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MORE CHILD SEX ABUSE IN CHRISTIANITY AND NOT FUNDIES EITHER, GEE, MOVE OVER ISLAM YOU AREN'T THE ONLY ONES

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YOU KNOW WHAT JESUS, I'VE SEEN ENOUGH....

NO MORE, I DON'T THINK I WILL FEAR HELL ANYMORE, IT'S NO DOUBT, THE LIE OF ALL LIES, 300 A.D. ILLUMINATI CULT


TO TERRORIZE PEOPLE INTO SUBMISSION AND TO BE ABLE TO RAPE FORCE SEX EXPLOIT, SLAVERY AND ALL THE OTHER EVIL 'FRUIT' THAT HAS BEEN THE OVER ALL


BY PRODUCT OF 'CHRISTIANITY' SINCE ROME 300 A.D.--


MEANING


EITHER THE BIBLE IS A LIE AND HAS BEEN TAMPERED, THAT WE DON'T REALLY 'KNOW' WHO THE REAL JESUS WAS LIKE


OR


THE FALSE PROPHET BEGAN IN 300 A.D. AND WELL, WHO KNOWS


THIS MUCH I DO KNOW I AM DONE WITH THIS RELIGION...I WILL FIND MY OWN PATH


BECAUSE THIS THIS IS JUST RIDICULOUS.


Jane

AFTER READING ANOTHER HORRID ACCOUNT OF RELIGIOUS FUNDIES BEATING GIRLS...

I SAY TO HELL WITH IT

I AM SO DONE APOLOGIZING, TRYING TO RECONCILE MY MIND AROUND

THIS EVIL

THESE PEOPLE WHO RUN THIS CHILD ABUSE HOUSE IN THE NAME OF GOD

I SAY,

HANG THEM ON BACK OF TRUCK, DRAG THEIR SORRY ASSES TILL THEY BLEED TO DEATH  [later, edit---this is really Not the love way of reacting BUT Jesus said, to those who harm a child, better to have millstone around neck and thrown into sea--HE GOT ANGRY AT CHILD ABUSERS]

NO MORE

I HOPE TO GOD THE PEOPLE GET FED UP AND REVOLT AGAINST THIS EVIL SHIT [THE BIBLE, GOD USES DUNG AND SAYS TO THOSE WHO HURT CHILDREN IN HIS NAME HE WILL SMEAR DUNG ON THEIR FACES SO.....]

I AM TIRED OF TRYING TO SEE A GOOD GOD IN THIS

I AM TIRED OF HEARING ABOUT CHRISTIAN MEN WHO MOLEST AND RAPE AND THE SORRY PIECE OF COW WOMEN WHO HELP THEM

I DON'T CARE ANYMORE ABOUT LOVING YOUR ENEMY  [edit, after Prayer God showed me, Loving your enemy is NOT loving the Evil--so...]

THESE SONS OF EVIL NEED TO GO DOWN AND THEY NEED TO GO DOWN NOW, TO HELL WRITING AND TALKING TO THESE PEOPLE, CIRCLE JERKING AND LETTERS OF DEMAND FOR APOLOGY

SEND THESE EVIL CHILD ABUSING PIECES OF FILTH

TO PRISON

WHERE THEY BELONG--SEND THEM TO IRAN AS A  GIFT

TO HELL, WITH PROTECTING THIS KIND OF BLATANT GROSS EVIL

READ ABOUT THIS SORRY HOUSE HERE--INDIANA, WTF

ARREST THIS SORRY VERMIN


http://undermuchgrace.blogspot.com/2010/07/how-danvers-statement-negatively.html

IT GETS WORSE....DID SOME RESEARCH AS I SUSPECTED WITH THE EVANGELICALS OF AMERICA AND WHAT THEY ARE REALLY DOING IN 'AFRICA'

HOW ABOUT ACCUSING CHILDREN OF WITCH CRAFT AT AGES YOUNG AS 4, TORTURING THEM, KILLING AND RAPING THEM...AND WE'RE NOT TALKING A RARE CASE

THIS IS EPIDEMIC IN THE 'THOUSANDS'

NO WONDER CHRISTIANITY CULTS [MAINSTREAM INCLUDED] IN THE WEST DON'T WANT CHILDREN'S RIGHTS PASSED...


Los Angeles Times - Associated Press  October 17, 2009
Churches involved in torture, murder of thousands of African children denounced as witches



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these EVANGELICALS CHRISTIANS ARE SACRIFICING LITTLE CHILDREN TO MOLECH

http://www.perrybulwer.com/religion-and-child-abuse-news/category/child-sacrifice?currentPage=2

WAKE UP WOMEN

STOP PROTECTING THIS EVIL SHIT

JANE

TO THE ROBBER BARONS, DESTROYERS, AND KILLERS [WHO HAVE THE GALL TO SPEW 'GOD BLESSES RAPE AND GREED' OF THE 'SHE' WE SAY TO YOU, HANDS OFF OUR MOTHER EARTH NOW!


When the Concubine/Whore learns who her Spiritual Mother is, and learns how her Spiritual Mother has also been turned into nothing more than a Whore by WHORE MONGERS and repeatedly raped, butchered, pillaged for the gods of gold, silver, ore, nickel, brass and bronze...

when she learns who her Spiritual Father really is, and learns how HE has been re-created in the image of MEN and gods of gold, silver, ores, nickel, brass, bronze and precious stones, when she learns how HE has been falsely accused of sanctioning Rape and Murder and Death by the gods who made RELIGION

she not only finds HEALING....she finds that Yes she has a Grudge, like her Mothers before her...all the way back to the ANCIENTS, and that Grudge, destructive as it Can be if not harnessed,

will NOT be pacified until there is

JUSTICE....THERE IS NO PEACE WHEN THERE IS NO JUSTICE......

MAY THE CREATOR REDEEM OUR MOTHER EARTH FROM THE HANDS OF THE BUTCHERS LIARS, LIARS, LIARS, AND RAPISTS....SOON,

So not too far off ago, I was contemplating about the effects of Grudges, grudges I think are a bit more entrenched that resentments and are actually the Child of resentments that are from injustices that are smoothed over with False Peace with no reparations or restoration.  Grudges are either from such horrid evil that words simply will not do in restoring what was horribly taken OR from years and years of non-repentance from the offenders, with the assistance of non-offenders in which EVIL is made supreme with the help of False Peace, usually with the 'you must forgive' and Pretend that all is well when in fact it is not.....LIFE does not come from DESOLATION.  Rob a child enough for example of her/his soul and there will be no LIFE emanating from that soul only EVIL.   That, THAT, IS WHAT A GRUDGE IS....

the Only way a GRUDGE can be turned from it's Evil course is to take it TO GOD....in HONESTY, not in lip service, not in fake forgiveness and Even if one Does forgive, there are some evils that require either reparations due to the horrid destruction caused OR a reversal of Energy, if this does not happen no matter the forgiveness the destructive force of that Evil will continue to erode until there is nothing left, only a Force stronger than that, can undo it.  I'm talking about gross evil here, not a hand smack or an unkind word but gross horrible violent evil....and the horrible thing about the GRUDGE is that once unleashed, it does not SEE the difference between innocence and good and evil, it only sees Evil and destroys everything and everyone in it's path.  This is why, to IGNORE INJUSTICE IS VERY UNWISE....TO PROP AND PROTECT DESTRUCTION IS REALLY, SUICIDE....IF NOT FOR YOU FOR THOSE THAT ARE FROM YOU.

It is a FORCE, this is why Jesus said when you give alms [which in Psalms, alms is part of Psalms, so that includes giving Praise to God] IF you remember [or it's brought to your attention] that you have wronged someone GO MAKE IT RIGHT FIRST THEN.....THEN COME BACK AND GIVE ALMS.  Why is that?  And what if the one you wronged is already passed on to the other side?  Or what if you are not able, lets say if it's a financial wrong, to repay at that time or what have you?  Well, that Force will be at work, so you had better for start, make a HEART CHANGE and CONFESS to GOD about the wrong done...then to the person wronged, if they have passed still Confess and Reverse the bad energy...many will say well this is Penance and false teaching...well it could be turned that way yes, no doubt, However,

that is what it means, when GOD says DEPART FROM INIQUITY.  To depart from is just that, to Depart...as you depart you can't just NOT DEAL because to do so is to allow iniquity, that force to go on, unchecked.  Something has to be done--this is Why there was, Yes the Cross.  Because there is just way too much that we have done, to feed the GRUDGES that demand JUSTICE.  There can be no PEACE WITHOUT JUSTICE....WHY THE CROSS YES, WAS NECESSARY--AND WHY, TO DISMISS THE CROSS AS A SMALL THING--KEEPS THE GRUDGE

ON YOUR BACK.

In the movie "The Grudge" there is a scene, where Michelle Gillar is in the shower and this hand crawls on the back of her head.  The GRUDGE, works like that....it works on the conscience reminding us that Something is amiss.  Now the movie relays the message [and the story I believe was originally done in Japan] that in this house, there was a curse due to the horrible evils done and who ever stayed in this house paid dearly because of this spirit Grudge, which in all ancient religions would be a demon or ghost or unclean spirit.  That's one way of looking at it, I do believe there are angry spirits that are part of the destroying forces that if the wrong is not dealt with, the Grudge gets stronger and stronger until one day it's unleashed then all forces of hell break loose so to speak.  This I believe can be personal or social...depending on what the wrong is/was and so forth.

To ignore wrongs, is really a dangerous thing...to NOT deal with the wrongs we do, to just think that a little confession with the Oh I'm sorry God and then Especially if we go on Continuing in that wrong, won't unleash the GRUDGE against us, we are truly mistaken.  This applies to us as individuals, as citizens, as family members, as members of a community, and of the world.  This also applies to us, as creatures who live on the planet, our Mother Earth.

Our Mother Earth has a grudge and rightly so.....she is spewing BLACK OIL from her Oceans, she is vomiting up her soil in various places taking many lives, innocent and not, to the grave, she is burning up in many places, she is unleashing her rain that has been tainted with man made toxins of ores, unleashing her waters tainted with ores and toxins and poisons from the mining of Gold, Silver and Precious Stones....

SHE IS PISSED.

And now Sarah Palin and many like her, of that ideology bent, want to Rape Mother Earth some more, in the Artic of Alaska, for none other than OIL....OIL USED FOR MILITARY TANKS THAT ARE USED TO RAPE AND PLUNDER FARM LANDS AND CARRY MEN WHO RAPE YOUNG GIRLS....WHO DESTROY LIFE, ENTIRE COMMUNITIES....for OIL that is used for cars after cars because we are ENTITLED TO MOBILITY AND TOO GOOD TO WALK OR RIDE A BIKE EVEN TO THE STORE...for OIL that is used to burn for heat because WE, unlike our Ancient ancestors just can't do with wearing layers of clothing or working in summer and resting in winter....because we in our modern commerce MUST HAVE MORE, MORE MORE MORE MORE.....

here is Alaska now---here is where They want to Drill for oil, Rape our Mother Earth some more because they won't be satisfied until she is robbed of ALL HER VIRGINITY BY VIOLENCE, NOT LOVE, BUT VIOLENCE

http://www.defenders.org/programs_and_policy/habitat_conservation/federal_lands/national_wildlife_refuges/threats/arctic/index.php

And this THIS, IS WHAT THE  WORSHIPERS OF  'gods' OF OIL, GOLD, SILVER, ORES, STONES....WANT TO ALSO DO MORE OF

 


NOW THEY WANT TO DO ALL THE ABOVE TO THIS LAST PRISTINE PLACE:



Many blame only BP, which BTW has Middle East ownership [Saudi], many blame the government...well, let's see, what Mother Earth says

and it looks as if

MOTHER EARTH HAS A GRUDGE....


MOTHER EARTH HAS A GRUDGE PEOPLE.....


to those who PROFESS THEIR RIGHT UNDER GOD OR gods TO DO SUCH TO MOTHER EARTH, TO 'SHE', to those who are indifferent, who don't care, who love their 'gods' more than 'SHE' who gives you WATER, FOOD, HERB, with the force the Creator gave Her...

do you Think, if you go ahead and Rape her again in the Artic of Alaska, that HER GRUDGE WILL JUST SLOWLY DIE DOWN?  WANT TO RISK IT?

WELL REMEMBER THE MOVIE--IT'S A SUBTLE WARNING...

MOTHER EARTH SAYS TO ALL OF US, CHILDREN


THE GRUDGE

http://furgur.deviantart.com/art/Ju-on-The-Grudge-Kayako-104536391

[from the movie] IGNORE, RUN BUT SHE'S THERE...AND WHEN UNLEASHED



SHE DON'T SEE INNOCENCE OR NOT, ALL ARE GUILTY, ALL ARE GUILTY, BUT ESPECIALLY THOSE, WHO REFUSED TO LISTEN, REPENT, AND CHANGE AND MAKE RIGHT, THE WRONGS....


ARE WE LISTENING? ARE WE LISTENING? ARE WE LISTENING?

ARE WE SEEING? ARE WE SEEING? ARE WE SEEING?

DO WE ACT OR NOT? DO WE ACT OR NOT? DO WE ACT OR NOT?

REPENT OR PERISH REPENT OR PERISH REPENT OR PERISH REPENT OR PERISH

it's up to you and me.....

sign the petition, say NO to raping Mother Earth, it's time to END THESE EVILS AND CHANGE.

http://www.ipetitions.com/petition/no_oil-drilling_in_alaska/
walk or take bike, don't drive, change our oil consumption habits change our consumption, love not consuming, take care of our Mother Earth, HONOR THY FATHER AND MOTHER, SPIRITUAL FATHER AND MOTHER....

or face, the GRUDGE....


Jane, P.S. more on this to come, The Grudge Part 2, the one in ourselves and why we Must crucify her/him and Part 3, the Grudge the Mystery of Iniquity...

LETTERS FROM A CONCUBINE/WHORE PART 11, WHY I CHOSE THE PHOTOS FROM FINAL FANTASY -- THE MEANING IS FAR MORE THAN THE 'WHORE' AND 'CONCUBINE'


LETTERS FROM A CONCUBINE/WHORE, PART 11, WHY I CHOSE THE PHOTOS FROM FINAL FANTASY AND THE DEEPER MEANINGS BEHIND THEM...

I will be merging the Concubine Whore series with a new Healing series...Inner healing, that goes a lot with the Notes from the Wilderness and the Leaning to Ancients/Nature [not necessarily paganism though there are similarities--many Christian 'independents or non-church' women will claim to be pagan leaning...but truth is what is deemed pagan today is So like, well like feminism, there is just a lot of ignorance really on the differences between paganism that is pantheon and paganism that is earth centered and paganism that is god centered and well I don't adhere to those beliefs, but today Any reference to the way of Ancients or Nature is usually Demonized by the religious as being New Age or Pagan or Wiccan and so forth--it's like two poles but with a huge gap in historical knowledge and the development of all the beliefs AND how they themselves changed or are NOT homogeneous depending on culture, so forth].  Because I am walking a lot of this journey out, there tends to be some lack of rhythm in the series or topics on this blog-- some of it may be hard to follow, because it is for me not just an advocate or writing process but one of self discovery, I suppose would be the right term...and Where it all will go, I can't say,

so I'm just going by gut here.  Also I didn't finish the second part on this series about Trafficking--but I will one day, just now got this mental block there, I know why but don't want to get into it right now.

So, anyway, One of the reasons I chose the photo from the Final Fantasy [though I've not ever played the game] is because of the blatant Similarities of Patriarchy [religious AND the whole gods/goddess worship] in this photo.....the photo, actually I would say the game speaking from a Spiritual lens here, shows the spiritual aspects of Gender Roles, with the whole god of WAR and the goddess of FERTILITY, which in the pantheons of Rome  & Greece, was the glorification of SEX, esp the young girl with the woman's body, the Whore.  Beside the gladiator stadium in ancient Rome was the Temple of Venus....you know it's not different today, besides the stadiums of male macho sports is the stripper bars and/or bars with the free drinks until 8 for ladies who will be scouted out for one night stands....they are temples, Temples of Venus--no different, just they do it differently--the Commerce is the same, and in fact in cities, there is that dirty little industry of Prostitution that is protected by yes, Business and Government 'boys clubs' and a lot of that Prostitution is Trafficked girls and women.  Sex Slaves...especially where Prostitution is normalized...

Same goes for Porn and the whole Sex Industry--tied into none other than MILITARIZATION--A.K.A. THROUGH GOOD OLE BOY PATRIARCHY AND PATRIARCHAL 'RELIGION' oh yea...can we say Good Blood Nation Rah Rah let's go men kill kill kill rape rape rape the Other, the Color, the WOMAN the WHORE...because you know SHE is demon, SHE is the 'other race' 'other religion', 'other culture', 'other class' and the 'other non-human less than US' so it's OK to rape her, to enslave her, to traffick her, to abuse her, to do the dirty war on HER BODY and well, save the violence done to the enemy MALE, why rather than kill/rape THE MALE, BRETHREN...LET'S JUST UNLEASH OUR HATE/POWER LUST AND SEX VIOLENCE LUST ON THE 'WOMAN' ....and it's OK because

GOD SAYS WE CAN.....

what is sadder is that WOMEN WILL ALSO RALLY AROUND AND FLAG WAVE FOR 'GOD' AND FOR 'COUNTRY' AROUND THIS RAPING ABUSING SHIT...of the other WOMAN because hey, she ain't OUR race, she ain't OUR religion, she ain't OUR class, so she is a Demon and a Whore she is Serpent Seed...you see This way, WOMEN WHO SUPPORT MALE SUPREMACY AND PATRIARCHY CAN 'PRETEND' THAT THEY

ARE SAFE FROM VIOLENCE....

THEY CAN PRETEND THAT GOD WOULDN'T ALLOW THAT TO HAPPEN TO THEM BECAUSE THEY ARE

PURE, HOLY, RIGHTEOUS, PIOUS, VIRGINAL, OBEDIENT, SUBMISSIVE, LOYAL TO GOD---GOOD GIRLS, 

NOT LIKE THOSE 'WHORES' OF THOSE SAVAGE NATIONS...OH NO NOT US...NOT US WOMEN, so they will lie and pretend and attribute hoping that IF they continue to do this--they will be IMMUNE FROM MALE VIOLENCE TO THEM/THEIR OWN BODIES...

but truth is....TRUTH IS, the justification of rape/enslaving the OTHER WOMAN is also the justification of rape/enslaving and subjugation of ALL WOMAN, IN TIME OF PEACE BY THEIR VERY OWN

PROTECTORS......BRETHREN.

So that's the religious aspect of why I chose this photo--but there was another reason, one that I didn't catch till way later when starting this series and that was when I noticed how YOUNG her FACE is...oh yes, the 

MALE FUCK FANTASY DREAM OF RAPE--CONQUEST, DOMINANCE OF NONE OTHER THAN THE VIRGIN=WHORE....THE VIRGIN LITTLE GIRL WITH THE SWORD, THE VIRGIN THAT IS BOTH

CHILD, VIRGIN, WHORE, LUSTY, AND VIOLENT FOR THE ''MALE WAR god' WHO HAS CREATED HIS MALE FANTASY FUCK DREAM--

IN HIS IMAGE...A MIRROR IMAGE OF HIS SELF--WITH HIS LUST DESIRE FOR THE YOUNG GIRL WHO LOOKS LIKE SHE IS NO OLDER THAN SEVEN IN HER FACE, A BODY THAT IS AROUND 14 [THE VIRGIN] AND OF COURSE, THE OBEDIENCE OF A CHILD WHO WILL FIGHT AND PROTECT THE 'RAPING ARMY' OF BRETHREN....EVEN ALLOWING HER OWN RAPE BY THEM IF THEY GET TOO HEATED AND NEED TO RELEASE, THE MALE FANTASY FUCK-RAPE DREAM IS THAT SHE WILL BE MORE THAN HAPPY TO OBLIGE THEM AND LAY THERE, SPREAD--WHILE THEY 

RIP HER TO PIECES...

kind of like this,

 

photo of Komodo Dragons eating a cow: http://www.abolitionist.com/darwinian-life/index.html


Anyway....so for days I thought about why the young face [and in all the Final Fantasy photo ops the women are women in body or young adult woman but with a face of a seven to ten year old]...and the whole Obsession in Religion and Patriarchal WAR CULTURES including Christianity and Judaism [esp Old Testament] and in Ancient Greece & Rome, and Yes in All the Ancient 'gods and goddess religions' -- contrary to the MYTHS and LIES BEING PUSHED TODAY, WOMEN WERE NOT LIBERATED OR IMMUNE FROM SEXUAL EXPLOITATION UNDER SO CALLED 'GODDESS RELIGIONS', IN FACT, THE WHOLE WOMEN HAD AUTONOMY AND EMPOWERMENT IS A BOLD FACE 

LIE.
AND ONE THAT I believe is going to Backfire on a lot of women....another topic another time

but anyway...
the 'key' to grasping the TRUTH to this fact is the link of the Fertility to the WAR and that THAT is what is really Interesting because Christianity merged with Yes, patriarchal PAGANISM is just that--the Gender Roles of

Army men with a lust to kill, dominate, and Fuck young child brides [or forcing older wives into a state of child like dependency] and of course, it's just fine to fuck/rape the Enemy--that WHORE of the other, that Demonized Serpent Seed woman--among the more Patriarchal Misogynist [be they religious or secular] and

the self sacrificial giving to rape/abuse and death little girl Whore.....
because if little girl can turn on big male and the More the merrier, why She's Empowered Right?

WRONG...


and it's the LIE that has killed MILLIONS AND MILLIONS AND MILLIONS OF WOMEN AND GIRL CHILDREN THROUGH OUT ALL TIME....
 but you see, the real Blame has always been evaded, avoided, because the Culprit has always been that damn girl-woman WHORE of the 'other' with her tempting eyes and lush breasts and why Don't you know

she is the Devil's seed that makes men's dicks hard and why They just can't Control themselves so because they are full of violence and Hunger to CONQUER AND FEAST ON MORE BLOOD THEY CAN'T

HELP

THEMSELVES....

so they rape her, enslave her, torture her, beat her, tell her she likes it and that she wants it and they pass her around and laugh because HEY, SHE AIN'T HUMAN, SHE'S DEMON SEED, SHE'S THE 'WHORE' OF ALL 'WHORES' AND WHY DAMN IT DON'T YOU KNOW

THAT BITCH HAD IT COMING AND SHE WANTED IT...BECAUSE SHE IS A WHORE...

and because she is the Product of the 'other' hated male--who of course after the blood letting is done and peace comes that enemy male is NOW HIS BEST BRETHREN FRIEND ESPECIALLY IF THEY CAN TRADE UH OH

COMMERCE

and then, the WHORE goes back being the submissive wife, daughter, who is then the WHORE OF THE HUSBAND/BROTHER/UNCLE/DADDY/MONARCH, ETC...

but she's still a bitch and a whore--just THEIR bitch and whore again and why they just Love to protect her don't ya know so now they got to keep her in subjugation and chained and indoctrinated and why--tell her,

GOD PROTECTS GOOD VIRGINS....

AND DAMNS THE LUSTY 'WHORE' WOMAN TO HELL--

and oh BRETHREN--WHY, HE LOVES HIS 'BROTHER'....THEY EQUAL, THEY THE SAME, AND GOD LOVES THEM ALL....

and it's no big deal Right?  Why it's just good Fun, it's Sport, it's Fantasy, it's Kick backs, it's Trophy, it's Look at OUR whores -good virgins [though they fantasize about merging them both and fucking away--while not forgetting to Remind the wife daughter sister mother girlfriend girl down the block that She's a Bitch because she says NO and won't submit--if she smiles why don't ya know, she's a Whore too, especially if by golly she burnt that man's toast in the morning or didn't Do it the way HE wanted, etc],


and the Travesty is---the Women and girls who will Emulate these images because it really doesn't matter, does it...She ain't safe in WAR OR PEACE, IN SLAVERY OR AT HOME...IN CHURCH OR IN THE BAR...BECAUSE ALL IN ALL


SHE'S NOTHING MORE THAN A VIRGIN THAT MEN WANT TO MAKE INTO A WHORE--OR A VIRGIN WHORE....

 the Dichotomy--and the most RAMPANT PLACE YOU WILL SEE THIS PLAY OUT IN HUGE LETTERS

IS

NONE OTHER THAN

RELIGION....[all of them]

Jane

NOTES FROM THE WILDERNESS



LET'S TAKE A TRIP TO THE DESERT SHALL WE....HELLO WILDERNESS 

.

and This little RoadRunner has a few Songs she just Loves to Sing, Sshhh,It's So Quiet, the Army of ME is Coming

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G1A_uSEjTIQ


and



Except, an Army of Road Runners of course

ANOTHER PROOF THAT 'EGALS' ARE JUST AS BIG OF LIARS AS COMPS

AND WHY I REJECT THE LIE OF FALSE 'CHRISTIANITY' THAT IS HUGE IN THE WEST TODAY...EMPHASIS ON 'FALSE' CHRISTIANITY....

the WOLVES ALWAYS SHOW THEIR TRUE COLORS WHEN THEY CENSURE THE ONES WHO ARE HONEST ABOUT THE PAIN AND REALITY....WHEN LIFE DOESN'T ADD UP TO THE 'PLATITUDES' AND 'LIES' OF THE WHITE PRIVILEGE 'EGYPTIAN & BABYLONIAN' CULTS.

THEY CAN TALK ALL THEIR EGAL SHIT ALL THEY WANT TOO, THEY DON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT WOMEN THEY ARE USING THE MISERY OF SUFFERING OF WOMEN UNDER 'FALSE CHRISTIANITY' TO MAKE MONEY/PROFIT--THEY ARE MAKING MERCHANDISE OUT OF US FOR THEIR OWN DAMN AMBITION....

THIS IS WHY JESUS SAID, THEY WILL DELIVER YOU UP IN SYNAGOGUES AND IN TEMPLES NOTICE HE DIDN'T SAY THEY WILL DELIVER YOU UP IN PAGAN GROUPS OR OTHER GROUPS THAT WORK TO SAVE THE POOR, RELIEVE AFFLICTION, FIGHT FOR HUMAN RIGHTS, WORK [NOT TALK] FOR WOMEN'S RIGHTS, WORK TO HELP ANIMALS AND TO TAKE CARE OF THE ENVIRONMENT--

OH NO, JESUS SAID THEY WILL DELIVER YOU UP IN THE SYNAGOGUES WHICH IS TODAY'S CHURCHES.

Another, well a couple of posts that I replied to one who when I wrote Seriously about the harm that is done to Women with the whole male MISOGYNIST LANGUAGE OF THE BIBLE-SONS OF GOD WHILE EXCLUDING WOMEN, ONLY REFERENCE TO WOMEN IS THE EVIL WHORE OR THE PURE 'VIRGIN',

they censured...well, I kept the posts---I am putting them below because My voice will NOT be silenced by the
WOLVES.

When I wrote to this one nasty comment when she Trivialized the harms done to THOUSANDS OF WOMEN NO MILLIONS BECAUSE THIS HAS BEEN CENTURIES LONG, HER REPLY AFTER I POSTED A VERY POLITE SINCERE POST ABOUT WHY THESE REFERENCES TAKEN LITERALLY IN BIBLE ARE HARMFUL--THIS IS WHAT SHE HAD TO SAY

I didn't save all the scriptural Platitudes she threw at me in a really nasty way to Demonize every thing I said about the struggle or cognitive dissonance that the language of Gender does in church-Bible, etc. but I did save the last two things she said...in her attempt to demonize my Sincere attempts of showing other scriptures that do NOT exclude women and Questions I had that many women ask...you see when one is Honest, it's Amazing how they immediately jump to demonize your doubts/questions/or critical thinking and they use scriptures to SHUT YOU UP...SO THAT OTHER'S WON'T THINK...THE CULT IS JUST AS STRONG IN THE EGALS AS IT IS THE COMPS...

her end comment--to DIMINISH ALL I SAID ABOUT THE GENDER LANGUAGE-EXCLUSION OF WOMEN AND THE HARM IT DOES--“As a Christian, being “in Christ” is my identity. ‘My life is hidden with Christ in God.’ This supercedes how I identify myself by my age, gender, nationality, social standing, etc.
So, are we saying that it’s the words and terms we use, such as “in Him”, that is obscuring a believer’s ability to identify with the gospel and thus obfuscating the love of God?”"

MY REPLY TO HER:  all prior to that, may I say, platitudes, platitudes, platitudes, Good for you if that works for you,
but what being in Christ is for you, may NOT be what being in Christ is to someone else and WHO are we to Define for All what being In Christ is OR what or how to define what Their life is Hid in Christ?
A good example of HOW we, assert OUR boxes using Doctrine onto EVERYONE ELSE,
after the resurrection, when Jesus talked to Peter about on this rock I will build my church and to feed his sheep….OK, then Peter, asked Jesus, what about John, and What did Jesus say? Did Jesus say, well you are All the same and so forth? NO, Jesus said,
19Now this He said, (AA)signifying by (AB)what kind of death he would glorify God And when He had spoken this, He said to him, “(AC)Follow Me!”
20Peter, turning around, saw the (AD)disciple whom Jesus loved following them; the one who also had (AE)leaned back on His bosom at the supper and said, “Lord, who is the one who betrays You?”
21So Peter seeing him said to Jesus, “Lord, and what about this man?”
22Jesus said to him, “If I want him to remain (AF)until I come, what is that to you? You (AG)follow Me!” NIV, John 21
Hear that, IF I want him to remain until I come, WHAT IS THAT TO YOU? YOU FOLLOW ME!”
signifying a PERSONAL RELATIONSHIP THAT DIFFERS FROM THE OTHER…NO BOXES,
so, yea, I do think, using doctrine platitudes like a baseball bat Can and often Does yes, obscure a believer’s ability to IDENTIFY WITH THE GOSPEL, WITH JESUS CHRIST, Paul’s being IN CHRIST was a whole different walk/EXPERIENCE than was Thomas or John or James…EACH one, had a different Death, John was exiled, EACH one had a different mission, and while they may yes, have had similar experiences, via doctrine and Faith, they did NOT ALL apply the Same identical way or the same kind of relationship…
in fact, another place, I recall Paul saying to the brethren, did they not Too have a right to carry with them a Sister [wife], etc.? Paul himself spoke against putting people into doctrinal boxes, Numerous times.
WE are different, through out the entire world, Christianity is NOT HOMOGENEOUS, though through Cultural and Blatant flat out Genocide, many zealots and DOGMATIST’S have done all in their Power to FORCE that homogeneity, leaving disastrous Results, even Hostility and backlash AGAINST THE GOSPEL, PROFANING GOD’S NAME IN THE PROCESS, we see the dire results of this in numerous parts of Africa, South America, and Women, sad to say, pay the Highest price, e.g. case examples, Rwanda and Congo.
Like, let’s talk class difference, what the Hell does obfuscate mean Anyway? What kind of people Use that language, other than college ed? IF I were to use that language with the working class and homeless that I know, they wouldn’t WANT anything to do with the Gospel, no matter HOW much I said,
oh, we’re all in HIM, in Christ, we’re all just lives hid. So like, if I have to use the dictionary, to Look up, obfuscate, before I can even understand you,
then Yea…I think, that says something. That is Why, yes, we all relate to the Same Jesus Christ, the Cross,
we All are being transformed [hopefully] and Christ being formed in us [until Christ is formed in you] BUT does that mean, we then, become homogeneous and like one huge Borg, and that IF we do not, that somehow obfuscates the love of God, or in Other Street terms, thus making God’s love unclear or confused or evasive?
well, yes It could make God’s love Evasive, when WE deny individuality, culture, gender, age, social standing, when we just Assume that it’s the same no matter what, then Yes Virginia, I would say, that Often does make God’s Love evasive,
case in point, Jesus, related to the Centurion to the Canaanite women who was used to being the lower end of the class/race scale in Two totally different ways, DID HE NOT?
Jesus related to the woman at the well differently to the woman who said Blessed is the mother who gave you suck or who nursed you…
Jesus related to the demon possessed man at the tombs who today we would classify as paranoid schizophrenic and have locked up Totally different from the Pharisees,
does that Mean then, that because Jesus related to Each person on THE LEVEL, THE GENDER, THE AGE, THE NATIONALITY, THE SOCIAL STANDING, differently and PERSONALLY, with each and every one, that THAT obfuscated or made God’s love Confusing? Does that mean, Jesus wasn’t IN Jesus or IN the FATHER?
Do we Have to Deny personhood, fit all into a box, so to give an Appearance that all is IN Christ,
if that be the case, IS THAT TRUTH?
or is it, Denial?
See Platitudes are really easy, aren’t they, it’s ONE Thing to say, oh Yea brother I’m In Christ and by golly my life is hid and Praise God you know we’re all the same,
but it’s Total B.S. when the TRUTH of the matter is, that is being USED as a Clever cover up to keep us from getting our HANDS DIRTY WITH THOSE OTHER ‘SINNERS’ OR FOLKS NOT AS GOOD AS US, OR WHO DON’T FIT INTO OUR LITTLE BOX, and That, sadly, is really how Those platitudes are often used,
they are used to trivialize the REALITY OF MANY WHO ARE YES, OF DIFFERENT GENDER, CLASS, RACE,
they are used to Justify not Getting there in with them and suffering with them and Actually getting to KNOW what it is to BE like them, oh sure we can talk, all the platitudes, keep that non obfuscating appearance,
but you know, Jesus left Heaven, became Homeless, Became Poor, Became the underclass, Became one who would DARE talk to the woman, sinner, drunk, publican, whore,
and HE not once, Denied their Existence or differences or Individualism, Yes HE said, to ALL, REPENT OR YOU WILL ALL LIKEWISE PERISH,
HIS commandments were the same, yes, but HE also, related to EACH and every one, WITHOUT IGNORING THE DIFFERENCES OR TELLING THEM, OK NOW YOU’RE ALL THE SAME NOW, LET’S JUST DENY YOUR OWN LENS, EXPERIENCE, DIFFERENCES AND WOW, ALL IS FINE AND HONKY DORY NOW,
nope, Jesus didn’t do that….in fact, HE gave Different instructions to all of them, one He said Go your own way, be whole, another HE said, go back home and let them see, another HE said, rise and give her something to eat,
all different instructions, different people as NOT to cause Evasiveness of God’s love,
nor the whole, untouchable thing.
The REASON, we have many falling away to day and away from the churches IS because of those kind of platitudes right there, the Oh but, hey Mary or John we are all the same, Praise God, yep, and then Mary goes home and with three kids and not making it has to take on that second job at the bar where she has to dress scantily to PAY THE BILLS but NO one in CHURCH will know because HEY
we’re all in Christ now and our lives our hid in Him, gee HOW convenient…and John, well John is struggling with suicidal thoughts because he is going to be laid off and he is too old to start another career and his wife is ill and well, on and on…
but Hey, we’re All one in Christ, Yippee,
and Susy well Susy got raped and well, hey, it’s all sad and well you know Susy, we’re all ONE in Christ and well you know we understand…
like hell you do.
Yea, those platitudes do real nice–a real good job putting up some Utopia box that well, hey IF you struggle with Identity because HEY, Virginia, guess what, people in This day and age are KILLED over IDENTITY, GO TO THE INNER CITY AND GET A CLUE, SERIOUSLY,
but we’re all ONE in Christ so it’s all fine now isn’t it?
You know, THAT isn’t what ONE in Christ is supposed to be NOR is our lives being hid in Christ supposed to be about denial of real pain, real people, real differences, with yes, Different Identities…
but hey, what the hell do I know,
I had to look up, the meaning of Obfuscating just to figure out, what the hell you meant…no evasive God there, nope, just a God, way out of reach for those who, also wouldn’t know, what that means, but don’t matter, we’re All one in Him and lives hid and all, yep in deedy…
Sincerely,
Jane

she replied back with a lot of demonize [but in that real sweet sugar to face kind of way --TYPICAL OF THESE KIND OF FOLKS--then of course with the Knife in her hand]

“I’m sure you didn’t intend to be offensive. If this offends you or not I’m not sure, but I think you say too much at one time. It’s like you’re demanding attention.”



There was more to her nasty comment [which of course to these so called FAKES is fine and dandy--but they deleted my comment below, as Always, and This is why YES I AM GOING BACK TO MY OWN BELIEFS IN JESUS IN THE NON-LITERAL PRO-NATURE/PAGAN WAY...YOU COULDN'T PAY ME MONEY TO ASSOCIATE WITH THESE VIPERS EVER AGAIN...

My reply I will leave out her name and the blog but the Content of what I had to say I believe really is relevant to a lot of what I write here and so...here goes,

________, cheap dig, and I’ll call you on it, and here is Why.
Let me begin, by taking us back to the original topic, on gender constructs…as we know, this blog among many others, with I will not hesitate to say, has authors/posters who are a Majority, of a certain race, class, who Yes, ______do Identify with these issues of Gender and the Abuses of one gender in particular, both within the church [notoriously] and in the world and therefore Yes, what may seem normalized to many here, are downright excruciatingly painful for Thousands of women and men, in our church today. I speak for THEM, it may not be Popular, it may not be P.C., but I speak and advocate for THEM, and if that is not well taken, frankly too bad, because for the FEW ELITE and DARE I SAY, PRIVILEGE voices out there, there are MANY MORE, WHO DO NOT HAVE A VOICE, OR IF THEY DO VOICE,
IMMEDIATELY YES, THEY ARE SILENCED, WITH THE PLATITUDES OF DOCTRINE. ESPECIALLY, WOMEN.
You see _______ for many who Discourse over these debates over LAW, or DOCTRINE, as if it’s a mere yet Another PHILOSOPHY AT MARS HILL [Acts] over a cup of tea and scones, those same who can relatively and safely DISTANCE themselves from the Yes, PAIN OF IDENTITY AND PARTICULARLY GENDER BECAUSE THEY HAVE NOT BEEN AT THE RECEIVING END, ONGOING THAT IS, OF THE ABUSES CAUSED BY SUCH DOCTRINES…and so NOT to be accusatory here, because My intent ________ is not to be offensive though I know, I am stirring up the nest here therefore yes, when that happens we can tend to get Defensive, but just to give you a Secular example here,
let’s take the case of Photographers who work taking photos of gross human right violations, such as those who worked in Bosnia during the war and in Afghanistan. In Bosnia/Croatia, the photographers took photos of the rape and death camps, knowing full well they couldn’t Do anything to help but IF they had not taken the photos the world would not have known, and the issue of ETHICS was one that was not one of those black and white areas. These photographers had to distance themselves, though horrified they were, because while they couldn’t rescue the men in the camps who were yes, being forced to rape one another, being castrated, etc., they also know, IF they did NOT take photos, reports, as human right photographers and journalists–these Crimes against Humanity would be and remain Invisible, would grow worse and there would not by Any justice nor help for future generations of the Bosnian people.
In Afghanistan, there were photographers who photographed two women who were murdered in cold blood for prostitution, a trade that MOST of the war widows are forced into to feed their five kids…even if they are NOT prostitutes, all it takes is being raped, a Common occurrence, to be accused and shot. The question again came up, among feminists and humanitarians, were these photographers Ethical by photographing this execution. Well, they couldn’t Stop it, nor could they prevent it…however, by taking the photos they Show the world the brutality that is Still going on in Afghanistan, contrary to the lies of developers, war mongers and oil whores. And like the photographers in Bosnia, Sudan, they had to distance themselves…
This is sadly, the Realism, of contending and reporting of EVIL, however, in both cases they reported through film the horrors not to just Philosophize [though tragically some Do and some even make Profit off of selling the best photos and stories therefore raping/re-victimizing victims again] and yet on the other hand, it’s Because of those who also dare to expose evil who also Give a voice to those who cannot speak.
Now, if one photographer lets say, turns and Invalidates the Pain and Horror and Soul Damage of the victims by lumping the evil to just a Necessity for Population Control…for some goal of intended well being for All, then, we have the situation [and this sadly Does occur] of Invalidation of the Identity and Reality of Suffering for those victims who are in the thousands, millions around the world….
It is not to Deny that yes, we have a global population problem or that policies that have good intent should be discarded or denied, However, there is a Line, between the platitudes of Necessity OR ideology, and that of the real breathing human lives who Yes, are effected by the systems and stratification’s…whose pain and identity are not relieved, the suffering, simply because, several [usually those who Can safely distance themselves because they are NOT on the RECEIVING END from the evil] can philosophize about the balance of necessity or the goodness of a social engineered Ideal, using yes, Platitudes of genius and knowledge of tried and true…
Using that secular example,
when I wrote about the gender, and the term of Sons of God, I wrote on behalf of not just my own struggle with this but on behalf of THOUSANDS UPON THOUSANDS of women who Yes, Identity Does matter….Regardless of the doctrines, that Yes are used a lot like Platitudes to Trivialize or Silence or Rationalize evil, and ESPECIALLY BECAUSE THEY ARE OFTEN USED TO EVADE OR AVOID the HUMAN ELEMENT OF THE ISSUE, particularly if that HUMAN ELEMENT IS ‘FEMALE’. You see __________, for many such as myself, while Yes we Know what it means to Be in Christ, our identity in Him, salvation, redemption…knowing that in No way,
reduces or erases the REALITY OF OUR LIFE AND LENS, OUR IDENTITY AS A CLASS, GENDER, AND RACE…
to just knock it off as ‘getting attention’ is well, Shaking my head here,
I’m not so sure how to reply to that one, not that I haven’t seen that kind of response before but I guess you could say, I more and more can relate to how the African American must have felt when the ‘brethren’ would philosophize about how we are All in Christ yet they were still living under JIM CROW LAWS AND FLEEING GETTING LYNCHED ON TREES. CURSED IS EVERYONE WHO HANGS ON A TREE AND BOY, WHEN THEY SAW BROTHER JIM HANGING ON A TREE…I WONDER HOW IN THE HELL, THEY RECONCILED THE PHILOSOPHY AND PLATITUDES WITH THE REALITY, OF YES, THEY WERE OF AN IDENTITY THAT WHILE IN CHRIST, IN WORD, IN LIFE, IN REALITY…
WAS NOT MANIFESTED IN THE SAME WAY….
and I could only imagine, one daring to come forward and say, you know I struggle with this with God and so I question, this, this, this…
and another, come up, and say,
it’s just for Attention!!!
If anything, you prove what I brought up, very well ________ and for that I thank you really, because maybe, it will get people, to THINK…
maybe even dare to push the envelope a bit, Past their privilege and class, gender and race lens.
While yes, the Word says, we are all One in Christ and that is our identity, we should be Careful in not using that to Trivialize or Avoid the real identity and how it Does yes, effect people, in this real World…and then to tell them or relay to them that Their struggle or their difficulty in Believing, truly believing that they are not less worthy in God’s eyes is just some fleeting or IMAGINED INJUSTICE and while, Hey, don’t you know you’re one in Christ,
yes,
is using Religion and religious platitudes as an Opiate, to dull the minds, evade the issue, or to downright, MAINTAIN PRIVILEGE AND STATUS QUO. Those safely distance can Afford that luxury,
there are many, those I do advocate for, Yes the Underclass, Non-Whites, and Gender including the single mother, the whore [such as myself Yes I was a whore...homeless, abused in RA as a child, dirty filthy whore...for years, who has seen the gangs and heroin and meth and still lives among that world and IN that world], the gang member, the disabled from years of meth use, the Mexican illegal trying to feed his kids, the African American woman on welfare, the Christian Muslim woman living in fear because for her being raped and beaten is a DAILY REALITY so she hides her faith…the middle class rural woman whose husband tortures her but she loves God and can’t leave with her seven kids and so Yes Identity
MATTERS TO THEM….
and when Those women hear Sons of God, do you think they do not Struggle?
If that is just a mere means of getting attention to you,
or anyone else, too damn bad….
DEAL WITH IT,
because I’m not going to be silent, as long as there are those that I know and live with and see every single day, who Yes, HURT, who Yes, IDENTITY IS MORE TO THEM THAN JUST SOMETHING THAT CAN PUT NEATLY INTO A BOX,
and while Yes they know who they are in Christ, they also know, when THEY WALK OUT THE DOOR IN THE MORNING, OR WHEN THEY AWAKE,
THEIR SUFFERING, IS NOT BECAUSE OF WHO THEY ARE IN CHRIST,
BUT WHO THEY ARE IN THEIR SKIN AND THEIR GENITALIA AND IN THEIR ECONOMIC CLASS…
and so Yes, when I then hear, scripture used as Platitudes,
I’m going to say something…
for those, who often, ARE NOT ALLOWED TO.
In solidarity,
Jane

1 Corinthians 9:19: “For though I am free from all men, I have made myself a servant to all, that I might win the more; 20 and to the Jews I became as a Jew, that I might win Jews; to those who are under the law, as under the law, that I might win those who are under the law; 21 to those who are without law, as without law (not being without law toward God, but under law toward Christ), that I might win those who are without law; 22 to the weak I became as weak, that I might win the weak. I have become all things to all men, that I might by all means save some. [I HAVE BECOME ALL THINGS TO ALL MEN (WOMEN), THAT I MIGHT BY ALL MEANS SAVE SOME] 23 Now this I do for the gospel’s sake, that I may be partaker of it of it with you.”
I rest my case….
Jane

SEE THEY CAN CENSUR ALL THEY WANT--BUT THEY CAN'T SHUT ME UP HERE...AND ONE DAY, THE TRUTH ABOUT THESE EXPLOITERS OF WOMEN'S MISERY

WILL BE EXPOSED

BUT FOR NOW I WON'T BE SILENCED.  TO HELL WITH THEM...

JANE

THE 'BIBLE' SEEN FROM OUT OF SPACE THIS YOU HAVE TO SEE

NO WORDS NECESSARY...
http://obviousmag.org/en/archives/2009/07/the_bible_seen_from_outer_space.html

LETTERS FROM A CONCUBINE/WHORE PART 10, LORD MAKE A STRAIGHT PATH FOR MY FEET AND BURNING OIL TO LIGHT MY LAMP IN THE DARKNESS

LETTERS FROM A CONCUBINE/WHORE PART 10, LORD MAKE A STRAIGHT PATH FOR MY FEET AND BURNING OIL TO LIGHT MY LAMP IN THE DARKNESS

BECAUSE THE WALK IS NOT AS EASY AS SO MANY LIKE TO CLAIM...

A lot has been going on with me, in this journey through the wilderness and I have a lot to write about but you know when you start seeing or understanding it works in two ways, one you see Light, then two you see the Darkness in that Light...and then,

there are the Shadows in between.

It's being in those shifting shadows that for me cause me the most fear, because while HE is revealing to me how the enemy through the RA abuse, young adulthood, through my rebellion [years of horrible blatant rebellion and sin though I knew mentally the salvation and Jesus] and hurt Used me as his captive to do his dirty work plus working towards my own destruction, HE is also revealing to me how to war with these forces as well as the difference between a Walk in Faith in Spirit and a false belief or walk in Doctrine...the two are Very different.  Learning Discernment is not some Wow quick one time Lightbulb that goes off and Hey, All is fine now, oh no...not even, I have come to learn, that the more I see the Light the more I see the Dark and just how Vulnerable I truly am...how Needy I truly am and dependent On Christ's Power alone, because in myself I can do nothing.

You know it's one thing, to say that, those Platitudes, a term BTW that I borrowed and really like, from a male brethren who used it on another blog and it really hit home with me, because for Years I tried to survive on doctrinal and scriptural Platitudes...let me assure you, it does not Work.  Eventually the house will crumble, the foundation and the house will fall...

reading about Faith yesterday, and dealing with the fact that yes, in so many ways my faith is and for Years was Dead...I for months when I got saved in my youth, have pumped scripture after scripture wondering, OK well why isn't it working?  You know the mind can take in a  lot of scripture, but until Energy is applied and not talking here about the Legalist way, but in the FIRE way...that faith is Dead.  By works faith is made alive--now What does that mean exactly?  Does that mean we are saved by works?  NO.  Does that mean faith works by works, no and yes...we know Faith works by love, by hearing of the Word of God,

but it also, depends on Works.  Now what exactly does that mean?  Well I knew works Showed what your faith is really in, He has shown me that much which is why I knew for years my faith was DEAD, yea I like knew it Mentally but like really KNOWING HIM, no, not in a PERSONAL LIVING WAY.    And it took getting to a place after years of being away/rebelling and literally becoming DESOLATE, to start to see...HIS POWER, NOT MINE, HIS HOLINESS, NOT MY SO CALLED PATHETIC RIGHTEOUSNESS, WHICH BTW, THOUGH FOR YEARS I WAS IN REBELLION I STILL HAD THAT RIGHTEOUS BUNK GOING ON, JUST TRANSFERRED IT OVER TO POLITICS AND IDEOLOGIES AND ALL THAT....  And when you get to that place, it is a type of hell, it really is, the regrets, shame, Horror when HE shows you HIS mighty power and HIS hand...just what LORDSHIP REALLY MEANS, stripping you of all your garments and well, showing you how you've soiled them if you have been foolish like I was...stripping you of all your so called Knowledge and brilliance and oh so strong and determined and all that other PLATITUDE B.S.

Breaking you and breaking you and like days you can't breathe and then HE begins to work....breaking up that hard ground and pulling up all that muck and mire and those evil things, done DO YOU...slowly removing the fish scales off the eyes and the Horror, oh my gosh the Horror, to know what Saul, who later was Paul, felt like when Jesus Blinded Him...and then to then SEE.!

You know for me, it wasn't a one time break either, oh no, not just the hip...it started with the lower spine, pain and pleasure, the locus of control of both, senses sharper than ever before, yea that's what That tree will do for you, gives a Whole different meaning to the ROD, when used on you.  And then the staff, when King David said,

thy rod and thy staff they comfort me,
yea, LOL, that comfort don't come until later, when He gently kisses where He's wounded...but that, alas, yes is sweet, 

but the rod and staff, eh, NOT so sweet, in fact, downright unbearable and boy, the anger that comes up, you know I for so long thanks to Platitudes hid that anger, that hurt, that rage, that doubt, that yes even hatred towards Him, because you know, FEAR...like OH my gosh we aren't Supposed to think or feel or do those things so we try and try to put on this garment and look and walk and talk the walk...to be So good, to be So true to the Word, oh Yes, like that strutting about in high school with those appearances that Hey sure we knew the latest buzz word when in fact we didn't even know what the hell the prior twenty buzz words meant but Dare we show our true nakedness, frailty, dirtiness and weakness..oh no, and Show just how NOT put together we really were?  NEVER!  Why that's just, a type of sacrilege is it not?
And then you know you go to a trusted one who you see and think that They do know the buzz words and of course they give you the Platitudes and the BLUFF, and you buy it...so you hide, and hide, and hide, and then one day, years later, you find that after they've all gone their way, most to success [for the time being] you are dragging your ass through loserville wondering, where in the hell did you go wrong, and you realize how you were Played and made the fool and how you bought into the lies of the platitudes, how all that was Supposed to happen didn't and just how alone you really are.  Then later, of course you find that those who appeared to 'succeed' are worse off than you so then your faith is really shaken....but then there will Always be those that will swear up and down that all is well and will dress and act the part, giving you reason to doubt that hey, maybe it truly IS JUST YOU, maybe if you just try This or That...you too can have the Dream....
yea the joy of the game, mind games you know...and oh religion is just one big mind game.  And the desolation, coming to terms with TRUTH over BLUFF...yea, not so fun that one.  When foundations are shaken and all that there really is, is just some mental blueprint with a few sticks and mud but no House!  Yea that was me...and so when I saw this, then I tried to like, OK God well let's change this and then get up and BOOM, can't move, then again, BOOM, can't move, then again BOOM, can't move,

so like a year of this and like dealing with one heart issue after another heart issue and like pulling teeth, God when does this EVER END?  I'm not getting stronger, why I'm worse off and even weaker...but then one day, you realize, Oh my, that is EXACTLY WHAT HE WANTED....IS YOU, STRIPPED TO NOTHING, SO THAT HE, COULD SHOW YOU, 
HIMSELF.

So then it's like you start over and over from scratch and finding you never knew shit to begin with--you just THOUGHT YOU DID, yea all those scriptures and doctrines and beliefs, without fire, Real fire now, not some three day cold or one time suffering, oh no, but FIRE that is just on and on and on and then you get relief then more on and on and like all inside is just consumed...and you feel like you're in this dark place standing on this I don't know what and this abyss and it's all you can do to even cry out the name of Jesus....it feels like, you're the wicked witch who is melting,
yea, I'm melting, I'm melting...yea I know that.., rod and staff, it ain't fun and it ain't pretty.  But it IS a necessity, well at least it was in my case, because it Took that, for me to see Just how deceived I was and just how full of pride and self righteousness I was and just how Needy I truly was, for HIM, so now when I think, I put NO CONFIDENCE IN THE FLESH, yea, hear ya Paul, I know what you speak of, and I kind of hope I don't have to know more...

see it's one thing to like, yea yea write good ole verses of how God brought you through this terrible experience and how great it is and blah blah blah, you know something, those kind of diatribes, are complete bunk, because they have to be, to be Broken by God, well, is a place of Darkness, it's like this Tunnel, and you know, hey, you often don't see the light at the end...and Hebrews says, many died not EVER seeing the promise, of their faith...Because God has something different, they will rise up with the others, the author of Hebrews says.  Yea you see it's one thing to read that and go uh huh Amen brother and sister, it's another, to Live through something like that and to Really think, you know what in the Hell did I sign up for and maybe God is just some loon power freak who gets off on seeing us tortured and you know when YOU get to THAT place and question and those mental bluffs and Buzz words are shaken to the core--and then you really get HONEST about your life and if there has been abuse or betrayal or well, the fact that the Reality didn't meet up to those platitudes  and then HE shows you your miserable wretched sin self and well--yea,

forget the Positives here folks...This, this is what Walking it really is about...some days are break through s, some days like one woman said, I want to file a restraining order on God.   

So like this gets me back to the faith-works part...so like I'm reading and Ding Ding, light goes off, in James,
I like the book of James, but anyway, in 2:21-22 KJV, it says,

21Was not Abraham our father justified by works, when he had offered Isaac his son upon the altar?
 22Seest thou how faith wrought with his works, and by works was faith made perfect?

Now the typical platitude is that Abraham was justified because he had faith and if we only have faith why we're fine...

but that's not what it says, it says, Seeing how faith worked with his works, by works was faith made perfect, which is in the sidebar, meaning, Complete.  In other words, works is the ENERGY used or needed to get FAITH TO WORK, faith is the thing hoped for, things not seen, etc., works by love, etc., that comes from Hearing and Hearing by the Word of God, James also says be Doers of the Word and not just Hearers only..this is where it's really easy to get into that whole Legalism thing...

ok so I'll just work so to be a doer, but that isn't work to energize FAITH, what I remember Lenin, using the term ELECTRIFY.  So like all this time I tried to have like this faith by claiming Scripture ok, and then doing works or trying to, failing, to be a doer of the word [in flesh] and always coming up,

dry, exhausted, dead and well, one day just didn't have any faith anymore, well, of course,

my faith was in platitudes and bluffs.  It wasn't until I fell flat on my face back into a life of sin, because hey, I truly wasn't I don't think, saved like in a complete way, oh no, I mentally accepted Christ in my twenties but oh boy, sure had a lot of hard ground and didn't take long for the seed to just be choked out, etc., even though yea, I knew scripture, boy I knew the Bible, so I thought...

I didn't KNOW, to KNOW is to EXPERIENCE, to EXPERIENCE IS TO KNOW FAITH BY THE ENERGY OF WORKS BY LOVE, TO GROW, TO HURT, TO BE 

AH,

BROKEN.

To go through the Valley of the SHADOW OF DEATH...I will fear no evil, thy rod and thy staff are with me/comfort me...

YEA, SOUNDS BEAUTIFUL DOESN'T  IT, OH HOW WE LIKE TO QUOTE THAT ONE...d

until you actually Go through that valley and evil and rod and staff and not just Externals OK, I'm talking, when HE takes you through that valley and evil INSIDE YOURSELF...

now That's a whole other ballgame.  And then you like go to the others and because like you want to see if They are like going or have gone through the same and it's like you're on two totally different frickin planets and you think Oh my gosh I'm like the devil's child or something...what gives here...

but the thing is, you see, James, be a doer of the word not a hearer only, looking into the mirror and then forgetting immediately what you are...yea, you know when you Really see into that mirror, you see the tree of death, INSIDE YOU, oh yea baby, you see the demons and the lies and the sin and the love of sin and that whole blood tree inside you and THEN you like, when the Revelation finally gets into you, it's like, A WHOLE OTHER UNIVERSE OF SEEING AND KNOWING AND THEN,

THE WAR, IS REALLY ON....

then you KNOW...it's for real, this ain't bluff anymore, and it truly is a matter of LIFE AND DEATH.

And this is Years after you THINK you KNOW who Jesus is...yea that's what the WORD will do to you, something about that Word, 

anyway...so like sorry for going into all these areas here, there is a whole lot more that I'm not going to get into here because I'm still walking through but the path, the path where it gets dark, is kind of like this,

 
http://www.sacred-destinations.com/syria/damascus-straight-street-via-recta.htm

This is the Street called Straight, the Street Paul himself walked on, nearby is the place where he was let down a wall /building in that basket, anyway, take a look, a Street, Path Called Straight, see the two doors on each side, those who try to Climb in through some 'other way', Oh yea...I like this photo, place, now See how DARK it is inside?  And how Narrow?  Yea, not all those people can squeeze through there, it's a tight, cramped, probably suffocating [like fire] dark place, now isn't it?

A place, a Straight Street, Paul walked....where the race was ran...

this is, what KNOWING FAITH, KNOWING GOD, IS LIKE...KNOWING JESUS CHRIST,

so, yea, all those positive Oh yea baby all is fine and God just Whoosh Victory this Victory that and ya know suffering only makes us stronger and BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH,

ok baby, yea, tell you what, come walk this Straight Street and CRY with me and then, we'll talk...cuzz I ain't seeing a whole hell of a lot of Positive about it, Sure I see the Spiritual Positive, I am seeing, in this strange odd way, in this dark tunnel, things about myself that well, can't say that I LIKE to see, things about HIM, Jesus, that well, HE's more REAL now, not just some ideal or mental image or platitude or bluff...though sometimes the darkness of the tunnel, I don't see Him too well, sometimes I feel Him, sometimes I don't,

sometimes I wonder if I strayed into one of those side tunnels and yea, question that, and the only Light to light that tunnel [saw this in a dream] is some HUGE FURNACES, oh yea baby...yea,

so much for all those Positive Opiate Sermons, LOL.

But in this weird way, there is this Peace, that I am sensing more and this Love that I am sensing more and more and like this KNOWING...through fear, because it's not always this smooth walk, I stumble, a LOT, and I am learning the importance of that lamp and the oil and what it means...

and the Works, to work that Faith...that energy needed...

easier said than done, this is no easy walk, it is no Joyride, but at least, I think [still have those doubts] that I, am now, at least ON it,

where before, when I thought with all that 'mental assenting' that I was, I wasn't...I hadn't even begun to make those tiny steps yet...I ran away, I think we all do, it's like sheep to the slaughter, and well,

then one day, you feel this whack on your back and your knees buckle then this rod then this curved thing pulling you and some warm hand caressing you then back to walking and that rod again...

and the shadow, the shadows,

and then, one day, you realize, that Hey, King David was right, that rod and staff really ARE a comfort because when you are IN that dark tunnel, that dark place, evil all around and in you, you Feel HIS LOVE, with every jolt and whack because without it, you really ARE in an abyss, and that ain't no fun place to be....once you've been there,

you don't wanna ever go back.

So, make me a Straight Path Lord and keep my Lamp lit, I tend to want to climb in another way or turn and run out though now I'm too far in and can't see my way back out, which is OK, cuzz I don't really want to go out and I kind of like, knowing you are there, guiding me...no matter  how much I might doubt or grumble or cry,

keep me and keep me there in You,  Jesus, 

I love you.

Jane