FOOD FOR THOUGHT

This goes with a recent [though long time in the making] PAINFUL AND TEARFUL decision of mine,  as to why I am and have dumped the entire religion of patri-gods of All kinds, and am now simply, looking to the feminine in mother earth...this has come with a lot of pain, struggle, and taking off the rose colored glasses of worshiping a god who advocates rape then says he will then destroy the rapist and the rape victim will love him forever [Zechariah] and numerous other scriptures that I no longer could ignore...this doesn't mean I have or will not believe in a God or in Jesus, just that I simply cannot any longer embrace or believe the texts [written by men and obviously with an extreme gender misogynist bias as well as very primitive lust for violence and sadomachism worship] as truth nor can I dismiss the soul murder the religions [including yes Christianity] has done to millions of females, therefore I no longer am willing to just simply accept by blind faith.  The evidence of the brutality and violence of such beliefs are everywhere, their fruit of toxic woman hate is so blatantly obvious that to worship without question is the equivalent of a woman worshiping [being forced to or brainwashed into] her rapist torturer in the dungeons of hell...something I am no longer willing to do.  Period, so,

until I see Otherwise, I will believe the truth evident...and that is, our Mother Earth, and Women, under ALL religions, have been demonized, raped, violated, soul destroyed, for the establishing and perpetuating the worship of a Phallic 'god' at the expense of killing and finality erasing of the female/WOMB.  I in no way, can believe, that this, is who GOD is, if there IS a GOD and GOD simply isn't a construct of primitive MEN who had to find a way to ease their conscience when raping, selling their daughters into sex slavery [which was what the Old Testament and ways of ancient civ DID] and if they eased their conscience by making an image of their Man self, into a 'god' to justify their

rapes, genocides, empire-nation state building, slavery, raping Mother Earth, and so forth.  Using guilt and enforcing that guilt through VIOLENCE, THE THREAT OF VIOLENCE, HIDEOUS LOVE OF TORTURE, RAPE, TEARING APART PIECE BY PIECE VIOLENCE AND THEIR ABSOLUTE LOVE AND LUST AND DRIVE TO DO VIOLENCE, PARTICULARLY TO FEMALES AND THEN ALSO TO BUILD A CULT THAT LOVES LETTING THE PHALLIC DO VIOLENCE/RAPE TO THEM AS A SIGN OF THEIR DEVOTION AND 'LOVE', to control and TERRORIZE WOMEN INTO SUBMISSION,  ESPECIALLY THROUGH THREAT OF RAPE/SOUL TEARING APART, ETERNAL RAPE, AND RAPING THEM /MOLESTING THEM AS CHILDREN TO INSTILL INTO THEM A LIFELONG-ETERNAL DEPENDENCY ON THE RAPIST/KILLER/TORTURER FOR SOUL SUSTAINING AND TO DENY/CHALLENGE THAT MEANT AN ETERNITY IN HELL RAPE TORTURE, THANK YOU CATHOLIC-ORTHODOX THEN PROTESTANT JUDAIC CHURCH FATHERS, AS WELL AS ANY WHO WERE WEAK, UNFIT BY THEIR 'STANDARDS' AND THOSE THE MEN FELT UNDESIRABLE...creating an Opiate, to dull the minds of the enslaved, to terrorize them into psychological submission through FEAR, and to assure that the 'man-gods' stayed in POWER for eternity.  I do not know the answers but I cannot ignore the question, So...

~sigh~  I have decided to follow what IS and CAN be seen, the fruits, that IF there is GOD, even HE cannot deny, the horrors, of the HELL OF RELIGION and IT'S RAPING, SOUL DESTROYING, MEN.  And to do so, I say NO to the voice, reasoning, and EXCUSES of MALES, including their male gods, male saviors, and all other male phallic philosophies and constructs, and am following the Feminine Voice inside...as well as what I see and hear from Mother Earth, HERSELF.  She, has never violated me, raped me, condoned my rape or other women's rapes, SHE has never demanded I worship her, sacrifice to Her, hate myself for Her, destroy myself for Her...I can't say that about male gods [or GOD] but I can say that about HER, HER who my body is shaped like [not some Clone of Adam with no female Heavenly Mother], HER who my WOMB works like, HER who my nurture follows by Instinct, HER who Heals me, Feeds me, Waters me and Clothes me....

HER.

End of argument, ha ha, well, no, not exactly...now, Onto--

why, that also I will not be following any 'goddess' religions [mention this because usually to walk away from the worship of the benevolant [spelling?] yet will rape/destroy you master often is lumped into turning to the goddess/new age religions, of which I am not and why that is...]because they are all constructs [particularly the new age] of patri-beliefs as well...we see this particularly in the pantheons where all goddesses are divided up into 'whore that loves to be raped', vestas-the dowdy run down house wife, the goddess with the evil snake mind because a woman cannot think nor create without being evil, the war goddess who thrives on blood lust, and so forth...in all my research, the 'image' of goddess is the demonization of woman.  Therefore, as far as I am concerned, it's just as misogynist as the patri-gods beliefs.

It is for this reason that I chose to listen and observe nature, which is obviously to any who open their eyes, hugely feminine, nurturing, powerful, sometimes violent but that violence is often triggered spiritually I believe by the violence of men and raping of mother earth, as well as spilling the blood of her children onto her via violence,

and therefore SHE is now who I follow.  I believe SHE may possibly be 'god' and that god is both in Earth, male and female, fe-male, and that 'LIFE' rather than power hierarchies is the flow of both, and the nurture of that life.  I find it interesting that in many animal and plant kingdoms the male takes just as big of a role, sometimes more [certain frogs] in the nurture of the young than what humans do...and to depict a gender hierarchy based on observations of nature is short sighted simply because nature herself/himself is just so diverse...

in Zoology, the study of, I find it interesting that numerous animals and plants are what they term as asexual, meaning that they create life from their own self--they can divide theirself into one individual separate from OR an entire colony of individuals, either separated from the self or attached, depending.  And from that, I made my decision, that gender hierarchies are simply, anti-nature, period.  As for those animal kingdoms that DO have a very violent or class system hierarchy, like some monkey groups--one baboon that is very hierarchal/male patri that rapes the females and abuses them, and one female matriarchal in Japan that is classist and leaves the less than to die in the cold...I have to wonder,

is that how they were originally or is that how they emulated what the human environment around them has done?  In other words, became corrupted?  We know animals evolve, we also know animals, such as monkeys, emulate humans, so to take those examples as men so love to do [patriarchs] as some proof evident that this is the course of nature, is an oxymoron to say the least...it leaves out the very strong possibility that animals, which we know do evolve to adapt/survive, and many animals that we know that DO copy the behaviors of humans around them, can actually simply be evolving and adapting to the human environments in which they are surrounded by, in the case of the baboons and the monkeys, I believe they are snow monkeys, BOTH live in environments that are hugely patriarchal and yes, classist.  We do not know if they were Always this way, but we Do know, that animals, especially those who emulate human behavior, do evolve and adapt to what they SEE.  So...though I'm in no way an expert or even a student of these types of sciences, I can't help but wonder, just how much, MEN and RELIGIONS have taken case examples of certain animal groups and have used those to justify their 'gods' and their 'rapes, abuses, pillaging of earth, class-pyramid systems, and so forth' and genocides and the like.

Not only that, but this one analysis, I found to be confirming, of much of what I have observed, though I am in no way a support of Any kind of occult or cult belief system [hate them all], what she had to say, I thought, left some interesting questions that I think, should be investigated.

an excerpt:  All life comes from woman.  To call a man an equal participant in the creation of a new life is the most ridiculous thing ever.  A few seconds and a microscopic amount of DNA are his sole contribution – even the woman’s egg is thousands of times larger, and she does all the work of nurturing that new life until she undergoes the dangerous, painful, difficult process of birth.  Thereafter, for reasons both biological and social, she usually is the one who nurtures the new child until it stands on its own two feet.  But the patriarchy’s unhealthy and extremist focus on fathers, men, and sperm have led most people to fully buy into the lie of children having two equally contributing parents. Woman is the creator, the life-giver, AND the nurturer – and this is in no way passive.  Among mammals, for the survival of a species, men are not biologically required to survive after they have spent their sperm succesfully a few times, while women are required to live until they are nearly elderly in order to further the survival of the species.  Between recent scientific advances and the study of “lower” life forms, such as reptiles and insects, it is becoming increasingly apparent that males may not be needed at all.  Contrast this reality with the stubborn insistence by modern, patriarchally-conditioned humans that “nature” is sexually egalitarian in its methods of creation or even favors males and the ludicrousness of their position becomes apparent, as does the practice of enshrining a false duality that declares male and female as equal (or worse, not-so-equal and with females being the “weaker”, “lesser” beings) and opposite.

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In solidarity, with the Sisterhood,

Oh, btw, forgive the misspellings, my patriarchal legion lord vulture has me using a MAC, can't correct on this crap machine...so till I get a P.C., will have to tolerate wrong spellings.

Jane