MAY 21--RAPTURE? HOW ABOUT, ONE WOMAN- PERSON FOR ONE WOMAN - PERSON PER DAY? MY NEW LIFE MOTTO-SERIES INTRO

Atacama, Chile The most Barren Desert in the World

When I started this blog, it was Supposed to be about fair trade, coops-unions for women, eco-ethics, etc., and along the way, well that kind of changed.  Well,

sort of,

Spiritually I changed [actually a Beginning of change] a couple of years ago...when I began to question My role and self in relation to the world, that was for starters...that and facing the truth and horrors about the depth of patriarchal misogyny and it's effects, not just on my life, but on my core self and soul.  And through this journey, if one wants to call it that, I've taken many self-reflective and questioning paths, confronting numerous life events and behaviors of others as well as my own--so I've tended to switch back and forth between the religious, feminism, my own life/dealing with RA, and the political.  Then there is the post-trauma of living in poverty and homelessness--that life, one doesn't leave behind I am finding...it becomes YOU, not just a part of you.  Hard to explain and I don't really want to get into it at this time--but that Change you see,

numerous changes, left me in fragments, or rather, with a Prism Lens, that makes it very difficult for me to settle for one view or one group think.  That's it--I don't do the whole group think, in fact not at all.  It's bad enough that I have had to find lost remnants of my very self--a self that was damaged and erased from the Beginning [from birth], and that having been done Deliberately by sick and dysfunctional people--supported by none other than RELIGION AND OCCULT AND POWER HOUSES.

Anyhow, without going into long boo hoo diatribe about my life [because well--hey, it begin to BORE me too], to sum it up--one begins to ponder on a lot--especially when looking or questioning, Who really is God?  I got to the point where I simply couldn't handle Christianese of Any sort--that includes the egals and liberal kind...it's not that I have any complaint against them, it's just that, I'm simply not in that frame of mind and in agreement with them--it's NOT my world,

and you know, maybe it wasn't ever supposed to be.  And I'm OK with that...and I'm getting to the place where I am at peace with the fact that we don't operate in a box...God's planet is Extremely diverse--botany is not a one theme pattern nor is Ecology.  However everything IS CONNECTED--INTERDEPENDENT, yet each with it's own function, gift, and life receiving and life giving relationships.  And I'm at peace now with my choice in indigenous beliefs or Native Indian--though I am finding my own path--however God leads me, this isn't easy because it requires stepping out on Faith--and by that I mean, Faith that isn't being programmed by doctrine of the indoctrinators.  Some call it mysticism, not sure if I would call it that, because it doesn't seem to fit into this mystic or gnostic puzzle, that might have something to do with the feminist lens that I do see through and various other influences, don't care to analyze it anymore.  At least not in the usual OCD way that I do...

anyway--so this whole rapture business comes up, and at first I didn't know what it was because I stopped watching the news a while back--stopped depending on internet news and well, sort of just jumped off the world grid so to speak, to Some degree, I did of course keep in connection to issues effecting women, but everything else I just lost interest.  I have learned a couple of things over this past year, being in the Wilderness so to speak,

one of them is, I can't do a damn thing about the world--in like, changing how the world operates as a whole, because I am N.O.T. 'GOD'.  And while it sucks because as a Woman--who is aware of the increasing holocaust against women, I know...I can only do so much, I do not have the powers of some super hero that can change the minds of millions who Choose to walk in hate and misogyny--and Come to think of it, this is what kind of turned me off to those who Still are adamant about hanging onto a cultist church, even though child abuse and woman hate is rampant, with this idea that if they Just hang in there--one day, a miracle will happen and Poof--hard hearts will change.  What they don't get--is that it's not just about Women--the church has been CORRUPT

SINCE THE DAY OF IT'S ROMAN INCEPTION--300 YEARS AFTER THE DEATH OF CHRIST.

But even more so--was and is the FACT--that the American Church--as a CULTURE, was founded on none other than

BLATANT ROBBERY, THEFT, LYING, AND GENOCIDE.

And they've been COLONIZING THE POOR EVER SINCE--so this SHOCK that hey, all of a sudden WHITE women are feeling the WRATH of the WHITE MALE CHRISTIAN OPPRESSOR,

is just I don't know--it SHOULDN'T BE, SURPRISING...none in the least.  Now I am aware that we are Conditioned to believe a certain way--sure I get that, I'm just as guilty [if not more so] of being deceived as many are today, I get that.  We live in a very deceptive profit driven/power driven culture.  Always have--but there IS enough INFORMATION out there, that WE as A GOVERNMENT don't really have any EXCUSE...so to blatantly deny and choose NOT TO SEE because hey if we did, then we have to Look in the mirror and see how WE--INDIVIDUALS--HAVE CONTRIBUTED OR BENEFITED even if in small way, from the colonizing, corruption, racketeering and blood letting/being in bed with other government terrors and then you see, then there is the QUESTION

DO WE CONTINUE TO SUPPORT-----------OR DO WE CHANGE?

I believe Marx termed it as 'becoming Conscious'.  And so by consciousness--what I have been seeing, is how that my little actions, good and bad, have impact on other's all the other side of the world.  Because this is how ECOLOGY WORKS, this is how LIFE ENERGY WORKS.  


So, anyway...so I am doing something and on our t.v., the small one my daughter sometimes watches [though I do watch the Office, admit I am an addict of that one show], and on the news they are talking about this May 21 thing--which you know, with my RA background triggers in huge way--Blackjack, number 21, talk about running numbers and Bookie work, oh yea--triggered big time, and FEAR,


oh my gosh, fear.  And then that FEAR [because it reminds me of the RA] triggers this rage that is just Boom--eating away, so the OCD hamster wheel gets a rolling and back and forth, love God hate God, it's just a nightmare and when I get into that frame of mind I begin to deconstruct and question and not always in a nice way either....which that later leaves me with Guilt.  And so I find myself having to disconnect even more from all of it [blogs, t.v., electricity, modern things and get quiet, in meditation and prayer] and then of course, THEN all the 'bad things' I've done, begin to grow up, in visions, before me, and I've done some really awful things,


I've lied, a lot, I've stolen [that includes not paying debts], and yea even though I was dirt poor, true, that doesn't justify my evil actions, you know--because it's the SAME DANG FORCE people--


one lie, breaks trust, that brokenness causes another to lie, breaks more trust, and more brokenness and then before you know it, the Connection and life force between us is all shattered like hell and that is what Iniquity is, it's  Cancer, it attacks healthy cells and invades and then one day, it has taken over the entire body.  And then, that body


dies.


So--I've been going through these deconstructs-reconstructs daily with God this past year [and past prior years to that] and seeing more, not just about the world but about myself, how the abuse destroyed me but NOT JUST THAT--how that abuse in destroying me, took me captive and I then was a tool, but also not just a tool, but by nature, began to destroy others.  All it takes is a chipping away, with the power of Words.  But not just that,


for years I screamed about the injustices of politics, power, men...but God would show me things you see, like,


how much Food I have wasted.  Now that might not seem like a big crime--but you know, when you see the life force in ECOLOGY and see how many in our world do STARVE on a daily basis--then YES, it goes beyond just being ungrateful--it is part of that evil life taking vampire force, because it's a force that works and gets it's power out of


BROKENNESS.


So I find myself becoming conscious of these tiny things...things that built up.  And then, the meaning of Love began to pester me more and more--what Did Jesus mean by so much of what He said [or that other's said He said through the passing of folklore.]  Many claim that folklore has no truth or merit, no scientific backing,


I beg to differ, folklore is the learned by experience Wisdom from the elders, the sages, the prophets.  To me, it IS  a science.  Because those before us--LIVED.  They breathed the air, felt the pain, saw good and saw evil, some more than others and they told us, through words, some words were hidden on purpose by power mongers but it always seeps out, like herbs [what modern man calls weeds] through the cement cracks on a sidewalk--eventually truth seeps out.


You can't kill it, and interestingly, it was WOMEN, who passed down much of the folklore, just so you know.  The clay vessels that carry the water, the water taken from the wells--water that has carried generation after generation through trial and tribulations.  KILL WOMAN AND YOU KILL WATER--it's that simple folks.  And it's SCIENCE, it's ECONOMICS, it's LIFE.


NO WATER = SOUL THAT LOOKS LIKE THIS

Atacama, Chile The most Barren Desert in the World

So this whole rapture thing, got me to thinking...about What really IS important.  I do believe that one day, the Lord is coming, but  I don't believe it's in the literal sense of the terms that have been proclaimed.  And I believe it has Far more to do with each of us, in the individual HEART and SOUL, than as groups and nations.  And I find myself questioning, do I change [repent] because of the 'if you don't This horror will happen' and if That is the reason then--how is that Love?  Most of all, how in the world is that heart TRUTH?

It isn't...it's Coercion and eventually it will fall flat, fall away, because there is NO LIFE IN IT.  And you know, that in of itself, is HELL, because it's that brokenness that causes hell on earth,

hell caused by FEAR, LOATHING, CRITICISM, CYNICISM, INDIFFERENCE, APATHY

now Not saying, one walks around in a bubble land fairy PRIVILEGE world either, that isn't LIFE either, that is VAMPIRISM...because it Takes energy to Give LIFE.  That energy has to come from somewhere or SOMEONE...therefore indifference is just the other pole to the whole hell equation.  

And religion falls into those poles...why there is no life in it, no water and lots of hate of woman.

Anyway--so I'm thinking on all these things, even on the question of Eternal Life--would I really want to spend an eternity being lifeless, cynical, and most of all--with others who are the same or worse?  That isn't life--that's just another form of hell--if I can't stand the church culture today I darn sure don't want to spend eternity with them--Question is though,

Why?  And really, if you probe deeper into this, IN TRUTH, when our hearts are broken we don't want to spend eternity with our SELF either.  Broken by loss of CONNECTION.

AND YOU KNOW SOMETHING--THAT IS WHAT I TRULY THINK, HELL REALLY IS, AN ETERNITY WITH 'SELF', A SELF THAT IS DISCONNECTED WITH OTHERS BECAUSE SELF REFUSED TO

LOVE.

It don't matter how much 'Jesus-knowledge' one knows, if there isn't LOVE inside, that is Hell.  And I don't mean love by pretense, you know that whole religious fake ass thing, nor love by hedonism--yea fucking and orgies don't count men, for 'love', romance doesn't count for love either, it falls into the me, me me category and hedonism [that includes the ole marriage under Gawd as man as head puke and woman as sex slave puke] 

and culture don't count for love either, or any other 'ism' for that fact.

So what is love?  I think the answer, is right in front of us...in NATURE.  The eco systems we depend on, each system has a message--if we only took the time to listen, we are CONNECTED, in some way, to the entire Cosmos.  Our actions, choices, have an IMPACT,

not just on each other, but on the entire ECO SYSTEM.  That system that gives humanity

clothes for the naked
water for the thirsty
food for the hungry
healing/balm for the sick, afflicted
rebuke [bee stings, etc] to correct or teach wisdom
justice--what goes around comes around but this is measured also with MERCY to those who are MERCIFUL
etc etc etc etc

so in every thing we do, we have an impact, now there is always evil, what I mean is, what is 'good' for us can be 'evil' to someone else, and vice versa, I'M not talking here about Deliberately doing evil, but about life itself, such as,

let's say, damming or diverting water to farm and downstream that causes another to not have water...there are just some things that I don't think we can prevent, that's probably not a good example but it was one on top of my head here---but you see there is a Huge difference between natural cause and effect,

and then, deliberate cause and effect through INDIFFERENCE, APATHY, RACISM, CLASSISM, SEXISM, ETC., 

and I mention this because I don't think we ever arrive at utopia [not in this world] but we can still become Conscious of our self and our self's relationship to others and to this world and to God and the earth.  This is what the Native Indian and other Indigenous people believed, and still do,

and I think they are absolutely right.  In fact, I believe that IS THE TRUE MESSAGE OF GOD...this is what I believe.  So, I'm thinking on Afghanistan and the world and the horrors and my life and failures and what I've learned--and the end, etc., and how so many were making a mockery of the whole end of world thing [that's the other side of the Evil coin btw, shows a complete arrogance and indifference to our place in the cosmos] and the lack of love due to iniquity and how I, like a tree, could see this rotted corpse,

and then it all began to make sense, and then, in this dark abyss, I asked self, What now?  Do I just continue to go on or do I choose--to choose love?  I do believe one has to make a willful choice, it's not like God comes down and puts a 'spell' on you and you just become some magical fairy being, no,

it becomes a willful choice, you CHOOSE, what to be.  No matter how dark this world is, you CHOOSE, now God helps you, and transforms you once you make that choice, God is Love, but the change, comes on the INSIDE OF YOU, OF ME,

and that seed grows.  You don't just exist, live, you begin to Want to give LIFE to others--because that is what REAL LIFE IS,

giving LIFE, not just consuming life.  And it's not just in works--it's in all we are, do, become, and what I find interesting, is that I've seen people actually living this out, and they aren't always Christians, in fact most of them are not, they are Spiritual, but they are not Christians, in terms of 'labels' and so forth--but they LIVE what CHRIST TAUGHT,

and That, to me, is what the Spirit is.  And so--this series, rather than focus on the ills of the world, I want to focus on life givers, and life giving projects, and not just campaigns but life changes--that have positive LIFE GIVING impact to others, that save lives, show LOVE IN ACTION--and if we were do Do, one small change, daily, as Women, we Do work towards LIFE GIVING

TO OTHER WOMEN ELSEWHERE,

one woman--per day.

IT may not seem like much--but the more Connected we become, healing those broken connections, the more we see or become conscious of that life-love force, but not just become aware of it,

we become a Part of it, and it becomes a Part of us.

And that's what I think the Tree of Life truly is--it does take a death, a death to the old nature, self, corrupt tree, that whole poison and lens, because it becomes other centered [giving life, not objectifying, big difference there] rather than

self centered.

Jesus says..if you've done it to the least of these, you've done it UNTO

ME....

one woman, per day--one small barely hanging on, grass in a barren cold loveless land--desert,

one act = [multiplied, that breaking bread] =

 

Atacama Desert, Chile

next in series--Food, the $2.00 a day project, one woman shares on her blog--and the first accusation/tempting and causing Mistrust/Disconnect, with Woman [the serpent attacks her in garden over FOOD, and has been doing this to Woman ever since--what I am learning, and how it's connected to life elsewhere.

Jane

MAKING PEACE WITH SELF THROUGH ACCEPTANCE, HOW GOD SETS ME FREE FROM PATRIARCHY SERIES

not posting-- writing wise today--like I normally do...will come back to, for now am re-centering focus, reflecting on many things, been talking, listening to God, about a lot of things, my struggle with self and living in this crazy world, and well, this one thing, I'd like to share today, IF anything just because, I truly believe HE deserves some credit for His amazing attention to detail, His consistent care and attention and patience because it took billions of years for all these elements to come together, wind molding, water softening, wind chiseling, ground shifting plates, to create all this beauty but not just beauty, but whole LIFE systems that WE depend on...that WE are a part of, and I more and more do NOT believe, that WE, humanity, are the Monopoly NOR are we at the 'top' of this chain of beings that God yes created...I think we Made ourselves to be that AT the expense of the planet, animals, each other


but I do NOT believe that GOD created us to Become what we have, but then, that through this Fish School of LIFE we learn, through our mistakes, just like children do...we learn by Knowing, because in the End of all of it, the Sum of All things, there IS a bigger picture and that is what Jesus has been showing me, through His grace, more and more.  It's a humbling experience, to say the least, to see Him in His Encompassing Everything, only way I know to say it.  I'm not talking here about religion or man's dogma or how man through the ages has perceived, though I do believe that all those things were and are progressive little steps, from a spiritual kindergarten to high school, a type of dialectical learning, unfolding, like how a rose starts from a root ball to a plant to a thorn to a bud to a opening flower...

These videos, there are no words necessary, except, one thing that God showed me, in the first, is that I can embrace my eye color [green/dark green/gold], my cliff like mountain nose, my way too thick wavy and wild dark auburn hair [though now it's more tree bark gray and dark brown] in a way that, I didn't really grasp before...I believe we are made in God's image, modeled a lot from how our Mother Earth and Father Earth is...the 'images' of media are false, those aesthetics that we Measure our self by, be it in mediums of t.v. or video or clay forms back in B.C., it is in my belief that we were created in the image of God, and that THAT image, is Very diverse to say the least.  So, here's to,

my Heavenly Father, Heavenly Mother, Earth Father, Earth Mother, in God  [if you click right key mouse, hit view in you tube window, then you can get full screen, it's WAY better, that way, just be sure to click view in you tube window, it should open up in new window,  This video, without going into detail, has some personal meaning for me, and it has to do with image.  Question is, where do we get our image from...or what IS image, some things for you to think about while enjoying these.

again, no words necessary...where so much of it began

In the Beginning...

Thank you Jesus,

to You, the glory always shines, though in love you never blast it, it's always there, I'm so sorry, I was so wrapped up in so much drivel to not really take notice, but like nature, you in patience and understanding, of our smallness, waited,

and showed me.

You show all of us, I think, it's not that You are invisible so much, maybe?  Maybe it's that, we don't see because of the board in our eyes and the hardness of our own hearts, life does that to us, some of us more than others, and the images we have of you are more than naught Constructs made by man for whatever reasons,

You've always been there, our Works show Who we are, but those Works I am seeing, take years, of being molded, chiseled, brushed, transformed,

and it requires patience.  The bigger picture, we are just a very, very small part of, but one thing we share, is Words,


what sets us apart, is the use of Words.  So, reflecting on this, may I learn to respect the power and life source of Words, not to take them for granted or lightly--in both thought and practice.


Maybe this is where more silence is needed, to listen, and learn...I am Sooo ready, to just shut up and


listen




Jane

HOW I FIND FREEDOM IN GOD EVEN THOUGH I LIVE IN A PATRIARCHAL WORLD SERIES PART I

Easy, Man Isn't My 'GOD' nor does Man Define GOD for or to me!!!

Yesterday I posted on this tree [pic below], and how Awesome God is, which HESHE is, anyhow, I realize that the mention of God can and does trigger for most women because God has always been defined By men and By yes, Patriarchal Constructs or Frames.   So I thought I would share a few things for next couple of days, of how I see God, why?  Because over the past couple of years it has been GOD who has set me free from so many of the patriarchal lies that bind women, even though yes, I still live in a patriarchal world and in fact in my own personal life still deal with yes, patriarchy, even misogyny.  I don't discuss my 'private' life on the web and I probably won't, I tend to be somewhat of a private person...However, all I will say, is that Yes I still deal with Misogyny on levels that it's still very painful, very frustrating AND IF, IF I went along with what Religion says [and there was a time I did attempt to 'mold' myself into man's doctrines] I would have been in a nuthouse long ago.  It was GOD and yes, even Jesus that gave ME the strength to DUMP all the constructs and be Free to just be--

now before I go on, I will say, I do not attend church [nor will I ever] nor am I what you would call a 'traditional' or 'western' Christian...I am of no denomination nor am I strictly 'by the book'.  And it is not my intention to 'preach here', but what I would like to do is redirect Focus, to some things that have Empowered me and aided me in being able to not only heal but see from eyes that no matter what horrors are in this world, those horrors do NOT have to hold a power Over me....

so, Beginning with this 'dancing tree', I would like to share with you how God has shown me, HIS HER sense of Humor, and so since I began with this tree, allow me to share with you these photos I stumbled upon yesterday....

this first one, how God feels about humans who Trash the environment, or who treat others nastily or who Ignore HisHer provision, detailed care, art in creation, etc., from a site called Tree Climbing Day [there are several odd trees, click on photo to go to link] but I am choosing the ones that LOL stood out to me, starting with the Ticked Tree

 

See God Does understand those times when I have just had enough of men's b.s. and I just wanna go, F You, oh God Does understand, believe me and has a great sense of humor to relay to me that maybe HESHE knows and understands ME more than I do sometimes,

then of course, there are some other hilarious displays of humor from yes, God's trees, like this one, LOL,

next time a Man comes on the scene, such as a feminist blog, just whip this out, ROFL, man thinks he has the monopoly on penis size, Ha, Ha, Don't think so

 

lol Couldn't resist that one, yes I would say GOD has one hell of a sense of humor alright, and HisHer 'size' lasts a hell of a lot more Time, He doesn't need any Viagra, Ever!  [yea so next time some MRA throws up male superiority, just plaster This on your blog, that should shut him up]

Oh and all this 'labia shame' b.s. that the Porn culture throws our way, GOD has something to say to you too, because GOD is dang proud of HISHER labia, clitoris and vulva, so proud that it isn't Covered up in shame

 

And they come in All shapes and  sizes too, so Next time some jackass man tells you, you don't measure up, tell him to shove a sock in his mouth because GOD begs to differ,

And gee Amazing isn't it, they aren't surgically 'altered' or mutilated, no GOD won't have any of That NONSENSE,  and if You don't like God's body image style OR HISHER creation of the Female Body,   then well, remember, 

OK that's just for starters, so you see GOD empowers my Body Image, I love my Body, Curves and all!  If you click on these photos there are numerous other trees with various nipple shapes, thigh shapes, penis shapes and vagina shapes...and Yes I believe with my whole heart GOD speaks to us all through Nature,  in Thousands of ways.  And you know the Awesome thing about Trees is that they provide shade, they provide ample branch strength to hold up rope swings so that we can fly and listen to the birds at the same time.

 

I spend a lot of time swinging Still, yes even at my age...this winter, me and Jesus made a deal that during snow I would swing...it's one thing I had not ever done, was swing during a snow storm, so it was a date, sure was, I was to make a thermos of hot cocoa [which I settled for tea since I didn't have any Fair Trade at the time--arrrgh, come on Grocery Stores get ON the ball with this, it like totally sucks having to go twenty miles for Fair Trade Choc], bundle down and first snowstorm head on out to the park.  Now it wasn't a tree swing, just a swing set at a local park but there is right near it a huge Oak tree, some Cottonwoods and Numerous Fir, Pine and Aspen trees.  So one afternoon it was snowing and so He told me, 'remember you and I have a date'  so I bundled up in layers with my long Camels Hair coat [that I purchased cheap at a thrift store years ago, it was made in Russia and it has lasted me for years and it is So warm, our winters can get a bit cold so the coat was I think a blessing, not my favorite color, the camel brown/beige but it is baggy, long and warm as toast.  And great for wearing bulky sweaters underneath].  So I bundled up, wrapped my  head up in my wool scarf so I could stay outside for a long time because long and WIDE, the key is Wide, wool scarves can be wrapped around where they don't fall off and yet still leave enough room if one wants to cover the face loosely so you can breath warm air back onto yourself...which helps when it's wind chill factor and below zero.  

And I headed off, I was hoping for large snowflakes so I could see the outlines of the shapes but the wind was whipping it  up so didn't get to see those [I have on a couple of occasions seen some amazing snowflakes, you know what you Can see with naked eye] but anyway so I began to swing, watching the snow grace the large Oak or Cottonwood? in front of the swing not too far away, don't have a photo but found one that is Kind of similar to give you an idea of what I was seeing [the one tree anyway]

 

having my talk with GOD and the next thing I know [without sharing all the details as this was kind of a special time for me] my attention is brought to watching the smoke come out of a chimney where a fireplace was burning...so I'm swinging in this snowstorm, warm but yes a Bit chilly so I could see the smoke from my breath, which I have always loved that--and so I'm watching this big Oak tree and the smoke billowing out from the fire chimney and it makes all these beautiful shapes, as If it was Dancing in the Snow, the snow was in no way This heavy but this was the only photo I could find that shows 'chimney smoke During a snow storm' so to give you an idea

So anyway I'm swinging, which Isn't as EASY to do when it's freezing outside, no matter how well one is bundled up, though it WAS beautiful, the air other than the wind was silent and the smoke would change colors from a whitish gray to a darker shade of almost this teal gray and it looked as if there was a ghost, laughing at all the houses with the people hunkered down inside--and all this time there is this ghost smoke being, from a fire inside, bellowing out, it was really amazing to just watch.  And then I thought of fire, how vital fire has been in the life of humanity but also how destructive the force of fire can be, you know the mind thinks all sorts of odd things, when contemplating God in nature...how distinct yet powerful HisHer forces are, how Dependent we are on them TO LIVE yet at the same time, those same forces can take us out...if ya know what I mean, kind of gives a Whole new meaning to the phrase mother's use,

"I brought you into this world and I can take you out of this world",

LOL, except you see, when GOD says it, GOD can do it, and so, I'm swinging, watching the smoke, and then my breath, because that was another cool love I had and had talked to GOD about numerous times, some memories I had walking in winters growing up and how I would watch my breath, you see I walked long distances in the snow [yes I  had shoes lol] and Winter is one of my Favorite Seasons, Fall is my Favorite so anyway, I would take walks during Winter when I was younger [my back injury doesn't allow me to do as much now as I would like] and that included walks in day and numerous walks at night--I especially Loved night snow walks because how everything looked like it was covered in diamond flakes and the way the street lights would play with the shadows.  So the breathing...I'm sitting on this swing, took a break from swinging as I was tiring out [back injury there as well] and thinking images between my breath and then the smoke from the chimney fire, and then it dawns on me...

here's what our breathing looks like, now I chose this photo because even though it's a horse it's has good detail

 

You see the smoke right, from the breathing...well OK so I'm thinking on this, how GOD gives us LIFE in our breathe, through the air, how our heart beating with a time [like a clock] and how all that works, you know, how the Trees breathe back and how that whole cycle works, and then, I get a mental image kind of like this,

what I think is GOD's BREATH

 

Yea Yea I know, it's just the steam and mountains, blah blah blah, yea Whatever, lol, I don't see it that way, to me it's All ALIVE, from the trees to the blades of grass to the particles that make up the air, and so let me include these photos as well [click on photos to go to links, I'm just choosing them from images/google browsing--mentioning this because some of these are from photographers and they have several in their galleries]--

how GOD breathes in Snow

 

now She has a blog of her work, am including link here because I want to come back and look, it caught my eye, amyelkins.blogspot.com 

So, GOD breathing back to me, never thought of it that way before until that day...So you see, while Living in this screwed up misogynist patriarchal world, and having to have had to Deal with the PTSD from yes misogynist abuses, from past trauma, I know what it is to wrestle with the inner demons of hatred, resentment, Despair, and losing my Faith not only in humanity but in GOD too,

been there, done that, been in that Pit.  Religion didn't pull me out of the pit, if anything Religion helped to throw me into the pit and by religion I also mean man's ideals, man's philosophies, man's answers and including how man Defines GOD and tells us, has always told us who GOD is in Man's image of course,

while demonizing She, the Female, Woman, while demonizing her, controlling her, killing her and Erasing her.

But you know no matter How much Man and Man's systems erase, they cannot Erase our words, our Existence nor our Herstory, and they cannot Erase, GOD.  GOD as in HE and SHE.  GOD is everywhere, 

Nature is GOD's masterpiece, of art, literature, science, history, herstory [there is Reason those water vessels in women's graves are still around], and yes, even

humor.

Nature is GOD's gift to all of us Women--

whether we See it or not, is up to us, She in GOD won't force herself on us, yet SHEHE is always there...waiting, breathing always...His and Her love to us.

more to come, Peace,

Jane--edit, note

I wanted to show someone the photos here, links and when I clicked, links didn't show SO, I am adding links here, because I don't like to post photos without links...I hope other photos here have not left out link sites, but I will be sure to check from now on,

the tree [male penis and vulva trees] shown [there are several various photos of Mother Nature's trees and various body shapes] here:  http://duo.irational.org/international_tree_climbing_day/  BTW, my Intent here is not to do some Porn tree series, hardly, but to SHOW, the trees, being that they are also what give us LIFE in the oxygen we breath [without Trees, Tree of LIFE we DIE], we are made in 'their image' the Bible says, I believe all parts of our bodies are modeled after Something in yes Nature, that is why I show these, man has in his small mind/self hate projected hate and dominance over the female body, I want to show that our Body is something that is to be respected, not to be ashamed of either, but to see it in it's Total LIFE FUNCTION, just like in NATURE...

horse breathing in snow:  http://www.flickr.com/photos/rockandracehorses/3340881836/ 

storm cloud:  http://biggovernment.com/prahe/2010/12/10/economic-storm-clouds-on-the-horizon/  [I clicked it on google looking for face in cloud photos, was looking for a Particular one but couldn't find it, liked this one so, there ya go]

dancing tree  http://whisperingcraneinstitute.wordpress.com/2007/02/22/trees-we-do-not-like/

ticked off tree:  http://duo.irational.org/international_tree_climbing_day/day2008/

chimney smoke:  http://flickr.com/photos/rtct/2254118436/

Sorry about that, I just don't like to put photos here without the Credits, for some reason they aren't going to the Link when you click on them...so, from now on I'll be checking to make sure they do...the oak tree swing and the cottonwood or oak I remember getting from google images, when I find them I'll post the links.  Again my apologies to the photographers, it wasn't my intent to steal photos...that and I like to go to the links and look at the galleries and That is how I  noticed, so, OK,

to readers, sorry about the additional edit, hope you understand.  This is how I used to do each photo btw when I began this blog then they changed the format, and clicking the photo immediately sent you to the web site, but now that doesn't seem to work so either I'm not doing it right or something--but I'll look into it.  

Sincerely,

Jane

LOOK AT WHAT GOD SHOWED ME TODAY, YOU'RE NOT GOING TO BELIEVE THIS!!!

Before I post this pic, God is SOOOOOO AWESOME, lately me and Him haven't been getting on too well, you know deconstructing Religion and Doctrine and Dogma, is NOT easy, leaving traditions of Religion behind and breaking away into Walking in Faith on own, especially when that Walk is SOOO Different from what you've been Told or led to believe through indoctrination is Supposed to be a certain  way-I nearly tossed Jesus out the window Numerous times, one to be Feminist, Woman Centered in a Faith that has been Male Centered and the Dogma of that, is simply NOT possible.  It just isn't, but that's not just feminism, the same can be said for human rights--IF one takes scriptural text Literally there is simply NO WAY,

one can reconcile values when doctrines have been traditionally Opposed To those values.  What saved my faith was one scripture, where Jesus says, the Holy Spirit will lead you into all Truth, not once did Jesus mention, the Bible.  Not once.

I believe the Bible is just a guide, a historical Allegory, reference, of the State of Humanity, in relation to God and to Nature.  I believe, for example the story of Adam and Eve has Numerous meanings...such as Atom and Electron [taking the science], such as what happens when women attempt to disregard the Feminine in God [SHE] and assimilate into maleness [to be as the 'gods' the serpent/trickster said...to put value on maleness over femaleness leads to death], which it Does, the disregard to nature, there is Numerous allegories and Philosophical Wisdom from just that one story...among numerous others.

And that's how I see it now, through prayer, silence, [an art that has to be learned], reflection, facing darkness and blindness Within one's self, etc., so yes my Faith is Way different, from the Traditional Christianese, a bit of Gnosis, a bit of Pagan [earth centered  or nature centered], Jesus centered, Sacred Feminine, and for me personally the Bible, as a guide, has confirmed every thing God has shown me...though there are times I get lost walking through the forest, struggling with my own lack of love, ability to forgive, to be Patient and know that the Holy Spirit, the Spirit works, and does NOT need my control to do so, etc., over Other's that is.  Not to say we don't confront nor speak up, but I tend to have to step back and check myself, because I can put people into boxes and not allow the room for Change, when we imprison others we really Imprison Ourselves but Anyway,

so me and Him/Her have been working on some things, and yesterday, was sitting outside chatting with my friend [who is wise crone, love her dearly] and I am playing with some seeds from a tree that have fallen into the street.  I un-peel one, because I was in this really mean kind of mood, feeling kind of guilty because you see me and Him have been going back and forth over the issue of power, Patriarchy which I vent to Him a lot on this, and to Her [Mother God] and so this seed, I see is covered in dark brown Hair...like human hair, it was really awesome, so I kept this little seed.  Today I see it has a type of face, Yes I believe that there IS life in Trees--

anyway, so we work some things out, make my Peace, and then today, I am browsing images, and HE tells me, look up trees because you see lately me and Him have been going over the types of trees, how to identify them, their leaf shape, utility in nature, etc., the Interconnection of all LIFE, and I see THIS, remember the Feminine in God, here ya go, and Yes THIS is REAL

This is all natural, real tree, no Words really necessary, this was the first photo that popped out to me this morning after hours of silent conversation with Him, over tree seeds, the Sacred Feminine, and so, I just had to share this,

Peace,

Jane  [MORE to come...later]

I BELIEVE 'GOD' IS WAY BIGGER THAN 'CHRISTIANITY'

it's better to watch it full screen so I am adding the share option,

go to link, hit full screen at bottom left, Then watch

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=thuViaxRd_w

if link doesn't work, just go to here, this is a must see

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=thuViaxRd_w&feature=related
and also watch

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qh25FY17d1s

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z0xsccVQO7U

more to come

Miley Cyrus (Hannah Montana) Can't Be Tamed Video and the Genius Behind Part 2 -section B

Part 2 Section B of Miley Cyrus's Can't Be Tamed Video and the Genius Behind It

Yesterday I ended this series with a video by Pink Floyd, regarding the Planet or Mother Earth taking back what is her's, what is needed for life that we, humanity, have taken for granted in our 'quest for dominance'.  Going back to Genesis, once more, we see that there is a Separation after the Fall of Man between humanity and God, between humanity and animals and between humanity and the Earth.  Many think that the earth, the plants, so forth are simply organic 'dead' material, that they have no spirit or soul within and that because of this what we humans do to them does not matter to God.  Many who are of the religious mindset believe that the scripture in Genesis where God says 'let them have dominion and subdue the earth' means 'let them have their dominance, control and do as they damn well please'.  But nothing could be further from the truth.

and since then Mother Earth, like the Video, that untamed bird [played by Miley Cyrus] has been through evolution, Especially today, Fighting back.  And that is what I want to focus on today and I have decided to add a Section 3 to this series, because Section 3 [and possibly 4] I am going to bring into this the numerous Scriptures in the Word of God referring to the care of Mother Earth, the Plagues that are the result of sin and disobedience and disrespect to God and the final outcome. Rather than add the video once more, I want to instead add the Lyrics with photos, of how Mother Earth, is screaming, I can't be tamed by you humanity and how She is fighting back, and WHY that is.  [if you are not familiar with the video, see post below]

Let's Begin with a Screen Shot from "Can't Be Tamed" Miley Cyrus and the Photos/Lyrics [HER LYRICS WILL BE IN BLUE-VIOLET] the photos and lyrics can do the rest, OK

ah for Those of you who may think this is Silly, ah, let's Begin...Don't FEAR the BLACK RAVEN, RAVEN IN BIBLE USED AS 'GOD'S WRATH' AND 'JUDGMENT', REMEMBER TOO FLOOD, NOAH, RAVEN ALSO REPRESENTS 'MOTHER EARTH'S WRATH', SO, TO THE SCORNERS AND MOCKERS,  HERE YA GO....TAKE HEED

For those who don't know me, I can get a bit crazy
Have to get my way, 24 hours a day
'Cause I'm hot like that

ICELAND VOLCANO 2010

Every guy everywhere just gives me mad attention
Like I'm under inspection, I always get the 10s
'Cause I'm built like that

 Notice the Mason Symbol between the towers, a little 'clue' there for ya

Man's Surveying, Slicing, Dicing, Parting Out, Mining, Stripping, Strangling and Caging Mother Earth

I go through guys like money flyin' out their hands
They try to change me but they realize they can't

And every tomorrow is a day I never planned

If you're gonna be my man, understand

 

[Chorus]
I can't be tamed, I can't be saved 

I can't be blamed, I can't, can't

 ACID RAINS

 ASIAN CARP TAKING OVER OUR RIVERS AND LAKES

 WILD BOARS LITERALLY TAKING OVER UNITED STATES AREAS, EUROPE AND RUSSIA

 

I can't be tamed, I can't be changed

 

I can't be saved, I can't be (can't be)
I can't be tamed

 

If I see my reflection about my intentions

I'll tell ya I'm not here to sell ya

Or tell ya to get to hell

Gates of Hell in Turkmenistan, Karakorum Desert

 
I'm like a puzzle but all of my pieces are jagged

 

Karakoram Range (Chinese Karakorum Shan), mountain range of south central Asia, in the western Himalayas

If you can understand this, we can make some magic
I'm on like that

Nature Preserve see http://healingthroughlove.wordpress.com/2007/07/03/the-healing-power-of-nature/

 Real Fairies, Yes they Do Exist, miniature blown up under photographic lens, off of orchid Oberonia, see http://www.orchisasia.org/genre/Oberonia/oberonia%20anthropophora/index.html

I wanna fly I wanna drive I wanna go

I wanna be a part of something I don't know

And if you try to hold me back I might explode

Baby by now you should know

[Chorus]
I can't be tamed, I can't be saved
I can't be blamed, I can't, can't
I can't be tamed, I can't be changed
I can't be saved, I can't be (can't be)
I can't be tamed

I'm not a trick you play, I ride a different way

I'm not a mistake, I'm not a fake, It's set in my DNA

Tree Rings

 

Saturn's Rings Eclipsed by Sun, see http://www.outerspaceuniverse.org/rings-of-saturn-particles-water-ice.html 
 
Don't change me (x4)

(I can't be tamed) 

 DEAD SEA -- ISRAEL

I wanna fly I wanna drive I wanna go
I wanna be a part of something I don’t know
And if you try to hold me back I might explode
Baby by now you should know

[Chorus]
I can't be tamed, I can't be saved
I can't be blamed, I can't, can't
I can't be tamed, I can't be changed
I can't be saved, I can't be (can't be)
I can't be tamed

end of song
 Now let's look at that Video again, this time, one should get a totally different vibe from it, at least Think about it in a different way.  I will pick back up on this tomorrow, with scripture.  



For part I of this Series see:  http://homesewersneedleworkersunion-hsnwu.blogspot.com/2010/09/hannahs-cant-be-tamed-and-genius-behind.html

For part II of this Series section A see:  http://homesewersneedleworkersunion-hsnwu.blogspot.com/2010/09/hannahs-miley-cyrus-or-hannah-montanta.html

Jane