENTS-SCORPIONS 

JANE

HOW CAN WE CLAIM 'SAFETY AND PEACE' WHEN THERE IS NO SAFETY AND PEACE FOR MILLIONS THAT WE STOLEN FROM

video messages for today [on leave from blogging] -- photo /wallpaper from link:

http://www.squidoo.com/gaming-wallpaper
TO WALK THE WAY, WE MUST RETURN WHAT IS STOLEN FROM OTHERS BY DIRECT THEFT OR BY INDIRECT, LOVE DOES NOT REJOICE IN THE IMPOVERISHMENT OF OTHERS SO THAT ONE MAY HAVE...

 



Love does not insist on the rights of Race, Ethnicity, Religion, Isms, at the expense of others who have NO DRINKING WATER, NO HYGIENE FACILITIES WHILE BEING MANIPULATED THROUGH CONSUMPTION MARKETERS THAT THEY NEED 'TOYS' WHILE THEIR CHILDREN DIE OF DISEASE AND MALNUTRITION...





JANE

Men had Bruised and Abused Her, She Swore Love Off Forever, Until...

here's my Story...[see also Letters from a Concubine/Whore Series], after years of abuse and lies and sexual abuse/exploitation, after years of swearing off Love forever...



but it wasn't a MAN that I fell in love with, that Saved me, no, not just Any Man, but One Man, one Son of Man, who regardless, married or single, poor or rich, independent or broken, cast down, there was ONE Man, ONE SON OF MAN, WHO...

said to Me, [really listen to the words, LOL, if it helps, don't watch the video, the video kind of distracts, but if you just listen to the words, then you'll get it--the video doesn't bother me, but it might some so--it's not the video/George Michael/and the message it sends--but the message of the song, one of my favorites and one that yes, Jesus has kept every promise and why I chose it for this music post today]



who Is this Son of Man?  Who was this man who would be my Father, Lover, Teacher, for all time?  Who would not Lie to me nor Abuse me nor Enslave me, Suffocate me nor Strip me of my Soul?

And just like in the video, HE waited, and waited, for me to come to my senses, to realize that no Human love, no Human Man could Ever, love me the way HE does...nor understand me the way HE does nor want what is best for me as much as HE does--though there are marriages of bliss, our husbands do NOT make us, they do NOT complete us, they do NOT create us...we are Born alone and we Die alone...


marriages are gifts and symbolic of God's love to us, the body of Christ, as individuals and as a body--the body, a Woman.  Symbolically--this is not that hard to comprehend if you look at the  Relationship between the Sky and the Elements of and Mother Earth--and how all things, the Nucleus of them all, the Alpha and Omega, work.  My marriage should be an Expression of my relationship with Jesus, NOT the center of my entire existence nor my salvation, JESUS IS MY SALVATION AND ONLY HIM.

yet Jesus is More than just our Salvation...HE is also our husband, father, lover [HE opens the womb, HE knits the life, the seed has Both male-female chromosomes, HE is also SHE...for those who are Stuck on this whole God is male-man bunk, pick up a Biology book and LOOK at the diversity of both MALE AND FEMALE IN PLANT, ANIMAL, MICRO-ORGANISMS, CELLS, ALL OF IT, L.I.F.E.]...if GOD is LOVE then LOVE is all LOVE, what we Need, Desire, are Created For--that all gives L.I.F.E., TREE OF LIFE,

yes it sounds mystic because it IS...

mystical, mysterious, BEAUTIFUL...GLORIOUS, and ALIVE...

it's not fantasy, it's not some crutch, it is REAL, every Breath we take is Alive--Elements, all of it, we SEE it when we OPEN OUR HEARTS TO LOVE...


and when we Do, you can hear, Jesus whisper in your ear...



I am here to say...while independence is great, while strength is good, while human love is comforting, even joyful [at times], all in all,

it does NOT fill the void in our hearts, only One can....and HE is Faithful.

and one day, HE is coming Home, oh yea, ARE we TOUGH ENOUGH FOR HIS LOVE? BECAUSE HE IS COMING HOME TO GET US...OH YEA, OVER THE MOUNTAINS HE IS...



so If you are down, IF you are stumbling along the way, Remember Sister...HE is STILL LOVING YOU,



HANG IN THERE SISTERS...WE ARE LOVED.

In solidarity,

Jane

P.S. Yea I use secular music--He talks to me a lot through secular music as well as all other forms of music--for those of you who may be lurking and think that this Love Affair I have with Jesus is a bit 'out there' or 'crazy' or some
'crutch',

let me suggest to you, confess now, Let there be Corn, Wine, Flowers that go into your Perfume, Salt that goes into your bath salts, Air that you breathe, Water that you drink, bathe/soak in and your body is 70% of, the Moon that shines on your and lights your way in the dark reminding you that Every month, all seasons of Life, when it's dark, HE always is there, to Light your way...

and On and On and On, it would take a BOOK to fill the pages of All He/She does to show us their ETERNAL LOVE FOR US,

so...

open your eyes, and LOOK.

Love,

Jane

CUZZ I JUST FEEL LIKE IT!

to the person who made this video--GENIUS!!! ;)

ABSOLUTELY GENIUS

HOMESICK LETTERS FROM A CONCUBINE/WHORE A SPECIAL DIFFERENT SOMETHING TODAY FOR MY HEART--TO THOSE I HAVE LOVED AND WHO TAUGHT ME LOVE

HOMESICK LETTERS FROM A CONCUBINE/WHORE A SPECIAL DIFFERENT SOMETHING TODAY FOR MY HEART AND SOUL, FOR HE IS RESTORING TO ME --TO THOSE I HAVE LOVED AND WHO TAUGHT ME LOVE,

GOD'S LOVE DIVERSE, SOMETIMES HIDDEN, YET ALWAYS CONSISTENT, LOOKING BACK I SEE IT MORE AND MORE. THANK YOU JESUS....FOR ALL THESE PRECIOUS THINGS.  MAY I NEVER FORGET THEM AND MAY I PASS LOVE FORWARD...AS YOU WOULD DESIRE.


~~HOMESICK~~







YEA!  THIS IS SO MUCH MORE LIKE IT, THANK YOU JESUS






SONGS LORD DON'T LET THEM BE SILENCED NOR FORGOTTEN



SET THE PRISONERS FREE JESUS, SET THEM FREE



There are Prisoners today, MILLIONS, CALLED

``SHE``

Oh Lord, prisoners even among your own, since the Beginning...

where is the Water to Wade in?

I will close this today, with this video--

our hearts, are in worse chains...chains, you know, what I speak of....



~~HOMESICK~~

LETTERS FROM A CONCUBINE/WHORE PART 7, WHEN SHE CRIES IN DESOLATION AND THE STRONGER BULLIES LAUGH CLAIMING 'GOD' IS ON THEIR SIDE, THE ENEMY LAUGHS TELLING HER SHE WAS BORN TO BE DESTROYED

LETTERS FROM A CONCUBINE/WHORE PART 7, WHEN SHE CRIES IN DESOLATION AND THE STRONGER BULLIES LAUGH CLAIMING 'GOD' IS ON THEIR SIDE, THE ENEMY LAUGHS TELLING HER SHE WAS BORN TO BE DESTROYED

[WARNING, COULD TRIGGER, RA SURVIVORS BE AWARE, ALSO SEE NOTE AT BOTTOM REGARDING VIDEOS CHOSEN]

And she has struggled with this from her birth, to the present, always the enemies and bulls encamp around her, they lick their mouths and teeth laughing at their meal, they wiggle their tongues laughing serpents, teasing and taunting her and all the while telling her She wants them, that She needs them, to Save her, to Give her any Life because they, claiming to be 'gods', say they own her, they always have, that they are the rod of God, because of her many sins....she was rejected at birth and chosen for this, God chose this life for her, to pay for the sins of her ancestors....though she has tried and tried to break free, the snares always win, the Bulls of Bashen always overpower her, where is her help?  They 'kosher' her they say, they even laugh, God is on their side, when she resigns she is Guilty for bowing to the dark forces, when she Fights she is rebelling against the Most High God who is over all, both good and evil, to fight her lot, is to fight Him.  It's to learn humility,

crushed, she can't even lift her head up...how much more, the mind fragments snap and snap and the glue is not strong enough to hold her together, and the Bulls of Bashen know this, they Feast on this, it gets them off.  It is the proof of their strength, wit, might, she cannot fight them,

she is dependent on them...they made sure of that.  She is at the mercy, of both God and Bulls, and hated,

by both.

According to the drum roll that plays in her mind day in, day out, waves of sorrow, they watch all that she does, says, writes, like they eye she can never be free...in peace.  Death, becomes a friend rather than a foe, often she thinks, what does the Grim Reaper really look like, maybe it feels good to hug his dark cloak and waist as he strikes the sickle down....it will be Finally over then,

if only, she NEVER, had to wake up.  She doesn't want eternal life, she doesn't want Life at all, why should she?  She knows submission, resignation, Defeat, at the hands of Lords and Bulls and Masters and Saviors, they were All saviors.  At least they claimed while they mocked her and pumped into her, drilling for any residue of life and breath, just to hear her say, Oh yes, you are so good, so large, so strong...she knows the routine...she knows their LIES, that she's just a mirror that they look into to see just how Beautiful they are, their serpent tongue and slit eyes.  She wants to sleep, and never wake up again, so many days, this is what she wants,

don't tell her about Love, love is poison....love is just a manipulative ploy to work submission when wit and subtle is The prize like a court room with lawyers at battle...who will Subdue, 

the untamed horse, who will come out as THE WINNER?

She broken, head down, since birth, being told what Her place was to be, who She was created to be, she tried to fight it, she tried to do better for herself,

but she never could, beat, the bulls of Bashen....they were just

too

strong for her.

So she cries out, Oh Lord God, how long, how long?

 

Is the Lord God stronger, than the Bulls that encamp around her, and He answers....she will never tell, what He says, just wait, just wait, that's what she'll do,

that's all, she Can do. Ending this, with some videos, for Music Sunday...while she waits....He knows, what they mean to her....






Although this a game, there are so many relevant meanings to this video clip, I am including it, I also chose it because this song has Special Meaning for me, God knows what this means to me...

to the Bulls, you may crush, but your day, is coming, Your day, is coming.



and After that day, I will bestow upon my Lord King, He knows what, for only HE is worthy, only HE, is worthy, of all my love. [this is a very old song, this band, Mediaeval Baebes, is an all female choral, that does mostly old, VERY OLD, folk songs in ancient Latin, Gaelic, Old English], yes many of them are Celtic, even pagan, mystics, etc., but these were love songs, many of them, by women in the Medieval times, this one, Come My Sweet, is one, dedicated to my Lord, Ishi, Jesus Christ. [see note at bottom of video]



NOTE: it should be Strongly noted, some of the songs by some of the bands I may chose here, I do NOT support of of them, nor refer to, I also want TO WARN, that if you look into these bands/or their c.d.s/esp Videos many do pertain to the goddess/wicca religions, not All the songs but many of them do, I DO NOT SUPPORT NOR DO ANY OF THE GODDESS WORSHIP, (been there done that and I know the LIES of] I have strong reasons why I do not, I do not believe in them, I believe they are COUNTERFEITS, STOLEN WATER IS SWEET, OF THE REAL DEAL, USING DISTORTIONS--HOWEVER, THAT ASIDE, THE OTHER 'LIES' ARE IN PATRIARCHAL RELIGION--THE GENDER ROLES-GODDESS AND SEXUAL SACRIFICE ARE THE SAME, ONE IN THE DARK, THE OTHER IN THE GUISE OF 'RELIGIOUS GOODNESS', BOTH FROM THE SAME SOURCE.

This is why I, personally, do not have a problem listening or using Some of the music, evil is present Everywhere, you can't avoid it...we are to overcome it, I don't follow evil nor cling to it [at least try not to], but I don't deny it's existence either, I can't, been the victim of it for far too long, have known it, tasted it, and seen it. Anyway, to WARN you, some of the videos IF you hit on them [at the bottom of the last] ARE wiccan, I would avoid them, many of them WILL TRIGGER IN HUGE WAY FOR RA SURVIVORS SUCH AS MYSELF OR TRIGGER FOR THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN DELIVERED FROM THE LIES OF THESE BELIEFS, THIS IS WHERE I, MYSELF HAVE TO BE VERY, VERY CAREFUL. Many of the songs are not wiccan, many of them are, like on Medieval Babes, I do not know if they are a Wiccan band, I just know they do ancient songs, some of them, religious.

Many will tell you wiccan or wicca is not the same as Satanism, I won't get into arguments there, I don't know all the ins and outs of Wicca, never got into it that much, I am a nature advocate but I believe in a Higher Creater, Lord of the Sabbath, the God of the Bible, so, that is my firm decision and belief. I believe due to my experience in the goddess religions that in many ways the wicca, goddess, satanism, new age, etc. are from the same spiritual source, same deceptions, and again, these same deceptions I've seen in the patriarchal bent in Christianity Culture, what I term, Mensianity. What gets me though about many Christians is they'll get all fascist panty over anything that touches on goddess beliefs, etc., however, they'll have NO ISSUE with purity balls or Xerxes and the forced subjugation and taking of virgins, like the book of Esther, That is o.k., with them, concubinage is o.k. with them--Guess what Sherlock,

those cultures practiced goddess beliefs and wicca, so, if it's OK to prop up Some forms of it in Mensianity, but then demonize it when Women, taking Back their power from the rape/abuse in patriarchy, well, that to me, says

HYPOCRISY.

While I don't go for the whole circle high places bare naked may pole worship prostitution rings, know about it, that's enough, don't want to taste that anymore, and I can vouch that in patriarchal abusive hierarchies it's really the same damn thing, been there, done that, NO THANK YOU,

I also, don't go for the same damn thing, dressed up in white, with a Priest/or Pastor [false prophet] or an andro-centric man who is nothing more than a Warlock, posing as Christian, telling Christian women, to SUBMIT...no matter what.

Same thing, same Victimization, same soul death. Both kill women.

and BOTH, I ABHOR, they neither celebrate true love nor a woman's autonomous made in God's image nor her abilities. Other than that, the songs I do like, are not about either religion, they are just love songs or songs about prayer/knowing God, why I choose them, sometimes, that, and for me personally, they are a type of TAKING BACK, WHAT WAS STOLEN FROM ME, FOR YEARS,

AND GIVING THEM, TO OBEDIENCE, TO JESUS CHRIST. This is My WAY, of taking back so much beauty and joy that was robbed from me, destroyed in me, by BOTH, the lies of Paganism/goddess beliefs, RA and Religion...why certain songs, have a special meaning to me, songs I now give, to my Lord Jesus Christ, with all sincerity of love from my heart...IF the religious don't like it,

too bad. Not to be offensive here nor a stumbling block, just saying, I've had far more, destroyed, crushed, sexually Abused by those who profess the name of God, G_d, GOD, even Jesus, than EVER, by those, who claim to be wicca or who circle dance for goddesses, FAR MORE, so forgive me if I'm not too uh, compliant and CONFORMIST to the patriarchal woman as nothing more than pussy for her lord husband king god under mensianity crowd. They, these songs/posts are not for you, they are from my heart, to His heart. HE knows, all that they mean...that

is

enough.
Jane

Leaving Christianity but not Jesus Christ Part 3

ANOTHER trigger, I had contemplated posting this yesterday but hesitated but Now I will,

the Toxicity of religion, ritual abuse, child abuse...

if there was a video, that shows what it is, to live with the aftermath, this is it. WARNING: IT IS VERY DARK, it can be construed the wrong way--it can be TRIGGERING for those survivors of child abuse/ritual abuse, including cultist Christianity. I first heard the song and for long time loved it because for me, it was a song about my childhood, the abuse [from my mother]and the being free of that--

the video, the part of the chicken [that I thought looked like a baby] in oven when I actually got around to seeing it really bothered me, a lot, huge trigger and for long time I couldn't hear the song. But it dawned on me, one day reading the Bible, what it meant to me, when God says, when iniquity is full in the society mothers will eat their young. That is the fruit of misogyny-patriarchy, the end result of hatred.

At the end of the video, pay close attention...it speaks volumes, where she is tied still to the puppet strings, the thing about this video/mind control-a.k.a. communist nation using PSYCHOLOGY, oh yes, and the doll, that is the same doll that was in numerous of my dreams And one like I wanted when a young child. If you know anything about the Illuminati, monarch, you'll get it, anyway, that's what I deal with, what I struggle with, and mix that with Christianity and well, you kind of can get the cognitive dissonance. The doll also represents what the patriarchy has Done to women, like in the post, part 2 where I listed Tori Amos's video, Crucify Ourselves, the 'cat says girl you're nothing but a dead bird in a cage' or 'no bird in an empty cage',

that's what they do, they strip us of our souls, they erase us, they make us into dolls controlled by strings. This is what mind control does, to break free from it, is a war like no other....

and This, this is what I see transpiring in churches, on a large scale. It's the same thing, self policing, the doll clothes/make up, the tears of black, strings Always tied,

I am cutting them, for good. Bye Bye strings.



Kerli grew up in communist nation so she knows what both communism and child abuse, because she grew up with that too, is, this is why I so relate to her music. It is dark however--but you see, I grew up in darkness, I have tasted darkness, and so I know what it is and I know it's effects,

sugar coating it with candy syrup and optimism does not remove it's scorpion poison...

this is why, I could not wrap my mind around so much in Christianity, it's hard enough dealing with the Word of God, to discern who He is, in contrast to 'man's image of Him'...which is the one WE get into our minds that rings like tick tock orange.

To leave, the OPIATE, OF RELIGION,

is like this video, replace Lithium, with Opiate,

and you get it.



"I want to stay in love with someone...But God, I want to let it go...."

isn't That the truth.

Love,

Jane