This series goes with the post below, about why I left/am leaving patri-center beliefs.
WHEN YOU CAN NO LONGER DENY THE COGNITIVE DISSONANCE, OH THE QUESTIONS THE TANGLED 'WEB' WEAVES...PURGING OUT THE LYING RELIGIOUS POISONS, BEGINS
TRUTH, IT'S NOT WHAT THE BIBLE DOES SAY, THAT OPENS YOUR EYES TO THE LIES OF RELIGION, IT'S WHAT THE BIBLE 'DOESN'T SAY' THAT SHEDS THE TRUE LIGHT, ON THE MANIPULATION OF THE ENTIRE THING, TO KEEP YOU ENSLAVED, TO FEAR, TERROR, TO SUBMIT [WOMEN] TO A LIFETIME OF SEXUAL BONDAGE AND SEXUAL TERRORISM, TO CHALLENGE IT, THEY THEN RESORT TO VIOLENCE AND SEXUAL VIOLENCE TO SILENCE YOU,
TO KEEP THE REIGN OF TERROR GOING--OVER US ALL.
Question is, Who, Who is Who, What is What, and What to do about it? IF sadists demand your worship, through terror and sexual terror especially, if you do NOT give it [though you may still obey] then what DO they have then? IF one needs TERROR AND THE THREAT OF, TO GET YOU TO LOVE THEM,
WHAT DO THEY HAVE?
Nothing....only an empty nothing, or a monster consumed with love of self/power obsessed, needs to rely on the threat of FEAR, SEXUAL TERROR AND CONTROL, LIES, TO KEEP YOU UNDER,
because WITHOUT THAT--THEY ARE NOT 'GODS', THEY ARE NOT ANYTHING, BUT TERRORISTS, NOTHING MORE, RAPING, BUTCHERING, TERRORISTS....it's what they Don't say, is the key...
As I have walked through this spiritual dark forest, going back and forth between paths, sifting through thousands of scriptures in light of numerous revelations, I have found that at times I believe in the 'doctrines' that I have been taught or that I have read in the Bible, through a lens that I accepted with the submissive confessing how evil I am heart, that FEAR that always knowing that IF I didn't accept off to the BBQ I go always in the back of my mind...that abusive husband patri being that speaks love though erasing me/female at the same time...all the way to the LORD GOD and HIS terrible DAY to the LORD SAVIOR who rebukes the woman who says blessed are the breasts who gave you life to the PAULINE WOMEN ARE GATES OF HELL LETTERS, therefore silent she must be and though all are saved through grace, an Exception was made for women, IF, IF, IF SHE CONTINUE IN CHILDBEARING--THAT CHATTEL SLAVE CLONE and well, need I go on,
time and time and time again I found I had to look, plunge, dig, dig, find Any crumb on the dirt floor of any salvation or love of Female in that Bible, only to find, when my eyes refused to no longer deny brutal truth in front of me, that to be Female, was to be Satan and to Question was to be Satan and to not ignore the fact that Paul said women be chaste and pure yet Knowing that for thousands of women in that day, they were SEX SLAVES of those same masters that Paul says, to obey as to the LORD and that meant, if that master passed her around, that concubine [never with any name or humanity ANYWHERE in Bible] then the solution, to the chaste, pure, was to simply, not make any mention of it,
don't mention that this woman, this concubine, this sex slave, was being torn to bits piece by piece in her soul, having to reconcile this warped love of this loving savior LORD WHO CREATES BOTH GOOD AND EVIL [ISAIAH] and then is chaste and pure while the PRIVILEGED AT THE TOP OF THE PYRAMID benefit [women their safety if their man takes out his savagery onto a less than human woman rather than onto HER] AND WELL, IF WE DON'T MENTION IT--IT'S LIKE MAGIC, THE COGNITIVE DISSONANCE, THE HELL, THE 'EVIL', MONSTER, DOESN'T EXIST...
then the PLATITUDES, always the platitudes....then the REALITY TRUTH FACT OF WHAT I KNEW IN THE HISTORY OF MY CHILDHOOD, MY ANCESTORS [STAUNCH CATHOLICS, MASONS, GAMBLERS, TRAFFICKERS, GOVERNMENT YES, NOT LYING THERE, MILITARY, SECRET SOCIETIES...ALL OF COURSE, IN THE NAME OF
GOD]
THE SORCERY, all nicely wrapped up in CHRISTIAN RELIGION
no longer could I deny the connection to what I knew, to be truth. What all that truth was, I did not know, I only knew, there was an evil force working in my life, pulling me to the DARK lord Jesus, who holiness and all, worked evil for our good....the glory to be a self crucifying body, a SACRIFICE,
I could understand the call of the Mayans, when they lead those SACRIFICES TO THE TOP...the serpent figure on the side, the SPORTS, GAMBLING at the top, for Souls....oh the Redemption, WHO gets to play with That one, who gets to RAPE THAT ONE,
pass her around, they do.....
and the SLAVE, THE DUPED SLAVE WHO THINKS THEY ARE LOVED, FOLLOWS BLINDLY, TO THE SLAUGHTER,
and I found it more interesting that I was being sent signs, all over, the history of the love affair of the Catholic church and with South America, Mexico, the Mayans, Aztecs [city of Atlantis, the also city, Atlantic, a gambling center--btw, Nevada, Las Vegas, Ninevah, Sin City, they obviously like to brag about their exploits right in front of us, while raping/killing women], gambling is the Sin City of also trafficked sex slaves/concubines, girls raped in every hole of their body, strangled, beaten, tortured, burned, called whore, bitch, slut, girls told to tell that they like it, that the 'god' is so big, while they are being strangled, beaten, raped in the ass, vagina, throat....
those concubines, to save the MIRAGE OF LOVED WIFE OF THE PURE
this garbage goes back to the B.C. times...all under the rule of Lords, Gods, Kings, Queens, the slaves, bartered, sold,
with the roll of the dice, SNAKE EYES...
while they laugh, they demand our worship, our loyalty, our FEAR, they instill the virus [Resident Evil, umbrella corp, the virus that turns us into raving consuming zombies, just like our master creators], using GUILT, BECAUSE WE VIOLATE, they own us, slaves we are--while they pass us around, like a motorcycle gang does to the captive female, gang bang,
denominations, religions, politicians,
private owners...
this is the creation of ROME, GREECE, BABYLON, EGYPT
the GARDEN....
deny it I no longer could. So I thought, ok there MUST be a miss up somewhere, a conspiracy of sorts, I had read how the Bible, was a conspiracy, 300 years AFTER Jesus, by men to set up a mirage of a good ROME but still the ROMAN PANTHEON NETHERTHELESS, UNDER ZEUS, or the Nordics, under Thor, take your pick...[they all have the same 'sign' or swastika, caste system, just things that make you go, hmmmmmm]
maybe, so I looked elsewhere, the ancient scrolls, shed light, but sad to say, they only confirmed my worst fears, suspicions. So I listen to Mother Earth, and I see so much in the Bible that confirms...
then my daughter says today, why do they print money and if they print money why so many poor so in my attempt to explain it to her, it comes to my mind, how money, was the tool necessary to CONTROL THE SLAVE, WHEN THE SLAVE POPULATION [B.C.] TIMES GOT TO BIG TO HANDLE...money, then gold, silver, coins, WOMEN, were the things bartered, traded, with that middle man, that middle man who gets his cut, in the whole web of slavery, setting up the Illusion that the slave is free--maybe a few get to move up the pyramid and become the middle man...
on this aspect, Marx nailed it. The scriptures of Jude, warning those who dare to speak against authorities [those same authorities who raped girls for sport, particularly before their wedding night, FACT], those scriptures that said to obey [so if master wants you to fuck ten of his Roman buddies you do it, as to the LORD but remember, you still chaste and pure, saved soul, never mind you're fragmented with 50 different personalities and demons are your constant companion--we Ignore that you see, cover it up with scriptural platitude and of course, when the guilt comes, just give the Pope Father some gold and chastity penance...or just your child, whichever they prefer...]
and remember, Jesus, loves you
so anyway, the money, slaves work to get that money to REDEEM THEMSELVES from slavery, that's how it worked in Rome, women redeemed themselves through DEBT BONDAGE, usually through marrying some old gross man they probably couldn't stand but it was better than fucking 100 men who raped her till she bled and so she did...that was HER redemption, never mind the religious pure women did not touch her, word or otherwise, because to do so would be to expose the ugly truth about a hideous lie [how they kept the mirage of illusion of Love , oh Cupid, in tact, to keep what left of their souls intact, glue to huff hard to come by those days], so women [FACT] went underground, healing arts, which were the empowerment to heal what they could, broken bodies that both Popes, Bishops, Priests and CENTURION GUARDS HAD worked together along with KINGS to break in two...all of course, under the guise of
HOLINESS and the anti-WITCH
FUNNY HOW NO MENTION OF, ALLOW NOT A SORCERER OR WARLOCK TO LIVE, OH NO, JUST A 'WITCH'
yea, I mean...the truth is there, if you take a good critical, that DO NOT DO AS IT'S BLASPHEMY AND HELL ETERNAL THREAT....view rather than the, want to be loved, accepted and safe from hell don't Think view...
so anyway...I'm putting this together and this scripture comes to me, where Jesus says, the LOVE of money is the root of all evil...
and it hit, Here it is again, another CATHOLIC-PROTESTANT LIE, the LOVE of money is the root of all evil, for the SLAVE, THAT TRANSLATES AS [SEX SLAVE ESPECIALLY] Protestants, became the new Middle Man, slavery, it's all the same Pyramid, there are Six pyramids, three big ones, three little ones--WAKE UP
"YOUR LOVE OR DESIRE FOR MONEY TO REDEEM YOURSELF FROM GETTING ASS FUCKED RAPED BY 100 MEN IS EVIL...GOD CREATED YOU TO BE THIS...TO WANT DIFFERENT, IS EVIL, TO BE HOLY IS TO SUBMIT TO THIS LOT IN YOUR LIFE, YOU FEUDAL WITCH"
do you see it?
The root of evil is NOT the love of money, oh hell no, the ROOT of EVIL IS THE LOVE OF BEING IN POWER, OF BEING 'god' OR GOD, OF BEING ABLE TO TORTURE, ENSLAVE, RAPE, WATCH SOMEONE IN PAIN BEGGING YOU FOR MERCY WHILE YOU GET OFF, AMUSED, THE SADIST YOU ARE
THAT, THAT IS, THAT LOVE, TO HAVE THAT, IS THE ROOT, OF ALL EVIL.
Money was simply an afterfact, when the slaves got to be too many in number, and the Enchantments no longer worked [in Egypt, both used enchantments, those snakes, those rods, think about it]
btw, T.V. equals media, media equals MEDIUM, yea, the big enchantment
anyhow, those monies, gold, silver, those Redemptions, of this SLAVE PLANET, something TRUE about the ancient Sumerian scrolls, as well as Egyptian,
it has Nothing to do with LOVE, that's total bullshit, to women especially...it's a GAME people, it's nothing more than one big game with US as the pawns,
this is WHY they silenced women, why they silenced them when those women got in touch with Mother Earth, who is Also being raped till she bleeds to death, gold mining, silver and rare earth mining, acid rain, waters polluted, you name it, she's bleeding to death,
this is WHY they slaughtered, enslaved, destroyed the culture, language of the Indigeneous peoples, the Native Indians, those Indians told TRUTH,
about the so called Jesus religions.
I do believe there was a TRUE Jesus, but that somewhere, somehow, what we see of Bible, is distorted, things HE said twisted, taken out of context, used to further, not Jesus, not the Kingdom of God, but the Kingdom of Rome, Babylon, Greece, Egypt, through the so called church....
the evidence is glaring,
the fruits,
thousands of genocides, HOLOCAUSTS AGAINST FEMALES, sex slavery, raping of earth to the point where guess what, forget the Mayan Serpent prophecies, the EARTH is destroyed beyond repair now, it's only a matter of time,
like a gang raped girl, she will hang onto the door, that nameless concubine, and die,
and then, will they cut her up, 12 ways, fight for who gets to sit,
and then, start over again, find another place, do the same thing? DESTROY,
remember, they LUV us, so they say...we are all virgin [make us bleed baby what they love so much, our PAIN] and then we are WHORES
how so Nice for them, eh
the Illuminati is Exactly what it is, the Nazis, all of it, it's all tied together, the serpent, dragon [China], all of it,
we were the pawns, the things they rolled the snake eye dice for, while our daughters bled to death, the True sacrifices,
our mothers, sisters, daughters,
those nameless concubines--and what do they do when it's all said and done, the LORD GOD gives young virgins to dirty old raping fighting men...as a DEAL,
yep, that's right, in Old Testament...women had no choice, they were nothing more, than the PRIZES,
FOR THE PAWN MEN, WHO DID THE DIRTY WORK--
roll the dice
either way, you and I are slaves, all we were meant to be...nothing more.
and the desire for money, for redemption, remember, to THEM, is the root, of all evil,
something, is just SOO OFF about the religion, of Christianity, that Bible, written by MEN at the council, of Nicea,
300 years later, after Jesus died.
something is just Way, way off,
the Holy Spirit will lead you into all truth, Jesus said... [little truth in the packaged lie, pay attention]
just like the lie of the serpent in the garden, bit of truth, in a lie
by their FRUITS YE SHALL KNOW THEM
well I don't know, a lot of things, but I do know this,
I've not seen Mother Earth charge money, for her food, healing herbs, I've not seen Mother Earth or any of her animals make sport of rape, raping the females of species, I've not seen Mother Earth demand worship and sacrifice, I've not seen Mother Earth tell her females they are evil, to despise themselves, to lie prostate to the mushrooms, while raping flowers
I've not seen that...but I've seen it, in every single Patri religion out there...
I've not seen Mother Earth remind me of all my faults, only to be kind, to walk gentle, to walk in harmony, respect, balance, for both of her female/male parts, if I want to live well,
Mother Earth never told me, my menstrual cycle was unclean, that my virgin blood was to be desired by some old raping man but that my menstrual blood, unclean--like WTF, seriously,
something is just off, really, really off.
about Religion,
I go outside and see the iron signs [false signs], and poles and cement towers [false wonders] and war centers [more false wonders] and the RAPE OF MOTHER EARTH, THE GANG RAPE OF MOTHER EARTH AND ALL HER DAUGHTERS, DAUGHTERS IN FACT GANG RAPED TO DEATH, THREE YEAR OLD GIRLS EVEN, INFANT GIRLS, FOR WHAT, DIAMONDS [MOTHER'S EARTH ENERGY THEY RAPED FROM HER], MINERALS, GOLD, SILVER,
SHE IS BLEEDING OUT, TO DEATH
WHILE THE PLAYERS AND KINGS LAUGH, ALL OF THEM
LAUGH AT HER RAPE THEY DO,
AT OUR RAPE
and they demand our worship or hell fire???????
something, yea, is just Off about it, all of it, and it's been this way, since B.C. times.
more and more, I believe, the Native American [and other indigeneous peoples] were right, they SAW it, those women, girls, butchered raped tortured in the witchhunts by the CHURCH SAW it, they tried to warn us,
why they were silenced.
GOOD does not have need to SILENCE BY TERROR, NOT IF IT'S TRULY GOOD,
BUT EVIL DOES.
by their FRUITS, YE SHALL KNOW THEM.....
Jane
OK so been going back and forth and round and round on numerous things, regarding Christianity, Isms, RA [ritual abuse], patriarchy, etc., what they have in common and how they are intertwined, related, similar, etc.,
and bottom line I think is this, it's either FEAR or LOVE. The question, can we truly Love whom we Fear?
So now that leaves me with a Whole host of questions and well, I suppose a lot of ambivalence I have right now toward God. So, while I don't have a lot of answers [other than the usual scripture 'cliches' which I'm not going to bother listing right now because well, frankly, I'm fed up with cliches, especially cliches that have been monopolized and written by MEN, who demand love using fear/abuse, manipulation, and all the other b.s. and well, I suppose I'm just not content to 'rely' on those things anymore, especially not cliches,
so, in this wilderness I'll be pondering on this now, and will post what I find out here. Yesterday too I noticed, I should really change the title of this blog, being since, obviously there was no interest from others in beginning a real union to fight for women--which not surprising in Exceptionalist America, [good book on this, by Lipset, Martin, I concur with majority of his observations]. But I really don't feel like transferring all these posts to another blog and few read here anyway, so,
~~sigh~~ will leave it as it is for now.
I probably Do need to get back on to writing about the issues that I have written on, such as the exploitation in the cotton industry/slave labor and the sweatshop abuses, I've seemed to have gotten off on other issues and even tangents,
wasn't planned that way, nethertheless, who knows, maybe it will help somebody out there, to relate or to maybe look outside their little world, who knows,
well no, actually, the oppression of women, how infrastructures [religion included] are Woven, are very similar to how fabrics are woven, how the textile industry and the resources work, particularly in the exploitation of Mother Earth, even how fashion is the 'tool' of media manipulation to enforce or persuade internalized beliefs, misogynist at that, patriarchal, etc., so for not only profit but to maintain a status quo of placement, of where women, gender roles should be in society defined by the patriarchal hegemony [economics, religion, mores, norms, culture, etc].
Even geo-political racism is structured around resources and resources for textiles OR textiles pillaged from lands [raping of mother earth] that Could be used for Food instead for countless poor. We are after all, fashion GLUTTONS in the West,
we're to cover nakedness but do we really need to cover our own nakedness with 100s of garments while there are children in the world naked and starving? This is something I've been Wrestling with, in regards to my OWN SELF AND LIFE, since God wooed me to Him but also since writing this blog, raging at the world,
I rage a lot, but more and more, IS it Enough to just Rage? Is it enough to just send money? And money, that may very well not even get to where it's needed but will wind up in the Very hands of those Patriarchal blood thirsty killers who Keep out aid and food and create the conditions that cause famines and misery?
What does it Really mean, to KNOW Christ?
I'm not content with cliches or even my own 'self justifications' anymore...I simply, cannot rationalize, so much...
just can't. And what prevents sacrificial Love actually, for me, is FEAR, oh Yes, I'll admit,
it's not just selfishness or self preservation, or lack of trust, it's FEAR,
to KNOW Christ....to really KNOW HIM,
more and more I am beginning to Think, we won't Ever know Him, until we not just strip off the religious garments, but we take that step, into faith, and GET WHERE there is SUFFERING,
AND CLOTHE, FEED AND GIVE THEM WATER...
not just write about it, not just give money, not just live as if time is guaranteed. And it probably does mean, for Women surely...one will die,
but then, maybe, just maybe, that's the whole point...Love will Die, so that Other's might Live.
More on this later...more and more, I really think, I'm going to stop writing altogether, and get on a plane...more and more, I'm leaning there...
just, where and when?
Jane
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