To RMott, You Inspire Me

This post is dedicated to RMott, for all the hard work she has done, for being voice for all those who are silenced OR that so many simply choose NOT to hear--the voices of the sex slaves, slaves in the sex industry, slaves in the fields, in dungeons, in basements...

She speaks through her own pain, picking up the pieces of her fragments, but  not just for herself, but for every woman in the hell of sex slavery.  R you are Heroine to me, your strength, your honesty, has so often, been the comfort, that God used, to pull me out of the pit, just thinking about you....about your testimony, bravely shared, in a very hostile world.  When I think of you, yes I see God, I see a light, in darkness, and YOU, have inspired me, that no matter how dark the hell, how painful, we CAN OVERCOME,

because YOU ARE, OVERCOMING.

That, to me, is PROOF EVIDENT, THAT YES, GOD EXISTS.  

And not only does HE-SHE exist, but HE-SHE exists as LOVE.  LOVE AS IN POWER, A POWER THAT EVEN THE GRAVE, CAN'T HOLD DOWN.  All the demons of hell, cannot hold down, the POWER, OF LOVE.  

I SEE THAT IN YOU, when I have plunged, to the pit of despair, when I have ONLY seen the demons, hell, my mind spitting, images I cannot seem to get out of my head, God has often brought you to me in my visions, where I reach out, take your hand, and we together pull up out of the grave...so to speak [allegory/visual] and we get all the others, and then slowly, I realize that I am not alone in my pain [from the RA, etc] and that it's not just me here in this world...that though our experiences are different, on so many levels, on so many more they are not.  What reality is, is that the only thing that separates the levels of brutality and violence on women, is a very thin door, the Illusion is, that there is safety.  In this world, no, there is not safety, not safety by guarantee.

The lie is that the separation between Woman, wife, mother, etc., and Woman, prostitute, sex slave, is a huge divide--and that there is safety from the terrorism of the 'butchering of women hell' when in Reality, there is no real safety--Woman, Sisters, MARY, as mother, sister, wife and prostitute in Bible, were all named Mary--not to 'erase' her but to show, to tear apart the lie, the illusion, that hierarchy on the pyramid did all to portray, the illusion of the good woman/bad woman, to lay blame on HER, on MARY, rather than on where it belonged, on the SYSTEMS OF MEN, PATRIARCHY, POWER, GREED, EMPIRE, God saw Mary as All WOMEN...AS ...... HUMAN BEINGS.

it only takes a war, an economic crisis, a sickness [medical bills, child sick, etc], a rape, a gang rape, fighting in war, homelessness, incest/rape, pornography [same as rape], a slow tearing away at the self core of woman by abusive men, 

for the safety mirage to be shattered and a woman to find herself, in sex slavery.

The illusion is perpetuated by the lies of religion, patriarchy, systems, institutions, psychology, MEDIA [the largest one along side religion] that Only if women act good, do good, obey the rules, that good girls don't wind up in slavery,

and women, in all levels of the patriarchal and economic/race hierarchy on a Global scale, benefit from these MIRAGES, of ILLUSIONS, but ONLY to a small degree because that thin door, to the other dimension, is just that,

thin.

Today is Mother's Day, and I thought of you...normally R I do a post on mother's day, of which I yes still believe we should honor, because the hatred of the woman-womb is actually in my opinion the foundation of the hatred of women, because it was the basis of her com modification, SHE was 'threat',  to the Powers that wanted Power, because she carried the Power of Life nurture in side of her--the Power GOD gave her, like the same power of the Earth--it IS a POWER, and I'm not just talking here about having children 'biologically', oh no, though that is a big part of it...but the POWER to Nurture LIFE in many forms, Spiritual Life, not just 'plant' life, but nurture that life, water that life, into a whole new generation...THAT IS POWER,

power that the power mongers, those who FEARED HER, did not like--so they set out to Destroy her, to Destroy her Seed.  Now there is all kinds of spiritual beliefs around this, as we well know, and I don't just want to focus on those, nor on the biological part of it, because you see, Mother's, WOMB--WOMAN, gives BIRTH TO

NEW LIFE--AS IN IDEALS...

that are Just as Powerful, that when nurtured bring about CHANGE.  I believe that many of the 'good' things we know and have are Actually the result of a Woman's, a Womb's, Ideal, her Vision, her Love, her Inspiration,

her Sacrifice, her Martyrdom [yes WOMEN HAVE BEEN MARTYRS FOR HUMAN RIGHTS SINCE BEGINNING OF TIME, FOR LIFE and it's NOT to be taken lightly because in my opinion, SHE IN HER DEATH, HAS BROUGHT LIFE TO MILLIONS, the African woman slave who died trying to save her children and the Christian/Jewish and Pagan Slave women who Died, CRUCIFIED, by Rome, for daring to stand up, against hate and brutality...the Mother's of the Disappeared who risked their own lives, many of them Dying, to save the Future generations from complete erasure...I could write a BOOK, of the COUNTLESS MARTYRS, WOMEN, who in their death gave LIFE--

THOSE, ARE MOTHERS....

whether they had children biological or not--does NOT define Mother.

GOD AS MOTHER--IN EARTH--GIVES LIFE, THE 'TREE OF LIFE', the Side of Jesus, blood and water, is the symbolism, of several things...one yes Women by thousands were horribly crucified by the Roman Empire, women slaves, sex slaves, who dared to run away, dared to fight back, to resist, to love--paid with their lives, and yes I believe the crucifixion of Jesus is in many ways symbolic OF that very fact...the Romans crucified women, facing the cross, being naked, raped on a tree--to TERRORIZE women, but more so, to TERRORIZE ALL THEIR CHILDREN, meaning--children not yet born, children born into slavery, children born by the rapes of Roman masters...there were many, many were killed at birth, why Rome eventually changed family laws, one act of resistance was in fact, killing the children caused by Rape, because slaves were 'Money' to the Romans--this act of resistance would be seen Again, during Mussolini's regime--the forced pregnancies, Italian Women's Resistance.  They did not do so out of some morbid enjoyment, no, but they did so, to SAVE THE ENTIRE WORLD, from a brutal empire, that was hell bent on complete annihilation of many ethnic groups and people of beliefs...

THOSE ARE MOTHERS,

and yes, THEY INSPIRE ME.

They inspire me, that in Hell, though we cannot escape Evil, we can't really escape sometimes having to Choose the 'lessor of two evils' though Western 'religiosity' likes to hold ON to that mirage to protect the LIE OF PRIVILEGE, we cannot escape the Trauma of Evil, especially on our bodies and minds,

and yes, our Souls.

But for thousands and thousands of women, girls, and yes boys, children, around the world, they live with this reality of Evil every day...some don't even Have good memories to pull strength from, especially those who are sex slaves from young ages.  Hell has them trapped--

and I don't believe, we can lay claim on LOVE, if we do NOT do all in our power, to not just think of them, but to End, the Normalizing of prostitution, sex slavery, the sex industry and consumption Based on slavery [because the two go hand in hand], and End the glamourizing of totalitarianism, militarization and nationalism bent on destroying others, including religious-ideology nationalism, and cultural relativism...that Allows for such, and most of all, ending the glamourization and Lies of patriarchy--Nuclear patriarchy especially.  

But it's not enough to just lay blame on patriarchy alone--whether women are the oppressed or not--the FACT of TRUTH remains...women are Also, on the PYRAMIDS of oppression AS oppressors, to EACH OTHER, and to OTHER WOMEN--JUST BY THE THINGS WE BUY--we feed into the whole labyrinth of HELL...

WE MUST ALSO, FACE OUR SELVES, IN THE MIRROR, AS INDIVIDUALS.

  And choose, to Overcome Evil--with Good--

not by Becoming overcome, by Evil.

That is the difficult part, much easier said than done, and a Personal Choice we all must make, no one can make it for us....HOW we react, is Just as important, as what is done To us...this does not mean we do not react with anger, or rage, or that we don't Defend ourselves...

what it Does mean however, is that we don't allow the Darkness, to poison us to the point where we can only see through the lens of darkness, to a point where we ourselves, inside, become a black hole--that point, is in fact, the complete destruction of our soul.  I'm talking here about taking on the spirit of revenge and hate...hate by blind hate, not hate of evil, there IS a difference.  LOVE HATES, WHAT KILLS LOVE,

love does NOT rejoice in Iniquity, but rejoices in Truth.

But Love does not become overcome by evil, in such a way that it loses sight of love--and Forgiveness.  

This is hard to swallow because pain and evil, against us, because we are Woman, Womb, is a force of Power, on Occult levels, that defy explanation, reason...excuse.  So we are faced, with Confronting, as well as working towards change--but we are also faced, with fighting that force in that it doesn't Consume us, and create us in Evil's mirror image.  This is one thing I learned during my days [years] in Revolutionary Politics...I started to become transformed by the hate I felt towards the injustices...

and the evil yes, did come inside through bitterness and did work it's poison, it's Only by a miracle, that I came out, not totally consumed by--I do believe, it was the research I did on numerous Women, resisting Evil, in wars, the Holocaust, genocides, that yes, saved my life, my soul--because the seeds were planted, LIFE, that LIFE itself is a cycle of day and night.  But LIFE doesn't end at night--not entirely,

because Love resurrects, and LIFE begins again.  RMott has LIVED through HELL that is hard to imagine, even for those who know trauma...yes Here is this woman, her body broken, mind fragmented but holding on, feeling still the pain from years of sexual torture...and yet, SHE is speaking against the powers of hell on earth, a PILLAR OF STRENGTH,

and yes, R, to me, YOU ARE A MOTHER...

a Mother giving LIFE TO MILLIONS, OF GIRLS AND WOMEN WHO SO NEED YOUR VOICE--YOUR LOVE, YOUR COMPASSION, YOUR STRENGTH, 

through PAIN you LABOR....

and I stand with you R, keep breathing, because ONE DAY--THAT LIFE, WILL COME,

there WILL BE CHANGE,

because LOVE, NEVER FAILS.

yes R, YOU INSPIRE ME...

to work through the pain, to hang on, to SEE that in a world of billions, Someone, is crying, Someone needs me, you, all of us,

I see the word Crying, and I think, Christ, Jes-US CRIES, T , T as in Cross

could also mean Jews US CRIES, if you think of the numbers of slave crucified and horribly butchered, raped, eyes gouged out, hands cut off...heads branded so that if they ran away they would be returned to the masters, they were treated worse than dogs, if you look in history during that epoch, yes that was the reality--Rome was not kind, it was a HELLISH EMPIRE, as we the numerous others prior to that epoch--

nothing has changed today--Don't kid yourself, we may mask [that good mask over evil] with plastics and technology and cute clothes and shiny cars--but the Cries are still cried, in Agony, in Despair, without any hope--yes HELL still is reality,

 and it is getting worse.  But in that hell, there are lights, lights of inspiration and POWER, and many of them, are yes, indeed,

MOTHERS--WOMBS, BARREN WOMBS the Bible says...it's not talking about just physical, but spiritual, meaning, barren as in those who have had nothing but Evil done to them, who have little to nothing more to give, who have been through the chambers of hell, who are barely breathing...That is what barren means, what Desolation means,

 both Womb of Woman and Womb of Mother Earth, is said to be barren in the last days before the judgment and transformation [or re=birth and there are numerous and various beliefs as to what this is, from Mayan to Bible to Hopi, etc], and I BELIEVE that refers to the horrors, of MISOGYNY, AND SEX SLAVERY AND DEATH CAMPS, 

to women, in these days...but the Bible also says [as does other prophecies] that IT'S THE 

BARREN WOMB--THAT WILL GIVE BIRTH AND HAVE MANY CHILDREN,

that doesn't mean physical birth though that symbolism is used, it means, HER WORK, HER LABOR, HER EFFORTS, HER SWEAT, BLOOD, TEARS,

are NOT IN VAIN--

SHE WILL SEE HER CHILDREN--GOD, LOVE, WILL BRING THEM FORTH.

So yes, RMott, you inspire me...I CHOSE to draw you a picture, I'm not a good painter, but the child in me, that YOUR courage, has helped to heal, recover and move on in Spite of the pain, wanted to send this to you on Mother's Day.  I thought that it might also cause pain--but then, decided, that I cannot choose to love because it comes with pain--I know your story,

because often times, yes love seeds come with pain, because they remind us of what's been taken, lost, stolen from us--WE cannot escape that, we just can't, there isn't a day I don't grieve, GRIEVE, over all that was stolen from me, from the RA/Abuse, from my own Soul, not just life...

but Restoration, is often painful...LOVE isn't without Risks.  I also thought, WHAT IF, it was me...this is why I chose to also do this here, rather than private, because private is hidden...and I did not want to give this in hiding, as if there was something to be ashamed of, because there isn't,

HELL tortured you in private, LOVE HONORS YOU, IN PUBLIC.

Because LOVE IS POWER---HELL IS COWARDICE.

Though we've never met face to face, and I only know you through reading your blog, I just wanted you to know, on This Mother's Day, that YOU INSPIRE ME,

and I LOVE YOU FOR THIS...FOR BEING YOU, FOR BEING STRONG, COURAGEOUS, AND DILIGENT...

GOD BLESS YOU RMOTT, YOU REALLY ARE, A HEROINE...

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LOVE,

JANE