HOW CAN WE CLAIM 'SAFETY AND PEACE' WHEN THERE IS NO SAFETY AND PEACE FOR MILLIONS THAT WE STOLEN FROM

video messages for today [on leave from blogging] -- photo /wallpaper from link:

http://www.squidoo.com/gaming-wallpaper
TO WALK THE WAY, WE MUST RETURN WHAT IS STOLEN FROM OTHERS BY DIRECT THEFT OR BY INDIRECT, LOVE DOES NOT REJOICE IN THE IMPOVERISHMENT OF OTHERS SO THAT ONE MAY HAVE...

 



Love does not insist on the rights of Race, Ethnicity, Religion, Isms, at the expense of others who have NO DRINKING WATER, NO HYGIENE FACILITIES WHILE BEING MANIPULATED THROUGH CONSUMPTION MARKETERS THAT THEY NEED 'TOYS' WHILE THEIR CHILDREN DIE OF DISEASE AND MALNUTRITION...





JANE

TAKING SOME TIME AWAY FROM BLOGGING [though I'll post the music messages]

I was going to do a piece on the wolves and some other thoughts but after some inner wrestling I really need to get away from blogging for a while,

I have found what I was searching for, I now am at peace with leaving Christianity the 'religion' and the 'false christ' I am convinced of,

I have absolutely NO DESIRE to fight or strive to save some dying falling house, a lie--so I won't be concerning myself with the evils of patriarchal 'men' in the church, because it's not just the men, it's the entire basis of belief that is rotten to the core.

[a lot of I's there isn't there, I hate that, LOL} but anyway...what I want and so need to do is just connect to the divine feminine in God, to just separate and get away for a while.  The Native Indians, their ways, customs, are interesting and soothing so I will be reading up on those--though I'm not joining any tribe or anything, charting my own path [lead by the Holy Spirit of course] and well, see where HE takes me,

in the meantime--there are many urgent campaigns on the blogs listed to the side bar, I do hope you do read those--

and until then,

Dedicated, to the wonderful men and women of the Churchianity 'Danvers' group, the Ambition whores who use our suffering/misery [us women, esp us poor and women of color] for their uh, ministries, profit, books, medicine wagons, oh yea baby---that snake oil, to the war dogs, Bathory women who love the goods and blood...some music,

enjoy--these are for you ;)





to the Patriarchs, Misogynists, [uh, pay attention to the Entire video--so many just Didn't get it...like DUH, typical narrow minded 'misogynists' and 'racists']



GENDER GENDER GENDER--DOES IT REALLY MATTER, IT'S ALL THE SAME




goodbye to it all, I am on a New Path--to those who hear let them hear,

4And to the woman were given two wings of a great eagle, that she might fly into the wilderness, into her place, where she is nourished for a time, and times, and half a time, from the face of the serpent.

15And the serpent cast out of his mouth water as a flood after the woman, that he might cause her to be carried away of the flood.

16And the earth helped the woman, and the earth opened her mouth, and swallowed up the flood which the dragon cast out of his mouth.

17And the dragon was wroth with the woman, and went to make war with the remnant of her seed, which keep the commandments of God, and have the testimony of Jesus Christ.  Revelations 12



The Wolf--Alpha and Omega, Jesus said, I am the Alpha and the Omega,

Wolves belong to family groups called packs, they usually consist of eight to fifteen-members. The rare exception is what is popularly know as a "lone wolf", this wolf would most likely be the lowest member of a pack (the omega) that was driven out of the pack, if it is lucky, the "lone wolf" may find a mate and start a new pack.

Wolf packs can have very large range (6 to 600 miles)

The alpha pair has the greatest amount of social freedom among all the pack members, but they are not "leaders" in the human sense of the term. The alphas do not give the other wolves orders; rather, they simply have the most freedom in choosing where to go, what to do, and when to do it. The rest of the pack usually follows. There are various subordinates, who dominate the omega. The omega is the lowest. It is the baby-sitter and usually more puppy than wolf.

(left) photograph ©Richard E. Flauto Wildlife Foundation

excerpt from:   

http://www.wolfcountry.net/information/WolfPack.html

I'm on the New Path, learning the Way, Truth, Life...thank you Jesus, for leading me here.

peace,

Jane

LEARNING TO WALK 'THE WAY' 'THE TRUTH' AND 'THE LIFE'

http://www.adishakti.org/prophecies/25_white_buffalo_calf_woman_has_returned.htm

Note:  I do not adhere or believe in all that is on the above link, at the same time there is a lot of it that I do believe and have seen, in visions and dreams and in reading the Word of God.  I added this photo, because both Sheep and Buffalo are used for wool, and both, have White Spotless that represent Sacred.  I will leave the reader to decide, what the Holy Spirit or Great Spirit speaks, is what HE speaks to you.  I know what HE speaks to me, has been speaking, what I must do, as well as what Mother Earth has been teaching me...

 http://www.flickr.com/photos/velurajah/galleries/72157622942688303/

[see also the other Rare species photos on this gallery]

http://www.bunnysingswolf.com/whitehairedlyrics.html

Pair of White Buffalo,

now a Pair of Wild Sheep Scotland

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/sciencetech/article-1197126/Woolly-jumpers-shrink-warm-weather--sheep-getting-smaller.html

A Pair of Irish Sheep, ok a Family of Irish Sheep

http://imagesofireland.tripod.com/animals.htm

WILD SHEEP -- SOUTH AMERICA

http://www.argentinesafari.com/cazamayor/los_cerritos/eng_los_cerritos_big_game_hunting.htm

WILD SHEEP--ISRAEL

http://www.bibleplaces.com/southernwildlife.htm

WILD BUFFALO -- AMERICA

http://motherearthbeats.com/category/buffalo/

WILD SHEEP--EAST ASIA LIKE NEAR RUSSIA, ETC, THESE ARE THE LARGEST SHEEP

http://www.safarisearchengine.com/SpeciesDetail.asp?ID=168

I will leave you to ponder this...

and I'll close with a video or two.  Tomorrow, I will post on Wolves, many think the wolves in Native American or any symbolism of wolf is evil, due to scriptures, I've been thinking about this.  I looked up images of wolves in Israel, they are Very different from the timber wolf.  Also, there are several ways one can look at symbolism, they can be good or evil, depending on the context in which they are used.  But when I think of wolves, in the way Jesus mentioned them, I think of jackals, the wild dogs in Africa, because they were symbolized often in Egypt.  I do not know if this is some truth but it is often what I have wondered...it's the same way with the Raven.  The Raven, a bird I love, is viewed by many Native Indians as an evil omen [this is what I have heard, by some who say the Raven was symbolic of the sorcery from Europe--the Raven is I know, revered in some darker beliefs, pagan, etc]  same in parts of Europe, but the Raven can be either symbolized as good or evil--God used the Raven and the Dove, after the Deluge, Noah.  During the plague, ravens eating the flesh of humans, gross I know, in Doing that, saved lives, because it kept the plague from spreading to other parts of the world.  So I personally think it's the context that is used--though I do not know Why the Native American Indians revere the wolf--but I do not believe it is for the reasons many claim--those fears are based on prejudices.  Love, Jane

In Love, Jane

And the LORD shall be seen over them, and his arrow shall go forth as the lightning: and the LORD God shall blow the trumpet, and shall go with whirlwinds of the south.  Zechariah 9:14

Set ye up a standard in the land, blow the trumpet among the nations, prepare the nations against her, call together against her the kingdoms of Ararat, Minni, and Ashchenaz; appoint a captain against her; cause the horses to come up as the rough caterpillers.  Jeremiah 51:27

and this:

DEBUNKING CHRISTIANITY WITHOUT JOINING THE BITCHING LOT OF ATHEISM PART 2

'painting SORROW by Vincent Van Gogh'

DEBUNKING CHRISTIANITY WITHOUT JOINING THE BITCHING LOT OF ATHEISM PART 2

See the post below, this one is related...

OK well on this debunking and Deconstructing, which I believe was born when I began to Question God about Patriarchy and Misogyny--including those things that are in the Word--it was when I began to see symbolism's in the Bible that pointed out to a type of dialectic as well as symbolism's that obviously showed the Female side to God, and looking at the misery of my own Consumption coveting angry consumed life--that desolation from submitting and yielding to the ideas and Constructs of modern society both secular, political and religious--on Gender, on Class and on Personhood, a.k.a. conformity, and came to the desolation point, I then knew, either I looked and challenged every belief I had or I would DIE in the ROT I became.  Rot that was planted in me by abuse and other horrific things done through a family line of iniquity as well as this evil society-world, but Also from my own choices and actions that were contrary to love, contrary to self love I might add because I am seeing how JuST important that one Truly is--one that religion and the power brokers of the LIE have all but told us we are NOT to have any self love--which leaves us not only Incapable of loving anyone but we can't even love God if we hate ourselves--

sorry if I'm talking in circles here, but anyhow--so I hit the HELL ok inside of me--I knew, either I got Saved not just from my own SIN and SELF but from the LIES I had believed...

in this process I found I would get Furious at God for so much of the LIES I had believed, including things in His word or the Bible that I knew, obviously were tampered with--in very subtle clever ways in the use of male only language, somedays I would think OK God where am I missing it--you have ONE nature here, another one HERE, I would have to go Back and Back, reread,

then all this time, this voice, would tell me, as well as I needed the sanctuary and oh my gosh the healing, the silence, the soothing balm, to go outside, to learn from Nature.  So I did--what I didn't realize then, was just how much God would show me IN Nature, that through learning that it's not Reading the Bible in the letter of LAW which Kills, but in Meditating, that one starts to GET IT...but you see IF our lens is poisoned by materialism, social constructs/so called man's wisdom which is foolish and self consuming destruct anyway--like a Worm that feeds itself, we Won't get it.

It Does take being Broken, for one, and I do mean Broken--when Nothing in this life can resolve the ache inside--that horrible ache and not even religion can do it--because RELIGION IS A LIE...it's a LIE of a false garment to cover up the futility and nakedness and that shame that goes with it--that Hiding...but it's a hiding that is so open to the forces of spiritual death/vampires because it is Darkness.  It takes seeing into the MIRROR image of YOURSELF--which is really facing not only hell but demons, it's horrific, Any who say they have and are not horrified by it ARE LYING TO YOU, because the effects alone of living around Evil do poison us, in ways we don't grasp, but they do.  

It's like we are a hollow tube and with every unkind word spoken, every thought of hate, of wanting revenge, murder, every thought of lust, power...all the thoughts and images of things done to us, said to us, painful things, some traumatic, those things we See in images and media, all of this combined, has an effect.  Going to religion to try and 'fix' all this, won't cut it...it may Cover it for a while but it won't cut it simply because it's only a mental assent--we can Mentally assent to something for a very long time--

religion uses Fear, we adhere out of FEAR, we stick to the faith out of FEAR, fear is a LIE people, if WE are not able to go to God and say, you know sometimes I think you're kind of an asshole because we are Terrified that HE will forever strike us down and reject us, we are in FEAR.  And FEAR breeds LIES...so we LIE TO HIM when he knows full well, what we think and what we feel.  WE would not be Normal to NOT think that, when horrible things happen to us and it appears that HE is behind them.  

So, while sitting outside, then one day pulling bind weeds, I began to understand what the Bible really was saying to me--at first it was slow, I'd have a good day, and the next I'd be, like, WTF God, I mean--just yesterday...you were telling me all these great things...and this went on for about a year...what I didn't know however is just how much Gunk in my soul garden was being not only removed but churned over--to where, it was all exposed and there was nothing hidden...

but now what I DIDN'T expect, was for REASON to pop in there and I began to question the validity of Jesus, of God, Science, all of it--the Woman Question kept bringing me back to this because no matter What I kept seeing 'flaw's' when reading the Bible...so I began to dig--sure enough, there was Good reason to Doubt, 300 years After the death of Jesus a bunch of men in Rome get together and put Their version of Jesus into effect--and the Gnostics weren't any better--what I have read thus far sounds more to me like communism--with the whole women have to become penis's to be saved but Oh wait--we can still kiss and screw her, I mean Come on--sounds like right out of the Comrade 'sexual swap' book to me...been there done that, know that one is a BIG FAT LIE, so,

ok so then, Who to believe,What to believe?

And all this time, Nature kept coming back to me, all these little messages of wisdom, but I would reject them you see because maybe they were Wiccan or maybe they were Pagan or maybe they were New Age or maybe this, after all, it's not Doctrine--the doctorates of men, those schooled scholar boys in the ole Greek club--oh yea....the Mars Hill philosophy doctorates with their fancy degrees and their expertise on gender, life, wisdom....

of course when the bleeding women crawling on the ground come up it's not Woman your faith has made you whole, oh no, it's for $19.99 you Too can be free...come on give us some more snake oil.

I mean, seriously--but then I would also see All the times I could have given, I didn't, all the times I could have loved, but I didn't, excuse, excuse, excuse...the materialism and things I coveted--oh I may have dumpstered for them [because I am low income] but so what--greed is greed, consumption is consumption--now does this mean we are to shun every wanting or having, NO, it just means, there is a line--between wanting and then OH MY GOSH I LIVE FOR WANT, I LIVE TO HAVE, TO GET, GET, GET, GET AND GET...that inside worm that is Never satisfied, the worm dieth not the fire never quenched Jesus said.

I was a horrible person who lived a horrible life--I want to Change God...but every day I got up To change something would come up like Lead inside my heart and I would just be like bound in cement--there were days I thought, this is judgment, I am surely going to hell.  It was then I realized what Hell is, it's not some place, some inferno, it's not needed, it's when one is so full of death inside that there is NO life source, NO fuel, to even Want to go on...and it's like this spiral into the abyss where you fall and fall and it is dark--there IS no love--

but daily I would go outside, sit outside, work in the garden or pull weeds or just sit and observe--and little by little the pieces began to fit.  When I began to question, seriously the Christian religion, I was also questioning Jesus--the Pauline Gospels, all of it--I so rejected [and still do] the doctrines of the so called 'churches' which are So way off it's not even funny--no wonder we have so much unbelief these days.  But you see it's not enough to blame the church, because it's not just THE church that is at fault--it's something more--


it's the Disconnect.  With LIFE.


watch this video, pay close attention--to what WE are and have BECOME--LOOK AT THE CONSUMPTION OF BOTH THINGS AND FROM THE EARTH, THE LIFE SOURCE, WE THE PLANET, HUMANS, AND JUST PONDER IT A BIT


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x3ov9USxVxY

now, I often read [and asked myself] why did God commit Genocide--in the Old Testament, those giants that God told Joshua and David, etc., that HE would drive out--were CONSUMING EVERYTHING, that is the KEY many miss, they look at the men, women and children/babies--the girls taken who were virgins, now I don't know why HE spared the virgins--though if one wants to call being some man's sex slave that he could rape/be violent too at will who knows [though God did have laws against abusing captives, that should be mentioned but what God said and what man did two different things] but going back, if you read the Entire text--and the rest of Old Testament, there ate two things, the consuming and the mass consuming to where Humans could not eat--nor did the animals have any food or homes, etc., and the violence--the taking of villages/wars, sexual violence, all those things ARE listed, in these lands ruled by Giants--

the Other KEY is the many mentions about the Sabbath rest for the EARTH, the slaughtering of animals for sport [see ancient sports] and the abuse of the earth, then we begin to see another picture all together,


see the EARTH gives us LIFE, as do the Animals, they Sacrifice themselves for us every single day--out of Love, but when humanity takes and takes and gives not God credit nor Respect, when mankind abuses mankind through war, conquest, for getting MORE--see the KEY to all the wars in OT is that those who looted for gold, etc., God destroyed, HE didn't have a lot of tolerance for that--why Is that?  Because gold mining and other mineral mining strips the planet, pollutes the water, with slavery which was used in that day it also pollutes the earth with blood.  God in His forbearance would tolerate and teach, warn, through prophets, ancients, sages, but when it got to the point where humanity simply DID NOT CARE--BUT ONLY WANTED TO CONSUME, then GOD acted.


See God gives life, HUMANS CONSUME AND TAKE LIFE.


See if you put yourself in a plant's skin or an animals skin, if you put yourself in a bird's skin and watch how it must feel to see your homes, one after another be tore down so that humanity can build huge houses and more houses and not only that they don't even share with those without--when there are wars and blood, that the Earth is forced to drink--of innocent children, etc., when you Put yourself into Their skin and see from THEIR LENS,


THEN, THEN IT BEGINS TO MAKE SOME SENSE.


Why Jesus said, sell what you have and give, worry not about your raiment for LIFE is more than clothes, the lilies of the fields, etc., it makes Sense--what HE was really saying, and IF you go back and read Acts and Paul--and all the others, the numerous times, do good works--Feed the poor, Share what you have, Love one another,


it makes Sense.


Now whether or not humanity listened, is up to humanity--


now look at This video--and just ponder...I will leave this for now, and come back to it later this week--see also post below--God is showing me, I'm seeing it...but NOT in the way I ever thought I would--and I am no longer afraid of it....in fact, it's freeing, to be free from the shackles of religion and FEAR, of GUILT, to be able to see what our purpose truly is--is a beginning.  It is NOT comfortable because it's so contrary to what our flesh is used to--it is painful, a  letting go, but in all life, seeds are planted in darkness and they take time to GROW.  It is both male and female, there ARE no 'roles' but gifts, life gifts...we see them all the time in nature, in animal kingdoms there is no homogeneous structure, there are two monkey groups, one patriarchal the other matriarchal, both are prone to violence and class-death--did WE evolve from them?  I think not--but WE did corrupt them--they learn by WATCHING US, NOT THE OTHER WAY AROUND, we have dominion, not them--they evolve watching US and become corrupt with each generation--as WE consume food, they become and adapt to OUR ways.  On the other hand, there are also life lessons to be learned from observing animals, God speaks to us in numerous ways--we also see the End Result, of our actions and inactions through out the earth today.


It isn't GOD who is fallen, disconnected, it is US, humanity.  HE reconciled, through Jesus on the Cross, HE showed us, LIFE---we will be a food source, either fruit or thorns...to be burned, Food source you say, Oh how awful, but no, when an animal eats an animal that animal yes dies--but it also Becomes part through atoms and energy of the animal that consumes while the waste goes out...if you look at Energy, forces that make up matter--you can see it.  Water, Gases--they are all molecules and atoms, etc., they are living, life--THEY CHANGE FORM...when Jesus was resurrected HE changed form several times, the Bible says this--it's not hard to imagine, if you take matter, you can change it's form--what if, you become an energy source that can change matter, yourself, this may be hard to grasp--but if we can imagine shapeshifters on Star Trek Deep Space Nine--then it can be done....we see it in Nature every day--what we see as death is decay--but that decay turns or transforms into another life source.  The fire not quenched, fire below, the center of earth--those that do not have LIFE in them--because they chose NOT to have it.


that, that is hell--the lake of fire, look at a star when it combusts or look at the forming of pulsar stars, ok so you Don't see human forms, that don't mean, there isn't forms there--we just don't SEE them--our eyes are limited--we just don't know, do we?  I believe there are other dimensions--the string theory, that there are doors, even windows, I also believe, that we are here to Learn, to Overcome--


Easier said than done, because Pain is real, our lives in these bodies are real and the beautiful thing about God, is that HE became like us...in Jesus---HE knows, what it IS to be hungry and tempted, to be depressed and suicidal, to want to have power to deal with those who oppress, in that desert Jesus felt them all--and not the ONLY time either.


Disconnected--until we become connected with Nature again--we will NOT grasp who God really is or who Jesus is for that matter, on This I am convinced.  The Ancients KNEW the WAY, TRUTH, LIFE...


THEY DID NOT NEED RELIGIONS OR MAN'S CONSTRUCTS OR THE 'CHURCH' OF ROME TO TEACH THEM--THEY KNEW, THE GREAT SPIRIT...


WE should and would do well, to Learn from them--







I give God, the Great Spirit, Jesus, the Chief of all Chiefs, Lord of Lords, King of Kings, God the Mother also, the Mother Earth, Glory and thanks...for All they have shown me, this year, for their patience, forbearance with me, when I was horrible to them, not with understanding, fearful, frustrated, blind and angry...for tolerating my outbursts, for leading me in many ways to the Light, to the WAY, showing me, the Error of MY ways and deeds and thoughts...


for without Them, without their Vine, Jesus the Vine, I would have not seen, this I know and I would not live...I have new life in THEM, only in THEM, I thank God, the Heavenly Father, for introducing me to my Heavenly Mother, Mother Earth, to whom I have been able to run and to heal...thank you Mother Earth for showing me, that I have Value, Power, as a Female, as a Woman.  That sorrow, my sorrow, is also YOUR sorrow, that YOU feel every day, for all your children, the ones who believe and the ones who are disobedient to the WAY, who you still love and want for them to COME HOME,


I thank you Heavenly Father for introducing me to the Great Mother Wisdom and the Holy Spirit for teaching me TRUTH, for teaching me about the wheel and the negative forces that are around me and that are also In me--we are dead to Sin, because of Jesus's sacrifice--reckon ourselves dead to sin, however our being, our flesh, those negative forces still operate in our cells, our minds, our thoughts...we Rise above them, overcome them--though Pain is the rod that teaches us, though some Pain is also from the dark forces around us that desire to crush us and to lead us astray--away from the Path, the Way, of Life.  It is a Warfare, that is not easy--but it is the lesson of learning what LIFE is, that LIFE is a force, that is Eternal.


Without you I could not see nor could I be free to be truthful, with myself, my doubts, my fears and my sadness and grief...the enemy has taken much from me...losses many which cannot be restored in This lifetime, they are not joyful to live with.  They are a death--you say I resurrect from those but I don't always Feel that--there are times death seems to be more a friend than foe--yet it was Through that, that I saw, that LIFE was more than THIS LIFE,


Most of all, Thank you for showing me healing, comfort in the arms of Mother Earth and in the listening to the Winds of the Spirit, the Four Directions, the Four....


for giving me strength and courage through the darkness when I questioned what I had been taught and known, that was Forbidden, told to me by men, and some women, those things that did NOT bring LIFE nor HEALING NOR PEACE--but only hate...


all the time I was looking for some Divine out of this world intervention--and it was there, all in front of me every day....when I saw I said, This is not Enough!  Why it's just a tree, it's just a flower, it does not talk, it does not listen, it does not help the pain go away....


but you kept showing me, when I cried the cats would come, when I wanted to die the butterflies would flutter around me, the birds would sing, the ants would work...


so many things, you Showed me, you Spoke, for so long I did not listen, I went to others, seeking answers, they too, blind like me, floundering like fish out of water.  So much pain in this world, especially in Women, so much violence, hate, INDIFFERENCE...


we look for Evil, to combat, to blame--the worst enemy is IN OURSELVES, ignorance, fear, greed, indifference.


I'll love when I am loved we say--but we ARE loved, every day, every day...the things we take for granted, ARE YOU...THEY AREN'T JUST 'INTANGIBLE, THEY ARE REAL, THEY ARE ALIVE,


the pagans knew it, the ancients knew it, the natives knew it.  In all these however there were those who wanted MORE, they wanted POWER, to be 'as gods', they took wisdom and turned it to sorcery, they took and used to control forces to their advantage to control others, to GET MORE AND TO GET MORE, they sacrificed even their young...they lost their Way, in every ethnic group, race, peoples they have lost their Way,


Paul said to the philosophers at Mars Hill that we have our being in God,

Acts 17: 22: “Then Paul stood in the midst of the Areopagus and said, “Men of Athens, I perceive that in all things you are very religious; 23 for as I was passing through and considering the objects of your worship, I even found an altar with this inscription: TO THE UNKNOWN GOD. Therefore, the One whom you worship without knowing, Him I proclaim to you: 24 God, who made the world and everything in it, since He is Lord of heaven and earth, does not dwell in temples made with hands. 25 Nor is He worshiped with men's hands, as though He needed anything, since He gives to all life, breath, and all things. 26 And He has made from one blood every nation of men to dwell on all the face of the earth, and has determined their pre-appointed times and the boundaries of their dwellings, 27 so that they should seek the Lord, in the hope that they might grope for Him and find Him, though He is not far from each one of us; 28 for in Him we live and move and have our being, as also some of your own poets have said, 'For we are also His offspring.' 29 “Therefore, since we are the offspring of God, we ought not to think that the Divine Nature is like gold or silver or stone, something shaped by art and man's devising. 30 Truly, these times of ignorance God overlooked, but now commands all men everywhere to repent, 31 because He has appointed a day on which He will judge the world in righteousness by the Man whom He has ordained. He has given assurance of this to all by raising Him from the dead.”

 And to close, I will close with this, going Back to thinking through the lens of the plants, animals, all living things...which BTW I should add, it isn't Enough to just reverence the LIFE in animals or plants--the imbalance of the self-centered beliefs that USE these for elitist agendas, is that they leave out, or reject the most important LIFE being there is, made in God's image--HUMANS, 

we can fight to protect animals, we can fight to protect the planet, but if WE IGNORE OUR HUMAN BROTHER AND SISTER WHO LIKE US, NEED WATER, FOOD, CLOTHES, SHELTER, LOVE AND CARE--WE MISS IT, 

it is NOT Holy to protect the earth/animals while Killing humans either by direct, indirect or by porgram [e.g. genocide to save resources for the ones who Think they are superior--they are NOT],

those will be judged by God--who do and promote such, we are to Love one another, HARMONY, LIVE IN HARMONY WITH EACH OTHER, WITH THE EARTH, WITH THE ANIMALS...

Revelations 11:18  
And the nations were angry, and thy wrath is come, and the time of the dead, that they should be judged, and that thou shouldest give reward unto thy servants the prophets, and to the saints, and them that fear thy name, small and great; and shouldest destroy them which destroy the earth. 

The Nations--Native Indian Americans, and other Native Indians [Canada, Russia, Asia], define themselves as NATIONS....as well as many other Ancient beliefs followers.


In Peace,


Jane

 

DEBUNKING CHRISTIANITY WITHOUT GOING OVER INTO THE 'BITCHING' LOT OF ATHEISM

DEBUNKING CHRISTIANITY WITHOUT GOING OVER INTO THE 'BITCHING' LOT OF ATHEISM

That's right, you heard me, I said Bitching lot of atheism, who are just as narrow minded and Bigoted as the religious Fundies, who are just as Totalitarian as the Fundies--thought control is Thought control people--someone trying to shove religion down my throat is a bully, someone telling me what I can and Can't believe or worship, is a BULLY,

can't stand Either of their totalitarian despot us verses them control God says we are right or WE are God tactics, arrrrrgh....one is like flies you just want to swat, the other like yellow jackets that always swarm your picnics, LOL..

So anyway--it's enough to make me want to strip naked, stand on my head, sing worship songs to God and to the Bullfrogs and tell both the dogma thought control groups, TO SHOVE IT UP THEIR CONTROL FREAK ASSES.

Ok now how's That for Christian love? LOL, I know I know NOT nice--yea well sometimes it IS what I just want to scream at the world--

Well it might not sound like love but it IS honest  [LOVE WITHOUT HYPOCRISY, LOVE IN TRUTH, LOVE DOESN'T ALWAYS MEAN NICE, NICE]--I really can't stand either of the mentalities, or their 'AGENDA'S', the fundies will scream their God given right to truth, the Atheist will scream their moral superiority because they are anti-God and how God commits genocide but now when SCIENCE DOES THE SAME--WHY THAT'S PROGRESS,

BULLSHIT, CAN WE JUST SAY, BULLSHIT.  [yep Bulls, Bully, Bullshit--dung, ok the Bible says DUNG, oh my gosh, you know, Manure, you Use it to grow food--you eat the particles of Manure did you know that, sure it's broken down, but hey--if it's Bullshit then by golly it's Bullshit--if it's Pig shit then by golly it's pig shit--sure I could use Dung, you know God says in Bible to those who oppress the Poor, create Poverty, Slavery, Exploitation and who do NOT care or stay indifferent to others pain they cause OR benefit from that HE will rub their proud faces in Dung--ok Dung, but WHO uses the term DUNG today????  And no I ain't gonna be fake lady patriarchal like and use the term 'poo poo', I am NOT IN FIRST GRADE ELEMENTARY THANK YOU VERY MUCH.  :)

ok then...yea well it's been one of those weeks where I am and have been not only debunking but finding my OWN path to what I believe...been hashing it out with God over a lot of things lately--and going over to read the Debunking sites--needless to say, many of their arguments stand on some things but many of them simply do not--they use strawman and ad hocs just as much as any other--ideology Pimp.

So, yesterday I'm thinking on a lot of things--and you know I do hear God's voice, I believe it's God's voice, you see I don't think God is just some way out there in universe being--but more as an energy that is around All of us--if one shuts up and listens--then they can hear--if they Want to that is, maybe that's it, but anyway...so I'm going back and forth--and a lot of the things the use to be Christians say you know are Right on the money--let's Don't deny it, ok, they ARE right on the money, the churches are nothing more than money grubbing institutions with pulpit pimps and music snake oil charmers who work to get money and followers--which BTW Paul spoke strongly against--but hey we don't SEE those scriptures, oh no--

and well a whole host of other things--and then I hear it...."I didn't KNOW you", what's that Jesus, "I didn't KNOW you",

what All these ex Christians are saying, most of all, is that they didn't KNOW JESUS, that JESUS wasn't REAL TO THEM--they knew scripture, prayer [that didn't get answered] so they Say, I'll get into that here in a bit--they didn't see love, they didn't this, that...so forth,

I didn't KNOW you.

And then, like a light, I got it--they Didn't know Jesus and He not them because THEY DIDN'T SEE US, THAT'S RIGHT--YOU HEARD ME, US, YOU AND ME,

WE ARE SUPPOSED TO BE, JESUS IN THE FLESH--UNTIL CHRIST IS FORMED IN YOU PAUL SAID,

you see That is the Spirit--the WAY---

TRUTH

LIFE.

The problem with Religion and the LIE is that it made Jesus into this Being--and said, Believe in this Being and pray and do all this to Him and for HIM--

but that isn't what it's supposed to BE about-  it is supposed to be about JESUS IN US, AS SPIRIT, TRANSFORMING US,

WHAT PART, OF 'LOVE ONE ANOTHER' DO WE NOT GET?????????

the problem with Religion and why So many have been deluded is that they are sitting around Waiting for this Being of  a Person to just show up--magically, into their lives, and do all these wonderful miracles and signs and wonders--but what did Jesus say, he said, to the adulterous and sinful/wicked generation--REPENT, that will be the SIGN given.

When those Atheists and ex-believers say, WE didn't see Jesus, that is Jesus saying to us, I DIDN'T KNOW YOU.

And HIM back to them as well,

do you Get what I am saying here?

They say, oh God committed genocide, no, God didn't commit genocide, PEOPLE COMMITTED GENOCIDE...they say God killed the earth by Flood--well read PRIOR to that rather than cherry pick--what does it say, THE EARTH, PEOPLE WERE SO VIOLENT, THAT EVEN THE EARTH HERSELF WAS 'CORRUPTED', EVERY IMAGINATION WAS EVIL ALL THE TIME--

meaning, there Wasn't no babies, their wasn't probably many women left, all was there was Violence, men killing men, take the Congo and multiply it 100 times---Noah was spared, maybe Noah was living in the forest/or wild isolated somewhere to Get away from the violence, walked with God, you know obviously with Nature--and God said, get the animals and build a boat cuzz that's it--

it wasn't a Genocide, it was an intervention--to save Humanity--because IF that violence would have gone on--nothing would have survived, NOTHING.  The earth was corrupt-

what Part of that do people not get?  People may say, oh no way--REALLY OK TAKE A LOOK OUTSIDE YOUR FUCKING WORLD AND WHAT DO YOU SEE?  THE EARTH POLLUTED, WATER BECOMING A RARE RESOURCE--OIL GUSHING IN THE OCEANS, I MEAN WE DON'T NEED 'GOD' TO DESTROY--WE ARE FULLY CAPABLE OF DOING THAT WELL ON OUR VERY OWN HUMANITY--

WANT TO BLAME THAT ON 'GOD' TOO?

So talking back and forth, with God over all this--I realize, that it's NOT GOD that has the problem, it's humans, as for the genocides and the misogyny--in Old Testament--well look at the Other societies-gods/goddesses in that Same era--uh, what part of no women's rights do we not get?  Child sacrifice in all societies then?  I mean--like DUH, we Could look at it that way--it IS not an impossibility!

like God could come in there, tell the Hebrews who already being in Egypt where women were slaves/sex slaves, polygamy and all that--and say, oh no not YOU, you will be like modern man--I mean, could you just imagine, they wouldn't know What to think--that is what Jesus meant--the hardness of your hearts, God did what HE could in the time HE was working in through Humans through HIS Spirit--

it's called Free Will.  It's called allowing humanity to EVOLVE WITHOUT FORCE, [HE did give 'choice', in the beginning, do this and Live, do this and die--consequences, you know EVEN if you don't believe in GOD, guess what Sherlock, you Do those things, they come back to BITE YOU IN THE ASS--so whether you believe in God or not--THAT part of scripture, is TRUTH--and this whole learning good and evil Sucks--you know--

it isn't pretty because sadly--many suffer, horribly, some way more than Others...but see that Tree, that CHOICE, KNOWLEDGE OF GOOD AND EVIL--KNOWLEDGE MEANS TO 'GET TO KNOW' AND THE ONLY WAY TO 'KNOW' IS TO EXPERIENCE IT YOURSELF, [and sadly, some more than others--this is Why I do believe, there IS a judgment Somewhere--Life is taken by violence by too many who do NOT pay for their crimes in this life--this is not food source--because we don't EAT humans, but we ARE a food source--for Something or Someone--have to be, all of nature is this way--so if negative energy-hate, murder, then we are a food source for that dark energy--love, life, then that energy--it is Proven that the body releases Energy in the soil, they've seen it through heat sensors, when body dies like in War time--so there IS a release of energy--somewhere...

Anyway, that was the CHOICE humanity made--and Still makes

WE are living and Seeing that choice Eve and Adam made--it's like Adam and Eve are seeing through US, THROUGH OUR EYES--ALL THE WAY TO THE END--KNOWLEDGE OF GOOD AND EVIL,

it's like an hourglass---the Bible is all about dialectics and government--Beginning and End--Judges to Kings to King to Communism [Acts] to Anarchy [Revelations/lawlessness], and so forth--now anarchy was prior to Judges too--take an hourglass, reverse it,

from B.C. to A.D.,

we are moving Backwards, from Kings [monarchy] to Judges to Tribes to Anarchy--back to the  Garden,

back to the Lord God and to the Serpent--

[Serpent--a.k.a. Mayan, it's connected]

WE judge--all that we have Learned through ages of TIME, generations--of that Tree, those rings inside the tree--good and evil, leading to Death,

religion is the 'good' of that TREE, it's also the EVIL of that Tree,

because religions and ideologies and philosophies and humanity's attempt to resolve does NOT lead to LIFE, JUST DEATH,

so there is a type of deconstruct going on Anyway--the 'shaking' of foundations, ALL OF THEM, as Jesus did say.

As for prayer not being answered, one woman said none of her prayers were answered, I asked God about this too--because it's often TRUE,

but she said, SHE busted her ass to get where she is--

well, her prayers WERE ANSWERED--HE IN HER GAVE HER THE STRENGTH AND SELF CONFIDENCE TO YES, BUST HER ASS AND GET AHEAD--

see WE can't control others or what's around us, but HE inside us, helps us to overcome, US, TO OVERCOME--see so prayers ARE answered,

just not in the way we think.

Some say--HE don't heal,

Really?  What the hell do you think MEDICINE IS/  Or some die, Jesus didn't resurrect all when He rose up Lazarus either--there Will be a resurrection day--just not now.

the thing about Women--Paul said, she'll be saved through childbearing...

what IF that means, she will be restored with Generations, through childbearing as Christ is formed in those who will teach and the enlightenment of humanity begins....?  what if?

Sure religion has fought this, so has secular misogyny--but Jesus said, Hell will not prevail against the church, a.k.a. the Body--not a religion, not an institution, but Those who worship must do so in Spirit and in Truth.

IF you did it to the least of these you DID IT UNTO ME,

YOU WANT TO KNOW JESUS, IF HE IS REAL--THEN GO TO THE HOMELESS, THERE HE IS, GO TO THE POOR, THERE HE IS, GO TO THE SUFFERING, THERE HE IS, GO TO THE BROKEN, THERE HE IS

IF YOU ARE NOT WILLING TO GO TO THEM AND CLOTHE, FEED, VISIT, RELIEVE, HELP, 

THEN YOU WON'T SEE JESUS.  PERIOD,

NO MATTER IF YOU TITHE, PRAY, SING, JUMP UP AND DOWN, YOU WON'T SEE HIM, YOU WON'T KNOW HIM, AND HE WON'T KNOW YOU...

I am glad I am deconstructing, the more I do, the more REAL HE becomes and the MORE I see and understand--

we missed it, BIG TIME,

when YOU breathe, you are BREATHING GOD--

the book of Job says, if HE were to judge the world and remove HIS Spirit, all flesh would immediately die, the breathe would be removed,

uh, DUH, Paul says we have our Being IN HIM, THROUGH HIM, ETC.,

you can't see AIR but it's there, you can't see Wind but it's there, you can't see Atoms but they are there, they make WHO YOU ARE--

THE ELEMENTS--FROM EARTH AND SPACE

ALL OF IT,

this is where the Native American Indians had it right--all plants, Breathe, they compete for Light--to Live, they are LIVING--WE DON'T SEE BECAUSE THEY ARE IN DIFFERENT 'TIME' FRAME BUT THEY ARE ALIVE,

ALIVE

YOU CAN TOUCH THEM--THEY ARE ALIVE

ANIMALS ARE ALIVE

WE ARE ALIVE

IT IS 'GOD'

IF YOU DON'T BELIEVE IN 'GOD'

RELIGIONS SAY, OH NO THIS IS PAN, GOD IN ALL, WELL, UH, FUNNY, HOW IT'S EVEN IN THE BIBLE--

BOOK OF ELIJAH WHEN HE HITS THE WATER--

IT'S RIGHT THERE, WHEN MOSES HITS THE ROCK--THE PILLAR OF SMOKE, PILLAR OF FIRE [VOLCANOES], THE WATER--

IT'S AL THERE,

right in Front of us, every single day.

God is in Music, Poetry, Literature, the WORD,

JESUS, THE WORD MADE 'FLESH', SON OF MAN....


it's there to see, 


Mother Teresa was right--she said, she sees God in every human,


when I don't love you, I don't love God, nor do I KNOW God.  


this is hard because we humans can be nasty-we aren't always loving--especially if we do NOT know LOVE,


when WE know love, when WE really get what LOVE IS,


we will SEE GOD, EVERYWHERE,


and then, we see just how much religion and man's knowledge is truly, just


limited--

and even those knowledge, COMES FROM--

GOD.

it takes AIR for our brains to work--as well as WATER.

It is more Science--God and Science are not separate--now if we abuse science we are taking or usurping God--

there are millions of Atoms, that make up matter--if you put matter to fire, it melts, it changes--

resurrection,  

EVERY MORNING THEY RISE UP OUT OF THESE 'DUG GRAVES', EVERY MORNING--THEY RESURRECT!  Could this be a Sign, a Message to us, among NUMEROUS THOUSANDS OF OTHERS IN NATURE?????  [the Native Indians thought so, more on this subject to come--what the ancients believed, carved in Stone]

when we die, the worms eat our bodies--go back to dust, Jesus says, the worm dieth not--

[hell really means grave--but I believe that hell implied means those who do not love, who do not ever get life force, who will truly perish--be gone, forever--they are resurrected on judgment day, it does NOT say they have the Spirit--just that they are resurrected, then into the lake of fire--they are Already DEAD, God is the God of Living, not the DEAD--that may not seem like a big deal but think about it--to not ever live again when you know you Could?  Either it's that or you become the death-force itself, darkness, that could be it too, I don't know, I tend to think it's like that though--you either become Positive Energy or Negative Energy.


Anyway--this may sound New Age and a lot of it probably is close--BUT the one difference is, is that the Cross, is the Way to Life,


the Cross, is the giving of the all Holy, for the non-Holy, the giving of the Ultimate Love and Life.


The TREE of LIFE,


not by works lest any should boast--


but by faith--faith, which brings works [faith without works is Dead] and that is through Spirit--not flesh--things HOPED for but NOT SEEN, if we HOPE for LOVE we will GET LOVE,


but not as some OUTSIDE entity, but WITHIN OURSELVES,


JESUS, UNTIL 'CHRIST' BE FORMED 'IN' YOU,


IN, IN, IN, IN


if they do not Know us,


then neither does Jesus know us either.

WANT TO SEE 'GOD' HERE YA GO






In solidarity, critically thinking,


Jane

 

DECONSTRUCTING THE LIES OF CHRISTIANITY--CHURCHIANITY AND MENSIANITY AND FINDING THE TRUE WAY, LIFE AND TRUTH

PAINTING, "SORROW" BY VINCENT VAN GOGH--

I will no longer use my energy to Defend Christianity nor even the Christian 'version' of Jesus Christ...I do still believe in Jesus, I also believe in God, though I believe God is not some one being 'male' entity that is what MEN have created God to be.  I believe there is a good chance God might be more FEmale than male.  And the Lord God male...El meaning generic term for God, in ancient Hebrew they Did believe in a pantheon of gods/God, El, anyway--I see God as much bigger than what has been described and I do believe that God is or maybe strong possibility of being some kind of Energy force--that yes is around us and in us--we know by the Word of God [what they term Bible] that He says, in Job that if He were to judge the earth the spirit/breathe would be removed from All flesh--and all would die.  Something to that accord,

so, with the Science that we have today, we know about atoms, worm holes, black holes, pulsar stars, etc., we Know that there is yes some evolution, we just know so to take God in the traditional literal Male benefit meaning is ludicrous if not just completely STUPID.

So---that aside,

if this applies to God then it also has to apply to Jesus.  So, what is truth?  If the Son sets you free you will be Free indeed--well, we can look and see, there are few Free Christians, particularly Women.  They are next to Muslim women some of the most oppressed and in bondage that we know of in the world--next to their secular sisters. 





So--something is off there, the Fruits don't add up, all I'm saying, and I no longer will claim they do or that its' for This reason or That reason--it hasn't worked for me, where's this huge transformation????  It simply hasn't happened, the more I tried to Obey the Bible--the worse I became--oppressed, miserable, guilt ridden, IN HORRIBLE FEAR and hating God more and more--

I got to the point where it was like, OK do I continue to prop up this idol of some image of God/Jesus in my mind, imagination and keep telling myself that This is faith?

It isn't, it's a flat out LIE....even if there IS truth, some in that ole head of mine--how do I know what is Truth and what is the Defense mechanism to protect what I have been told/read and so want to Believe even though Everything and I do mean Everything in life is the exact opposite--including from Christians, what then?  Do I just go on and shelve away the doubts, questions, reservations and IF I do why is that?  It was always

FEAR OF HELL,

you know Fuck that noise, I'm sick of it.

It's bondage, it's a damn lie, and I won't do it anymore--

so, I am deconstructing EVERYTHING including the ideologies of Secular thinking/mores and all that that is Heaped upon WOMEN

and learning to do the UNTHINKABLE,

LISTEN TO MY OWN VOICE, AND LOVING AND CARING FOR MYSELF.

oh my Gosh you know, like the HORRIBLE SIN OF ALL SINS--DUMPING THE 'EXTERNAL LOCUS OF CONTROLS' THAT LEAVE ME WIDE OPEN TO THE DEMONIC ANYWAY--AND GOING FOR AN INTERNAL LOCUS--

wow, and especially being that I am WOMAN, how DARE I, right?

YEA, YOU KNOW years of testing this spirit and that spirit and this verse and that verse I mean GOOD GRIEF, COME ON,

EITHER HE IS REAL OR HE ISN'T, EITHER THE SPIRIT IS THERE OR ISN'T...

and Where's the Love in all this?

THERE ISN'T ANY--AND THAT WAS THE BOMB OF TRUTH THAT WOKE ME UP OUT OF THE BRAINWASHED STUPOR AND SNAKE OIL CHARMING EFFECTS OF EMOTIONALISM--

and got me to really be Critical in my thinking--

THANK GOD, FINALLY.

For the first time, I am feeling FREE, seriously for the first time, because IF God is really about Love and Grace,



then God shouldn't be threatened by MY questions, God shouldn't be threatened with all the Power He/She supposedly has, by my refusal to be a mind dead drone.

So I am GOING TO USE 'REASON', AND I AM GOING TO THINK FOR MYSELF

so....in a reply to one on this subject, here is my coming to terms with the fact that No Virginia, the Bible isn't without human error.

“…He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners

and recovery of sight for the blind,

to release the oppressed,…”

Exactly,

now using reason and common sense rather than emotional ‘snake oil’ feel good,

let’s take a real good look AT that, what Jesus said,

do WE see this in the church since 300 A.D.?

Hell no,

TRUTH–WHAT WE DO AND HAVE SEEN, LET’S COMPARE SHALL WE, FROM THE BASIS IN WORD OF GOD TO ACTIONS OF MEN/WOMEN IN SO CALLED ‘CHRISTIANITY’

good news to the poor–Jesus said,

FRUIT, THE CHURCH SET UP FEUDALISM AND IMPRISONED AND CREATED THE POOR, FROM THERE CAPITALISM–FEEDS OFF THE POOR AND CREATES POVERTY–ESP THOSE OF NON-WHITE RACE

used and twisted scriptures [and wrote themselves Claiming they were inspired by God--already proof that they also twisted the old Jewish books, why Jews reject the canon] to instill FEAR,

fear that one, demanded obedience to authorities and therefore kept slavery/SEX SLAVERY ESP intact–and other verses cleverly used to prop up the monarchy-papacy and penance payments–Gold mining/on slaves, on blood, on Genocide–conquest, rapes [mass] ethnic cleansing and colonization–slavery, all of the ROMAN EMPIRE AND PRIOR TO EGYPTIAN AND BABYLONIAN EMPIRES

so, good news to the Poor–not in Christianity–hardly, though taking ownership through mind controls and clever use of snake oil to keep masses duped and under control, they were more than excelled in this art.

Islam Learned from Catholicism/Christianity, the pirate had little to add, just a few things here and there and Islam was created–the extension child birthed from the so called Good news to the Poor…

so GOOD NEWS TO THE POOR–CHURCH HAS ‘FAILED’ AS SO HAS THE PAULINE GOSPELS [though there was much regarding the Poor but obviously those scriptures were put aside for the more important Male inspired ones, such as women submit--or do not defraud sexually, yea Those scriptures...

lets go to the second one,

He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners

Freedom for prisoners compared to: church--even early America, SLAVERY, NOT ONLY THE RE-INSTITUTION OF SLAVERY BUT PRIOR TO, CATHOLIC/ORTHODOX CHURCHES WENT TO OTHER LANDS AND FORCED SLAVERY...fact.

Along with the Arabs [Islam], whom Washington, good ole Mason boy, had no issue trading slaves with the Muslim Arabs–the Orthodox no better–they slaughtered entire pagan nations in Russia when they too over there–same ole same ole–and they set up the gold loving Tsars

so, uh, setting prisoners free–or instead, setting up Missions, enslaving natives, raping their women, setting up reservations, ghettos, etc etc etc…uh,

FAIL…on that one too.

ok Next:

and recovery of sight for the blind,

oh Big FAIL, first of all, church fathers didn’t even Allow any to read their ‘special understanding from God or Of God’ and by the time they did–who knows HOW much was taken out, or kept in–canon, non canon and all the other male power trip b.s.,

then when they Did finally get scriptures only MEN could read–women, oh no–not you, and only White men and it goes on from there…and now we have How many Bibles and denominations all with Men’s twist, yea,

we have more Blindness today with blind leading blind and no one can Agree on squat–literally, SAD, so much for not being blind,

FAIL.

ok NEXT:

to release the oppressed,

uh yes, let’s see, the church fathers and their Torture dungeons, the Kings and Queens who loved to rely on Hell teachings and who used Hell as the justification for the most gross inquisitions and torture/rape used on Innocents, to create a mass labyrinth of Terror–to set themselves up as ‘gods’ oh yea…so much for releasing the Oppressed,

and the Christian nations today, Still do this crap–the School of America’s in South America where Christian nations with Nazi’s torture even children, with Bibles in the rooms–FACT, yep, a lot of releasing the oppressed there…

not. FAIL

Next: to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor.

which Lord and which Year? Which denominations? Which MEN?

so you see, IF we see the FRUITS the church and the Bible FAIL miserably,

the ones it seems who actually DID do all those things Jesus said, were the heretics, the witches/women, the pagans, the Indians, the poor, the eccentric, the free thinkers and the revolutionaries.

So,

kind of makes one wonder don’t ya think?

There is good in the Bible, but like Jesus himself said, you search the scriptures Thinking in them you’ll have salvation but you won’t come to me,

yep–a warning, I would think…there are keys in the scriptures but you have to do so much weeding through the warped text that by the time you Get it, you’re too old to actually

DO ANYTHING THAT JESUS COMMANDED,

better to go with your heart, follow love, look for the fruit of love acts in others, and stick with them,

the doctrines FAIL. 

Jane

CONCUBINE/WHORE WAKES UP, IS DEBUNKING 'CHRIST' IANITY OR IS IT MEN'S IANITY OR 'CHURCH' IANITY????

PAINTING, "SORROW" BY VINCENT VAN GOGH--

What I look like, Sorrow, on all days, what I have numerous times tried to 'fix' with faith, with religion, with politics/ideology, with feminism, with Jesus, with imagination of Jesus, with scripture, with false hope--in Spite of Truth, that I am Poor, was born in poverty, abuse, horrid abuse, internalized hate and shame, sin because I looked for love and sinned in doing so, More abuse, more shame, more guilt, more trying to be good, more trying to NOT sin, more trying to Believe, more punishment, more abuse, circumstances Beyond my control, ALL NEGATIVE AND SUFFERING AND DEATH AND SOUL ASSASSIN and then NO LOVE in the Church, NO real Love anywhere, just a lot of

TALK TALK TALK TALK TALK TALK TALK TALK TALK TALK TALK TALK TALK TALK TALK

about Love, what Love is, what Love is, what Love is, who Jesus is, who Jesus isn't, then

I go to the Bible--VIRGIN WHORE VIRGIN WHORE VIRGIN WHORE MOTHER VIRGIN WHORE MOTHER

the only FUCKING REFERENCE TO WOMEN--IS VIRGIN, WHORE, MOTHER [FOR GOD NO LESS AND ONLY IF SHE HAS SONS] TO THE NAMELESS CONCUBINE GANG RAPED, THE NAMELESS CONCUBINES WHO WERE SEX SLAVES FOR GOD'S MEN, THE NAMELESS GIRLS/ TAKEN AS SEX SLAVES, THE NAMELESS WOMEN SLAUGHTERED IN GENOCIDE--OLD TESTAMENT

THE EVILLLLL WOMEN WHO WORSHIPED QUEEN OF HEAVENS AND THEN WERE RAPED/GANG RAPED AND LEFT TO ROT AND DIE...

MEN ER

WOMEN WHO MARRY AND LEAVE FIRST LOVE [BECAUSE IF A WOMAN HAS SEX SHE IS ABANDONING GOD] IS 'DAMNED' OR 'RECEIVES DAMNATION'

MEN ER THOUGH -- TIMOTHY [BOOK OF]

MEN GO TO HEAVEN, BROTHERS, BRETHREN, NO LOVE BETTER THAN THIS, A MAN, QUOTE A 'MAN' LAYS DOWN HIS LIFE FOR HIS 'BRETHREN', NOT HUMANITY, NOT WOMEN, BUT BRETHREN...

SONS OF GOD, SONS OF GOD, BRETHREN, SONS OF GOD, ANGELS ALL MEN, FEMALE IMAGE OF GOD HAS NO NAME, NO OTHER MENTION OTHER THAN

MADE IN IMAGE OF GOD, MALE AND FEMALE

MADE 'HE' THEM

I mean, WHAT THE FUCK, REALLY,

more Sorrow, more abuse, because EVE, aka EVIL did the SIN, why she was lied to and took of that damn tree, that damn tree that the LORD GOD MADE, LIED TO BY THE SERPENT THAT THE LORD GOD MADE

but EVE, EVIL--IS DAMNED, DAMNED DAMNED--

WOMEN BE SILENT, WOMEN THIS, WOMEN WILL BE SAVED 'IF' SHE CONTINUES IN CHILDBEARING AND 'IF' SHE DOES THIS AND 'IF' SHE DOES THAT

MEN 'ER'

Like WHAT THE FUCK.....SERIOUSLY

So I looked, and Looked, at Ancients for answers and I looked and I looked and read book of Enoch [which Really condemns women] and then at the Catholic Bible--DON'T READ BEN SIRA--WOMEN, WHY WE ARE ALL 'TENT PEG' HUMPING WHORES AND 'EVIL' FOR GETTING ANGRY AT HUSBANDS WHO TAKE IN 100 MORE WIVES...

that's supposed to be the  Book of Wisdom, added to Eccl...

all Inspired by God though, you know, inspired by God through MAN, BECAUSE WOMAN IS EVVVVVIL

then the Gospel of Thomas, read that one today, oh gee That's nice, Jesus says, according to Him, that women will be lead by him and be turned into the MEN or LIKE MALE WITH THE 'LIVING SPIRIT' OF MALES AND UNTIL THEY BECOME 'MEN' THEY WON'T GET INTO KINGDOM OF HEAVEN

OK GREAT, SO I GROW A DICK, I BECOME AN ABUSIVE ASS, I WANT TO FUCK EVERYTHING THAT WALKS THOUGH I PRAY TO GOD TO FORGIVE ME FOR MY TEMPTATION BECAUSE THOSE EVIL 'EVE' BITCHES JUST CAN'T STOP TEMPTING ME, THOSE WITCHES

AND THEN OF COURSE I IF HEART IS HARD CAN BE ALLOWED TO FUCK/HAVE SEX SLAVES, CONCUBINES, MORE THAN ONE WIFE, I CAN THROW MY DAUGHTER OUT TO BE GANG RAPED TO SAVE MY 'BROTHER'S ASS' BECAUSE I SO LOVE DE BRETHREN AND BESIDES, SHE'S AN EVIL EVE BITCH ANYWAY

AND BY GOLLY I'LL BE OK IN GOD'S EYES BECAUSE I AM

MAN....used to be Female but now I'm TOTALLY MAN BABY...ALL DICK AND SACRIFICE AND THE WHOLE BIT

then of course Anything goes wrong with my kids, they misbehave IT'S MY FAULT, BAD MOTHER, EVIL WOMAN, I DON'T DO THE PATRIARCHY RIGHT, I DON'T MOTHER RIGHT, I GO TO WORK AND I AM BAD MOTHER BECAUSE I AM NOT FOLLOWING GOD'S ROLES, I DON'T GO TO WORK I AM A LAZY PARASITICAL BITCH, I REBEL BECAUSE I'M TIRED OF DOING ALL THE HOUSEWORK AND I'M A NEGLECTFUL LAZY BITCH

AND ALWAYS, A WHORE

and I go to God and it's be patient and know that THE MEN...BRETHREN, ARE LOVED BY GOD--AND IN REVELATIONS, IT'S THE SONS OF GOD AND THOSE HOLY MEN WHO DO NOT DEFILE THEMSELVES BY TOUCHING

OH MY GOSH, AN EVIL 'EVE' WOMAN

AND THE WOMAN IS CHURCH [ALL MEN] AND THE WHORE IS THE OTHER WOMAN

I mean, Good grief,

so I DOUBT AND I CHALLENGE AND I ASK GOD THEN MORE PUNISHMENT COMES MY WAY--OH YEA BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT SUPPOSED TO DOUBT [HELL] AND YOU'RE NOT SUPPOSED TO FALL AWAY [HELL] AND YOU'RE TO OBEY AUTHORITIES AND IF THAT MASTER TELLS YOU TO FUCK HIM WHY BY GOLLY BE HOLY, CHASTE AND PURE BUT OBEY WOMAN-- IF YOU DON'T [HELL] AND IF YOU WALK AWAY [HELL] AND IF YOU DON'T [HELL ANYWAY CUZZ YOU'RE EVE--EVIL] AND NOT GOOD ENOUGH [HELL] AND NOT STRONG ENOUGH [HELL]

AND YOUR PRAYERS ARE NEVER ANSWERED [DIDN'T BELIEVE ENOUGH, DIDN'T PRAY ENOUGH, DIDN'T OBEY ENOUGH, DIDN'T DIDN'T DIDN'T BUT REMEMBER, IT'S ABOUT 'GRACE' AND IT'S ABOUT GOD LOVES YOU]

BUT THE CHURCH--MEN ABUSE THEIR WIVES, DAUGHTERS THEY RAPE, SISTERS THEY HATE

BUT GOD LOVES ME...OH YEA, DO NOT COVET THY NEIGHBOR'S PROPERTY--THY BROTHER'S, PROPERTY, WIFE, CONCUBINES/SEX SLAVES/MAIDENS [SLAVES AND SEX SLAVES] AND COWS AND OXS AND CARS AND HOUSES...

but WE CAN HAVE A PERSONAL RELATIONSHIP WITH JESUS, THE MAN, BECAUSE ALL THOSE WOMEN YOU SEE

ONE AT THE WELL--NO NAME
THE BLEEDING PROFUSELY--NO NAME

MARTHA AND MARY, THEY HAVE NAMES--WE NEVER HEAR FROM MARY AGAIN AFTER SHE IS TOLD IN ONE BOOK [ONLY ONE] TO GO TELL THE 'BROTHERS' HE IS RISEN

THE NEW TESTAMENT HAS HOPE, FOR WOMEN--SOME, UNTIL REVELATIONS,

WHAT GIVES THERE?

I tried to live my life being a sweet submissive [and of course that made it easy for men to Prey on me added to all the Abuse in my childhood--you know Whore, Devil's Child, Liar, Thief and sure enough--I became all that was pounced into me from infant age] woman, even SAVED MYSELF [excluding being molested/raped] as a Virgin and my first husband, beat the SHIT OUT OF ME FOR THAT GIFT,

OH YEA BABY--THEY LOVE THE BLOOD, THAT WHOLE BLOOD MARTYR PAIN THING--FOR 'EVE' THE EVIL

I mean--yea...men beat their wives, WOMAN'S FAULT, men rape women, WOMAN'S FAULT, and men kill women, WOMAN'S FAULT

and then GOD loves the SONS OF GOD---THE SONS, BRETHREN, BROTHERS...

AMEN BROTHER

I've had it, I've had it Up to Here, I've Had it with imagining a Kind loving Jesus/God to Women when the whole BIBLE IS NOTHING MORE THAN A MISOGYNIST CODE BOOK,

I am tired of believing when ALL I GET IS EVIL MY WAY

I am tired of Seeing Good kind Christian women who Unlike me were NOT whores, and they Did serve and they Did obey and they Did submit

and they are treated like SHIT AMONG THEIR BRETHREN AND THEY LOOK FOR LOOP HOLES AND THEY TRY TO BELIEVE

AND THERE IS NO FRUIT--NONE, NADA, NEVER HAS BEEN AND NEVER WILL BE--BECAUSE I'M BEGINNING TO WONDER

IF IT'S JUST ALL MALE BULLSHIT TO BEGIN WITH.

Males who made up God to Justify their Rape, Pillaging, War, Conquest and Raping/children/enslaving Women.

Men like Gilgamesh and Kings and Strong Brutes who made up a God so that they can force that little ten year old girl to suck their dicks...

Romans who with their pantheon Gods and Goddesses [all who btw, in All goddess religions, demand the Prostitution and Sex services of Girls and Women] and the Greeks

who Interestingly--had Monogamy [prior to Jesus] and who Hated women and who were all into that whole

BROTHER LOVE THING...OH YEA--ESPECIALLY YOUNG BOYS

where it All begins--Catholic Priests and the Canon, Nicene Creed written WHEN?????

300 YEARS AFTER THE DEATH OF JESUS CHRIST?????

like WHAT THE FUCK---I AM, AN OPPRESSED WOMAN NOT BECAUSE OF MY FAITH BUT BECAUSE OH MY GOSH,

I GOT THAT EVE EVIL 'LABIA AND VAGINA' THING HERE, I MIGHT JUMP ON A TENT PEG...THOUGH IF MEN DO, WHY IT'S THEIR GOD GIVEN GIFT TO SPREAD SEED AND TO HAVE A QUIVERFULL AND TO BUILD A 'NATION' BY GOLLY

trying to BELIEVE ALL THIS AND HANGING ON--

TO WHAT?????? 

The ONLY thing I can believe, is the Cross--That is the ONLY GOOD THING THAT IS WORTHY TO BE KEPT IN THE ENTIRE GOSPEL,

IS THE CROSS, THE REST--CAN GO TO THE TRASH FOR ALL I AM CONCERNED

BUT, IF I TRULY AM HONEST--AND LOOK AT THE BIBLE--THE CROSS DOESN'T EVEN APPLY TO ME--ONLY TO

THE BRETHREN, BROTHERS, MEN

so, why am I even bothering?

Hell if I know, I am not going to Denounce Jesus--or the Gospel, but I AM going to begin to Debunk and look at the Other critics of Christianity because there is just Too much, WaY too much, that just doesn't line up,

and besides, my prayers are NOT answered, except in MY HEAD---and well I could have IMAGINED ALL OTHER BELIEFS TOO--

though I have seen paranormal 'evil' things but you know, I am beginning to wonder, If we are pumped with SO MUCH NEGATIVE ENERGY--CAN WE THEN PRODUCE EVIL PARANORMAL IMAGES/THINGS?

and What if, God really IS JUST

LOVE

NOT A BEING, JUST LOVE

AND WHAT IF, IT'S REALLY JUST ABOUT ENERGY?

POSITIVE AND NEGATIVE--WHAT IF?
I find it Amazing
that the ONES who actually

LIVED A PEACEFUL, SOMEWHAT, HARMONIOUS LIFE, WHO WERE NOT 'VIOLENT' WHO WERE NOT ABUSIVE OR IMPERIALIST WHO RAIDED OTHER LANDS WITH RAPING, GOLD MINING, KILLING AND GENOCIDE

WERE THE NATIVE AMERICAN INDIANS...I FIND IT AMAZING THAT THERE ARE STILL PEACEFUL TRIBES TODAY THAT DO NOT ABUSE THEIR WOMEN NOR DO THEY ONLY HAVE A 'MALE' GOD--BUT A MATRI SYSTEM--BOTH MALE AND FEMALE

I FIND IT AMAZING THAT THE NATIVE INDIANS DID NOT GO FOR THE WHOLE IDOLS THING--

AS FAR AS DESTROYING THE PLANET GOES [though some yea had totem poles and all that]

I find it amazing--really, that of all the people, with all the persecution and garbage, THEY STILL HAVE

LOVE

I'm going to Find the answers--if it's the Last thing I do, Until then, I am debunking...

and This, makes Sense.  A LOT OF SENSE--WHICH, IS THE SADDEST, SORROW OF THEM ALL...





THINKING CRITICALLY NOW,

JANE