MY LAST POST CONFRONTING MISOGYNY IN THE 'CHURCH CULTURE'

I pray that Jesus guides each word I am about to write, because it is important for me to miss anything. I do talk to Jesus all the time and today He and I have been going over a lot, and I decided, after hearing Him, I have made a decision.  I wrote this to a blog, why I am no longer going to confront or expose misogyny in the church culture--that does not mean I won't confront misogyny in religion across the board, but as for doing it in a way that takes away from Jesus, that I won't do...one it's a stumbling block and two, dwell, the reason is below.  This is a decision that I have mulled over for a while, do I just quit and give up?  I asked that, do I look for something that deep inside I don't believe is there anyway?  Is church as far as the Body of Christ truly 'church' or is it believers whom God sends my way?  What is the assembly, the Body of Christ?

I think a lot of the problems is one, there is dysfunction and two, within the Infrastructure no one is listening Anyway, so...the problem then becomes one of Space, and if the Space for trying to make change Within the 'church' , now not talking here about Healing those wounded or captive, but about only confronting the church polemic or system itself, is doing it online in public view truly good or is it a stumbling block?  While I can't and WON'T say this is the Formula for all to follow, for Me, this is a necessary decision...so, here goes,

For years I was a very vocal activist, I worked among some of the hardest core revolutionary Marxists, and yes they Knew I believed in Jesus but I hated religion/church [esp right wing] for reasons I won’t get into here, I am still active but not in Marxism because I saw the lies there…not with the analysis but in the solutions, again long story don’t need to get into here.
Anyhow, I dealt with in the face pro-Hezbollah and Hamas supporters and being that I was human rights and especially women’s right and supporter of Judaism, I had to just put it out there, I am not one to back down, put it that way…confrontation was ugly, brutal and so I learned how to not beat around the bush so to speak. I also learned, in a very intimate way, about the abuse of authority…which I had known prior due to having been a survivor of ritual-type of abuse, masonry wrapped nicely in religion, both Catholic and Protestant, so my study, experience and views against Fascism are non-tolerant to say the least. To me they are occultist, how they work, how they are propagated under lies of ’sweetness’ and well, if you know it you know it….
for the past year I have searched to see if there was love in the church, sadly I don’t think there is, I won’t even go into what I think of the whole authority male supremacist Egyptian logic that is spewed, just that I don’t support it, and am very opposed to it.
On the Other hand however, I’ve questioned my own question…if there isn’t Love in today’s church culture, then does exposing the ‘flaws’ online, the infighting, work to create love? I know within politics the one thing we fought for was Solidarity…to be divided was fatal. Literally, that is why the far left joined with the Islamists, for that reason [though at their demise I'm afraid because the two are very incompatible in ideology, at least true Marxism, this bourgeousie crap they have today well, lol, never mind, but alas...]
but where the church is concerned, while I won’t say, we should hide wrong or be in denial and that I hate anyway because it only perpetuates injustice to the oppressed–being that we ARE to walk like Jesus walked, we Are supposed to be a family [brethren] in Christ, I had to question if my advocacy as strong as it is, does more to be a stumbling block to unbelievers? And I think it does,
the thing is, none of us are God, Jesus said HE would send His angels to weed out the weeds from the wheat. At the same time it Is frustrating that so much injustice to women Is going on with total impunity within church ‘culture’ However,
IF the church brethren don’t care about their own, if they don’t care about change, then does exposing the wrong/fraud to the unbelieving world do anything to help the victims? That is a question that each one of us will have to ask ourselves, I do think it is one of those things that depends on How it’s done and Where it’s done. But for me, me personally, after giving this a lot of thought, it is not the path for me,
for one I walked away from the church Because of abusive men and I won’t go back…I feel Safer among communist comrades and that IS sad but it IS truth. But, I am also, letting go,
meaning, I don’t and am not going to any longer try to ‘fix’ it, or be an activist about it…on Women’s rights yes, within the Church, NO. Not even in church culture…this is a decision based on one, being that the church is supposed to be God’s family, the family should Act like a family, love one another, and love covers a multitude of sins. IF that family is devouring it’s women, it isn’t really God’ family anyway and besides, it’s a House divided and it WILL FALL, make no mistake about it…even under Totalitarianism, it eventually Falls, when the Spirit wilts, there is nothing but Desolation…that OR God sends another far worse army and smashes the absolute to smithereens. Every time, never fails…sadly though, the victims don’t recover and numerous are left dead, souls broken [and the huffing glue in totalitarian nations, though it may amuse the demons does nothing to put Humpty back together again, the souls are just dulled over till they shrivel up and die.]
With that in mind, with the world dealing with institutions is one thing, if it’s the Family of God, well, then if it doesn’t Act like a family and it only becomes an institution then I suppose to confront would be justified…however, the Word says we are a Body, to be Unified in One Mind in Christ, to Love one another. So, that leaves a dilemma,
IF I love Jesus do I then strive with the children, even if many are not children, how do I really know? I don’t, though I may see corruption with every ten corrupt there is ten who are not…and IF confrontation is necessary Jesus said to go to our brethren alone, then with witnesses = church–IF the church don’t care,
well, then that means the majority doesn’t care and it don’t do any good to confront…and that’s been somewhat of the case, However, being that this is Online in view of public, being that there may be One person who IS not corrupt–then I have to question, do I have the right, to be a possible stumbling block so that I can confront injustice? If love is important to me then it has to start with ME,
for this reason, I can no longer confront the church culture in a general way online. I can point out the Bible, I can point out the harms done to women, but to try and fix what ails, I cannot do…it is God’s family,
and it is better that He does it. And I just don’t have the energy to do it anymore, for one, if the Love isn’t there, if it’s all about the protection of self interest and authority my or any one else’s confrontation won’t change anything Anyway…IF it could then it should be done, like in Any family, within the Home of that family, in private, not aired with dirty laundry all over the public. That I realized is how Satan divides, how Satan uses the strife to reinforce unbelief/doubt in those who may be searching…
and all the confrontation won’t bring Love. If it’s not there, I sure can’t put it there,
so, with that, I am closing the door where trying to make change or trying to bring about somewhat of an understanding of the harms done to women to an institution or family that well, seems to be dysfunctional. This is better handled by God Himself,
so I have already left, but now I am going to end my search for well, I guess something that just isn’t there anymore…at least not in numbers where it does any good. It’s divided, it does not need one more divisor, me. I hope you all here find what it is you are looking for, I pray for God to guide you with wisdom, and well, just bless you.
As for me, I am directing my energies to relief work outside the church, focusing on positive and well, where there is Love that is where I want to be…or at least, give it away myself. On top of that, I am letting go because as knowing what is absolutism and totalitarianism Is, I also know how precious freedom is and the space to grow and change, how precious it is,
and so I am releasing it all–taking my hands off,
if God sends women in need of help I’ll help, but my days of trying to make a difference, in the church, are over. This is best for me and for all others…it isn’t my gift anyway.
Peace and God Bless,
Jane